1 00:00:06,000 --> 00:00:12,074 Advertise your product or brand here contact www.OpenSubtitles.org today 2 00:00:50,418 --> 00:00:55,954 If you're watching this, you've discovered something you shouldn't have. 3 00:01:03,163 --> 00:01:04,997 Anyway, um... 4 00:01:06,867 --> 00:01:12,104 This... This is a close-up of a model's eye. 5 00:01:12,238 --> 00:01:14,940 Yeah. I can't remember her name to save my life, 6 00:01:14,942 --> 00:01:18,210 but she had the bluest eyes I've ever seen. 7 00:01:18,212 --> 00:01:23,048 The only other time I remember seeing this exact intensity of blue... 8 00:01:23,050 --> 00:01:25,984 was the day my sister drowned. 9 00:01:25,986 --> 00:01:27,186 It was everywhere. 10 00:01:27,188 --> 00:01:31,857 It was in the water, in the sky, Nicole's skin. 11 00:01:31,859 --> 00:01:34,393 Blue. I remember. 12 00:01:34,661 --> 00:01:35,661 And gold. 13 00:01:35,663 --> 00:01:38,931 The gold of the light off the surface of the water. 14 00:01:38,933 --> 00:01:43,268 Like an empty frame flashing onto the screen. 15 00:01:44,838 --> 00:01:46,405 Nicole. 16 00:01:46,407 --> 00:01:49,141 She's the one girl I keep trying to remember. 17 00:01:49,143 --> 00:01:52,344 But I... I think she's the problem. 18 00:01:52,346 --> 00:01:58,117 I think she's the reason I am the way I am, right? 19 00:03:38,818 --> 00:03:43,789 Maybe I should back up and try to explain what the hell happened here. 20 00:03:44,290 --> 00:03:48,560 Jesus Christ. What the hell did happen here? 21 00:03:48,562 --> 00:03:50,028 Um... 22 00:03:50,030 --> 00:03:52,798 Well, let's start with me. 23 00:03:52,800 --> 00:03:54,833 My name is Kevin Wolfe. 24 00:03:54,835 --> 00:03:56,001 I'm a studio photographer. 25 00:03:56,003 --> 00:04:01,139 I do head shots, and most of my clients are girls. 26 00:04:01,141 --> 00:04:02,874 Girls. 27 00:04:03,309 --> 00:04:05,844 They've sort of been the focus of my whole fucking life. 28 00:04:05,846 --> 00:04:07,112 They're sort of a problem for me. 29 00:04:07,114 --> 00:04:10,849 I've just been trying to find a way to forget all the bad experiences... 30 00:04:10,851 --> 00:04:13,585 and try to have at least one good one, so... 31 00:04:13,587 --> 00:04:15,954 every girl that comes into this studio... 32 00:04:15,956 --> 00:04:19,958 every actress, every model... 33 00:04:19,960 --> 00:04:21,393 I ask out. 34 00:04:21,395 --> 00:04:23,829 Would you like to see a movie? 35 00:04:23,831 --> 00:04:26,031 And they almost always say... 36 00:04:26,033 --> 00:04:27,799 No. 37 00:04:27,801 --> 00:04:30,235 And so, I do this forgetting thing. 38 00:04:30,237 --> 00:04:31,169 It's like a ritual. 39 00:04:31,171 --> 00:04:34,773 I mean, I know it sounds weird, but you gotta do something positive... 40 00:04:34,775 --> 00:04:39,077 to cancel out the negative experiences, right? 41 00:04:39,079 --> 00:04:41,079 Um, for instance, 42 00:04:41,081 --> 00:04:44,950 I forgot Theresa by going to Coney Island. 43 00:04:44,952 --> 00:04:47,586 And before Theresa there was Carrie, 44 00:04:47,588 --> 00:04:49,755 who decided to stand me up at the movies. 45 00:04:49,757 --> 00:04:55,027 Forgot her by watching every single episode of Lost on DVD. 46 00:04:56,062 --> 00:04:59,231 And then, uh... 47 00:04:59,666 --> 00:05:01,099 Then there was Sheila. 48 00:05:01,101 --> 00:05:02,834 She was a real girl, you know? 49 00:05:02,836 --> 00:05:04,903 Not like most actresses... not fake. 50 00:05:04,905 --> 00:05:09,374 Although she does look really overdone here. 51 00:05:09,376 --> 00:05:10,442 My assistant Jamie, 52 00:05:10,444 --> 00:05:12,911 she sometimes went a little crazy with the makeup. 53 00:05:12,913 --> 00:05:16,448 Anyway, I remember asking... Are you single? 54 00:05:16,450 --> 00:05:20,152 Um, I'm only 19. 55 00:05:20,154 --> 00:05:21,687 Oh. 56 00:05:21,689 --> 00:05:26,391 Um, do you have a... a boyfriend? 57 00:05:26,393 --> 00:05:29,194 Oh, no. No, I don't. 58 00:05:29,196 --> 00:05:33,031 Maybe we could go to a-a movie sometime? 59 00:05:33,399 --> 00:05:36,268 Uh... 60 00:05:37,036 --> 00:05:38,236 Sure. 61 00:05:38,238 --> 00:05:41,106 Yeah. Uh, sure. Um... 62 00:05:41,108 --> 00:05:43,275 I... I like movies. 63 00:05:43,277 --> 00:05:46,345 A lot of girls have a hard time saying no, 64 00:05:46,347 --> 00:05:49,314 especially if they're from Iowa or some fucking place. 65 00:05:49,316 --> 00:05:51,216 It's like they're trying to be polite all the time. 66 00:05:51,218 --> 00:05:54,286 But, anyway, she called the day we were supposed to go out... 67 00:05:54,288 --> 00:05:55,620 and she said she'd forgotten about other plans. 68 00:05:55,622 --> 00:06:00,692 Some relative was in from out of town, I think, or something, blah, blah, blah. 69 00:06:00,694 --> 00:06:03,362 I forgot her by going to the newsstand. 70 00:06:03,364 --> 00:06:05,831 Flipping through the fashion magazines, 71 00:06:05,833 --> 00:06:08,767 the pictures of the skinny supermodels, 72 00:06:08,769 --> 00:06:12,971 the emaciated and beautiful. 73 00:06:14,073 --> 00:06:20,712 And then, uh, there are the ones who are not so easy to forget... 74 00:06:20,714 --> 00:06:23,615 because they are the ones who said... 75 00:06:23,617 --> 00:06:25,417 Yes. 76 00:06:25,419 --> 00:06:27,219 Okay. 77 00:06:35,595 --> 00:06:37,262 This looks great. Thanks. 78 00:06:37,264 --> 00:06:40,165 It's a great smile. 79 00:06:41,434 --> 00:06:43,535 Have you done a lot of acting? 80 00:06:43,537 --> 00:06:45,704 I mean, theater or... 81 00:06:45,706 --> 00:06:49,341 Um, a few years ago, I went on some auditions. 82 00:06:49,343 --> 00:06:51,743 And then I met this guy, 83 00:06:51,745 --> 00:06:53,912 and... now I'm a hostess. 84 00:06:53,914 --> 00:06:58,483 But I'm planning on getting back into it. 85 00:06:59,619 --> 00:07:02,454 How old are you? 86 00:07:02,456 --> 00:07:04,022 How old am I? 87 00:07:04,024 --> 00:07:07,759 Why do you want to know how old I am? 88 00:07:08,928 --> 00:07:10,929 Where'd you grow up? 89 00:07:10,931 --> 00:07:12,731 Who said I ever grew up? 90 00:07:12,733 --> 00:07:14,766 Oh. 91 00:07:14,768 --> 00:07:16,301 Well, where'd you go to school? 92 00:07:16,303 --> 00:07:20,739 You know, usually, how this works is that I'm usually the one asking questions. 93 00:07:20,741 --> 00:07:22,174 Oh. 94 00:07:22,176 --> 00:07:25,544 What are you doing tonight? 95 00:07:26,312 --> 00:07:28,213 What am I doing? 96 00:07:28,215 --> 00:07:31,383 Do you want to go out with me, Kevin? 97 00:07:31,751 --> 00:07:33,885 Oh, like what? Like a movie? 98 00:07:33,887 --> 00:07:38,056 I was thinking more like a bar. 99 00:07:39,125 --> 00:07:41,493 Okay. 100 00:07:51,471 --> 00:07:53,472 Kevin. 101 00:07:58,778 --> 00:08:01,613 I had a bad dream. 102 00:08:59,640 --> 00:09:02,040 Oh, my God. 103 00:09:03,442 --> 00:09:08,380 - Good morning. - Are you taking pictures of me? 104 00:09:08,382 --> 00:09:10,282 Taking one picture. Here. 105 00:09:10,284 --> 00:09:12,484 See? You look beautiful. 106 00:09:12,486 --> 00:09:14,553 Not likely. Yeah, you do. 107 00:09:14,555 --> 00:09:17,856 Oh, God. 108 00:09:19,392 --> 00:09:21,693 What time is it? 109 00:09:28,100 --> 00:09:29,100 Oh, my God. 110 00:09:29,102 --> 00:09:31,970 I don't want you to get the wrong idea about me. 111 00:09:31,972 --> 00:09:34,372 Get the wrong idea? 112 00:09:34,374 --> 00:09:37,208 What wrong idea? 113 00:09:37,210 --> 00:09:38,977 Um... 114 00:09:40,713 --> 00:09:44,416 Yeah. I mean, I can't believe that I, like... 115 00:09:44,418 --> 00:09:46,418 Listen, I'm not, uh... 116 00:09:46,420 --> 00:09:50,322 I'm not the type of person that just wants to... 117 00:09:50,324 --> 00:09:52,924 Uh, fuck. 118 00:09:52,926 --> 00:09:57,996 Listen, I know that... I know that I really don't know you at all, Adrienne. 119 00:09:57,998 --> 00:10:01,099 I can't even think of your last name at the moment. 120 00:10:01,101 --> 00:10:04,302 But... And it's safe to say that you don't know me, 121 00:10:04,304 --> 00:10:05,971 but... 122 00:10:05,973 --> 00:10:09,240 I really feel that we made this... 123 00:10:09,242 --> 00:10:11,209 this connection. 124 00:10:11,211 --> 00:10:13,011 Right? 125 00:10:13,779 --> 00:10:15,780 Uh, a connection? Yeah. 126 00:10:15,782 --> 00:10:18,883 I mean, you're here, I'm here, 127 00:10:18,885 --> 00:10:23,755 and I just feel like there's this... there's a spark. 128 00:10:23,757 --> 00:10:27,759 I mean, what I want, really, is just... 129 00:10:28,761 --> 00:10:29,961 I just want a girl, you know? 130 00:10:29,963 --> 00:10:34,199 I mean, I'm just a guy. I mean, I'm not, like, a fashion photographer. 131 00:10:34,201 --> 00:10:37,102 It's nothing glamorous. I just do head shots, you know... 132 00:10:37,104 --> 00:10:40,405 300 a digital set, prints are extra. 133 00:10:40,407 --> 00:10:43,642 It's the deal I gave you, essentially. Yeah. 134 00:10:43,644 --> 00:10:45,543 Um, hey, listen. 135 00:10:45,545 --> 00:10:51,816 Yesterday was, like, a really, um, weird day for me. 136 00:10:52,918 --> 00:10:54,719 So... 137 00:10:54,721 --> 00:10:57,222 Mmm. Yeah. 138 00:10:57,224 --> 00:10:59,024 Okay. 139 00:10:59,225 --> 00:11:01,192 Sh... Coffee? Do you want coffee? 140 00:11:01,194 --> 00:11:03,995 I could go down to the corner... No, thanks. 141 00:11:03,997 --> 00:11:05,897 No, thanks. 142 00:11:06,565 --> 00:11:08,600 You have to go to work? 143 00:11:08,602 --> 00:11:10,935 Work. Yeah, I do. Work. 144 00:11:10,937 --> 00:11:14,706 Can I, um... Can I call you sometime? 145 00:11:14,708 --> 00:11:18,977 Um, did I give you my number? 146 00:11:21,847 --> 00:11:23,715 Oh. Wow. 147 00:11:23,717 --> 00:11:25,884 Uh, yeah, you gave it to Jamie on the card... 148 00:11:25,886 --> 00:11:31,423 so that I could call you when the pictures were ready. Oh! Right, right. 149 00:11:35,261 --> 00:11:38,630 Awkward. Okay. 150 00:11:38,632 --> 00:11:40,465 Thanks! 151 00:11:43,002 --> 00:11:45,170 Fuck. Fucking fuck. 152 00:11:45,172 --> 00:11:47,839 I am such a fucking idiot. Oh, my God. 153 00:11:47,841 --> 00:11:51,042 Oh, my God. I can't believe how stupid I am. 154 00:11:52,345 --> 00:11:56,347 No idea how to talk to people... girls in particular. 155 00:11:57,384 --> 00:12:00,719 Hi. I really think we had this connection, right? 156 00:12:00,721 --> 00:12:04,989 Hi! We have a connection. I really think, uh... 157 00:12:21,707 --> 00:12:23,742 Stupid. I'm so fucking stupid. I'm stupid. 158 00:12:23,744 --> 00:12:28,513 I'm such a fucking moron. I'm such a fucking dumb-ass piece of shit. 159 00:12:28,515 --> 00:12:31,116 Fucking brain... 160 00:12:32,818 --> 00:12:34,786 Hey. 161 00:12:34,788 --> 00:12:36,554 Hi. 162 00:12:37,389 --> 00:12:39,824 Do you wanna go camping? 163 00:12:39,826 --> 00:12:41,593 Uh, Derek and me were... 164 00:12:41,595 --> 00:12:45,730 Derek and I are going camping, and we want you to go. 165 00:12:45,732 --> 00:12:51,202 And I was thinking you could do some of your nature photography. 166 00:12:52,505 --> 00:12:56,941 You know, if you don't want to, that is totally fine. 167 00:12:56,943 --> 00:12:59,043 Please tell me you're kidding, right? 168 00:12:59,045 --> 00:13:02,280 Yeah. I was kidding. You're kidding. 169 00:13:02,282 --> 00:13:04,949 Yeah. I got you. You got me. 170 00:13:04,951 --> 00:13:09,087 I'm going to go set up now. Okay. 171 00:14:08,113 --> 00:14:11,449 Do you have any pictures to show me? 172 00:14:11,451 --> 00:14:13,218 Nah. 173 00:14:13,552 --> 00:14:15,653 You never show me your pictures. 174 00:14:15,655 --> 00:14:18,122 They're just girls. 175 00:14:18,124 --> 00:14:20,124 They're just... head shots. 176 00:14:20,126 --> 00:14:24,262 They're boring, Ruby. They'd bore you. 177 00:14:24,663 --> 00:14:27,465 Girls are nice. 178 00:14:27,733 --> 00:14:29,968 You wouldn't like 'em. Trust me, Ruby. 179 00:14:29,970 --> 00:14:32,237 You wouldn't like any of 'em. 180 00:14:32,239 --> 00:14:35,039 They're not dirty pictures, are they? 181 00:14:35,307 --> 00:14:36,307 Come on. 182 00:14:36,309 --> 00:14:40,478 I've seen those magazines. I know what all kinds of pictures they have out there. 183 00:14:40,480 --> 00:14:42,914 They're not dirty. You're taking dirty pictures! 184 00:14:42,916 --> 00:14:48,286 You are crazy, Ruby. You are a crazy old woman. 185 00:14:48,487 --> 00:14:52,957 You shouldn't call me Ruby. You should call me Grandma. 186 00:14:54,960 --> 00:14:58,463 Ruby, can I see the pictures of Nicole? 187 00:15:10,709 --> 00:15:13,311 She wasn't supposed to be called "Nicole," you know, 188 00:15:13,313 --> 00:15:16,581 because that was your mother's name. 189 00:15:16,583 --> 00:15:18,216 I know. 190 00:15:18,218 --> 00:15:22,153 But when she died, we thought it was fitting. 191 00:15:22,321 --> 00:15:26,357 Just a newborn baby, and a little girl and all. 192 00:15:26,359 --> 00:15:28,893 Such a pretty little baby. 193 00:15:28,895 --> 00:15:33,031 It was fitting she should have your mother's name. 194 00:15:33,033 --> 00:15:34,165 Oh, your mother... 195 00:15:34,167 --> 00:15:38,670 I guess it was just one of those things. 196 00:15:38,672 --> 00:15:42,640 They said they couldn't have known. 197 00:15:43,208 --> 00:15:48,212 And I thought I could console myself with little Nicole. 198 00:15:50,816 --> 00:15:53,785 You're all I've got left. 199 00:17:02,121 --> 00:17:04,255 Fuck. 200 00:17:04,823 --> 00:17:08,292 It's not that you're a bad guy or anything. 201 00:17:08,294 --> 00:17:11,963 I mean, you seem like you're really nice. 202 00:17:11,965 --> 00:17:14,065 It's just... I don't know... 203 00:17:14,067 --> 00:17:17,368 like you seem kind of like, um... 204 00:17:18,637 --> 00:17:22,240 You know, like, with the whole connection thing? 205 00:17:23,275 --> 00:17:27,178 And then, plus, the mood that I was in when we... 206 00:17:27,546 --> 00:17:33,851 You know, um, I was kind of acting something out. 207 00:17:33,853 --> 00:17:36,454 I mean, you... you asked me out, you know. 208 00:17:36,456 --> 00:17:39,157 Why would you ask me out? I mean, I don't... 209 00:17:39,159 --> 00:17:40,458 I'm sorry. 210 00:17:40,460 --> 00:17:44,395 It's not something that you should do lightly, you know. 211 00:17:47,900 --> 00:17:50,868 You know what? Thank you for the head shots. 212 00:17:50,870 --> 00:17:54,172 I, uh... Yeah, I have some, uh, extra prints in here, if you want them. 213 00:17:54,174 --> 00:17:58,543 And I ended up using one of them, actually, for my flyer. 214 00:17:58,545 --> 00:18:00,178 I hope that doesn't bother you. 215 00:18:00,180 --> 00:18:03,681 Oh, no, it's fine. And these are fine. 216 00:18:03,683 --> 00:18:04,949 Yeah. Um... 217 00:18:04,951 --> 00:18:08,219 It is fine. It's gonna be fine. It's totally fine. 218 00:18:08,221 --> 00:18:11,155 It's, uh... Don't even feel bad about it. 219 00:18:11,157 --> 00:18:13,491 You know, I know a lot of girls. 220 00:18:13,493 --> 00:18:15,760 Um, it's just... 221 00:18:16,028 --> 00:18:18,796 I felt... I felt like we had a, uh... 222 00:18:18,798 --> 00:18:20,698 Hey, Kevin. 223 00:18:22,534 --> 00:18:25,103 I'm sorry. 224 00:18:27,372 --> 00:18:28,372 Me too. 225 00:18:28,374 --> 00:18:32,276 You know when you're in a museum and you're looking at a painting, 226 00:18:32,278 --> 00:18:34,812 and it's really freaking you out? 227 00:18:34,814 --> 00:18:38,416 It's all jagged and awful, and it gets inside you? 228 00:18:38,418 --> 00:18:43,020 Then you just turn your head and walk through the door... 229 00:18:43,022 --> 00:18:46,090 into another room of the museum, 230 00:18:46,092 --> 00:18:47,959 and you're looking at another painting... 231 00:18:47,961 --> 00:18:54,398 a calculation of colors, abstract and meaningless, but beautiful. 232 00:18:54,400 --> 00:18:56,601 So beautiful. 233 00:18:56,603 --> 00:18:59,070 Just waiting for you... 234 00:18:59,072 --> 00:19:02,306 if you just walk through. 235 00:19:11,283 --> 00:19:12,283 Hi. 236 00:19:12,285 --> 00:19:14,752 Uh, my name's Kevin Wolfe. I'm a studio photographer. 237 00:19:14,754 --> 00:19:18,556 I do head shots, $300 a digital set. Prints are extra. 238 00:19:18,558 --> 00:19:21,392 You've probably seen my flyers... 239 00:19:21,394 --> 00:19:22,894 all over the city? 240 00:19:22,896 --> 00:19:26,030 No? Sounds like you've said that a few times before. 241 00:19:26,032 --> 00:19:30,201 Yeah, I think I even say it in my sleep. 242 00:19:30,203 --> 00:19:32,336 Well, I mean, it's okay if you haven't seen 'em. 243 00:19:32,338 --> 00:19:36,140 It's probably not something you'd pay attention to anyway. 244 00:19:36,241 --> 00:19:39,777 I mean, unless, of course, you know, you wanted to get head shots, right? 245 00:19:39,779 --> 00:19:41,812 I mean, are you, uh, an actor? 246 00:19:41,814 --> 00:19:45,183 Yeah, uh, actually, I need some. 247 00:19:45,185 --> 00:19:46,984 Yeah? 248 00:19:48,320 --> 00:19:49,754 I'm Beth. 249 00:19:49,756 --> 00:19:52,156 Beth, uh... Beth Dalewell. 250 00:19:52,158 --> 00:19:54,358 Beth Dalewell. 251 00:19:54,360 --> 00:19:57,261 Are you, uh, enjoying the play so far? 252 00:19:57,263 --> 00:20:01,232 Yeah. Uh, so far it's all right. 253 00:20:01,234 --> 00:20:03,801 Just all right? Yeah. 254 00:20:03,803 --> 00:20:06,437 I don't know. It's kind of embarrassing, isn't it? 255 00:20:06,439 --> 00:20:10,675 I mean, the guy's walking around in white tights pretending to be a swan. 256 00:20:10,677 --> 00:20:13,444 I don't know. We're actually supposed to believe he is one. 257 00:20:13,446 --> 00:20:17,982 Yeah. 258 00:20:19,418 --> 00:20:23,120 Did... Did you produce it or something? 259 00:20:23,122 --> 00:20:25,022 Oh, no. No, no, no. I mean... 260 00:20:25,024 --> 00:20:28,226 I did the head shots for someone in that cast. 261 00:20:28,228 --> 00:20:31,729 Yep. And plus, I'm just a fan of the theater. 262 00:20:33,565 --> 00:20:36,067 Oh, fuck. I can't believe I just said that. 263 00:20:36,069 --> 00:20:40,071 "I'm a fan of the theater." 264 00:20:40,073 --> 00:20:41,806 "The theater." 265 00:20:41,808 --> 00:20:43,975 I'm sorry. I'm just an idiot. 266 00:20:43,977 --> 00:20:46,944 No, you're... you're funny. 267 00:20:46,946 --> 00:20:48,946 I'm funny? What do you... What do you mean? 268 00:20:48,948 --> 00:20:52,583 I don't know. You're just... You're just funny. 269 00:20:54,721 --> 00:20:56,487 So... 270 00:21:15,907 --> 00:21:20,278 Are you, um, coming from Kevin's? 271 00:21:20,280 --> 00:21:23,981 Uh, yeah. Just picking up some head shots. 272 00:21:23,983 --> 00:21:25,816 Photos. 273 00:21:28,253 --> 00:21:30,121 Are you an actress? 274 00:21:30,123 --> 00:21:33,090 I'd like to be. 275 00:21:37,629 --> 00:21:40,031 What do you do? 276 00:21:40,799 --> 00:21:42,667 Nothing. 277 00:21:42,669 --> 00:21:45,069 Really? 278 00:21:45,071 --> 00:21:50,007 I'm sort of the... the landlord. 279 00:21:50,009 --> 00:21:51,976 Oh. 280 00:21:54,946 --> 00:21:57,982 I feel like I'm just like this worthless piece of shit... 281 00:21:57,984 --> 00:22:01,152 that, like, exists in the world for absolutely no reason. 282 00:22:01,154 --> 00:22:05,189 And, like, I should just essentially be dead, and everyone would be happier. 283 00:22:05,191 --> 00:22:07,058 Like everyone else has a reason to be alive, 284 00:22:07,060 --> 00:22:11,962 and I'm just, like, this worthless failure that has no... point. 285 00:22:11,964 --> 00:22:13,464 Okay, Jamie. James. Listen. 286 00:22:13,466 --> 00:22:14,732 I look in the mirror, and I'm just like... 287 00:22:14,734 --> 00:22:18,636 I just feel like I'm so ugly and hideous, and I... 288 00:22:18,638 --> 00:22:22,573 Jamie, listen. You're not hideous, Jamie. You're not ugly at all. 289 00:22:22,575 --> 00:22:25,242 Will you... Will you stop being so negative? 290 00:22:25,244 --> 00:22:26,577 Why don't you try being positive? 291 00:22:26,579 --> 00:22:29,146 Think about... Think about anything. I know, Derek. 292 00:22:29,148 --> 00:22:33,217 I know it is your job to talk me down, okay? 293 00:22:33,219 --> 00:22:35,553 And... 294 00:22:35,555 --> 00:22:39,156 I'm not gonna drink anything, okay? 295 00:22:39,158 --> 00:22:41,826 And thank you, you know? Thank you. 296 00:22:41,828 --> 00:22:43,928 You're like my only friend in the entire world, 297 00:22:43,930 --> 00:22:47,665 and that is why I call you, because you're nice, you know? 298 00:22:47,667 --> 00:22:51,769 You're a very, very, very nice sponsor. 299 00:22:51,771 --> 00:22:54,772 I'm really gla... Can you hold on? 300 00:22:54,774 --> 00:22:57,308 I have another call. 301 00:22:59,778 --> 00:23:01,912 Hi, honey. 302 00:23:03,949 --> 00:23:06,317 Hi, Mom. I didn't interrupt anything? 303 00:23:06,319 --> 00:23:08,753 No. I can call you back if you want. 304 00:23:08,755 --> 00:23:09,887 No. What are you doing? 305 00:23:09,889 --> 00:23:13,824 I was just on the other line with the suicide hotline, so... 306 00:23:13,826 --> 00:23:16,494 Really? Yeah. They said I should do it. 307 00:23:16,496 --> 00:23:19,029 Oh, my God, Jamie. Are you okay? I'm kidding. 308 00:23:19,031 --> 00:23:21,766 I'm kidding, Mom. Why would you scare me like that? 309 00:23:21,768 --> 00:23:23,934 Can you please hold on for a second? 310 00:23:23,936 --> 00:23:25,736 The swan started crying, you know? 311 00:23:25,738 --> 00:23:29,940 The dancing was one thing, and then... and then, yeah. 312 00:24:23,862 --> 00:24:24,862 Hi. Hey. 313 00:24:24,864 --> 00:24:27,631 So, I still need you to get me a key for the downstairs, 314 00:24:27,633 --> 00:24:30,501 and then you wouldn't have to buzz me in every time I come to work. 315 00:24:30,503 --> 00:24:33,037 I don't mind it, but since I already have the upstairs key, 316 00:24:33,039 --> 00:24:35,506 and I know it bothers you... I keep forgetting about that. 317 00:24:35,508 --> 00:24:37,908 Would you mind making some coffee, please? Yes. 318 00:24:37,910 --> 00:24:41,111 So... you know how I was telling you Derek is gay? 319 00:24:41,113 --> 00:24:45,783 I know you knew he was gay, but all of my best friends are always gay. 320 00:24:45,785 --> 00:24:48,652 "Fag hag." That's what they used to call me in high school. 321 00:24:48,654 --> 00:24:50,488 Because my best friend was gay... Tony. 322 00:24:50,490 --> 00:24:51,722 Oh, my God. You would like Tony. 323 00:24:51,724 --> 00:24:54,792 The weird thing is is that I have never known any lesbians. 324 00:24:54,794 --> 00:24:56,694 I mean, I don't think I'd get along with one. 325 00:24:56,696 --> 00:24:58,262 Although, who's to judge? I don't know. 326 00:24:58,264 --> 00:25:00,564 Maybe I've known a lot of lesbians and didn't know. God. 327 00:25:00,566 --> 00:25:04,101 If I was friends with lesbians in high school, they couldn't have called me "fag hag." 328 00:25:04,103 --> 00:25:09,106 They'd have to call me something else like "lesbi-friend." 329 00:25:09,108 --> 00:25:10,741 Oh, shit. 330 00:25:10,743 --> 00:25:12,710 You didn't think, a minute ago, 331 00:25:12,712 --> 00:25:14,879 that I was saying I thought you were gay, 332 00:25:14,881 --> 00:25:16,680 'cause that is not what I was saying. 333 00:25:16,682 --> 00:25:20,384 I would not want you to think... That's not... 334 00:25:20,386 --> 00:25:21,785 Wow. 335 00:25:21,787 --> 00:25:23,787 So, yeah, Derek is not my boyfriend, 336 00:25:23,789 --> 00:25:27,858 and I wouldn't even want Derek to be my boyfriend even if he wasn't gay. 337 00:25:27,860 --> 00:25:33,163 I mean... You know what I'm saying? Kevin? 338 00:25:37,335 --> 00:25:39,470 Sorry. 339 00:25:40,805 --> 00:25:44,441 Jesus Christ, Tanner. It's dark as hell in here. 340 00:25:44,443 --> 00:25:44,975 Sorry. 341 00:25:44,977 --> 00:25:49,246 I need to borrow your... your car this weekend. Is that all right? 342 00:25:50,916 --> 00:25:52,883 What have you got in your hand? 343 00:25:52,885 --> 00:25:56,420 Just pictures. Photographs. 344 00:25:56,422 --> 00:25:58,255 Let's see. 345 00:25:58,257 --> 00:25:59,056 I don't think so. 346 00:25:59,058 --> 00:26:03,894 If you want to borrow the Impala, show me the pictures. 347 00:26:13,038 --> 00:26:15,506 That's a good boy. 348 00:26:15,508 --> 00:26:18,909 Mmm. Mmm. 349 00:26:19,911 --> 00:26:21,812 I saw this one on the poster. 350 00:26:21,814 --> 00:26:24,982 Wait a minute. You mean you actually left your apartment? 351 00:26:24,984 --> 00:26:27,718 Hilarious. 352 00:26:30,555 --> 00:26:32,723 Did you fuck her? 353 00:26:35,226 --> 00:26:36,694 Let's look at yours. 354 00:26:36,696 --> 00:26:39,597 Mine are better. Yeah, I'm sure. 355 00:26:41,734 --> 00:26:44,134 Hmm, hmm, hmm. 356 00:26:46,638 --> 00:26:49,740 Aw! God. 357 00:26:49,742 --> 00:26:52,443 Look at this one. What is... What is that? 358 00:26:52,445 --> 00:26:54,712 That's a fish. 359 00:26:54,714 --> 00:26:56,246 Why would she... 360 00:26:56,248 --> 00:26:58,749 Look at this one. 361 00:26:59,417 --> 00:27:01,285 Yeah. Oh. 362 00:27:01,287 --> 00:27:03,120 Where do you get this shit? 363 00:27:03,122 --> 00:27:06,390 Come on, Kevin. This is beautiful. 364 00:27:06,392 --> 00:27:08,726 You're so fucked up. 365 00:27:08,728 --> 00:27:10,527 Yeah. 366 00:27:11,663 --> 00:27:14,064 Can I keep this? 367 00:27:15,100 --> 00:27:17,835 Yeah, it's yours. 368 00:27:18,570 --> 00:27:20,204 Thanks. 369 00:27:20,206 --> 00:27:22,239 Don't you want this? 370 00:27:22,241 --> 00:27:24,475 No. Why? 371 00:27:25,644 --> 00:27:27,678 What'd you do to her? 372 00:27:30,016 --> 00:27:32,349 I guess I scared her. 373 00:27:32,351 --> 00:27:34,351 Yeah, apparently. 374 00:27:34,353 --> 00:27:36,720 Apparently, I do that sometimes. 375 00:27:38,823 --> 00:27:42,693 Anyway, Adrienne's memory played on in my psyche... 376 00:27:42,695 --> 00:27:46,797 like one of those extended remixes... 377 00:27:46,799 --> 00:27:51,235 over and over and over. 378 00:27:51,237 --> 00:27:53,203 How did I forget her? 379 00:27:55,174 --> 00:27:57,307 Hello? Hey, it's Kevin. 380 00:27:57,309 --> 00:28:01,812 You, uh... You still going camping? 381 00:28:01,814 --> 00:28:02,413 Yes. 382 00:28:02,415 --> 00:28:05,149 So I'm pretty much not sure what I'm going to call it yet. 383 00:28:05,151 --> 00:28:07,918 It could either be a "uni-peg" or a "pega-corn," 384 00:28:07,920 --> 00:28:11,722 or I could just call it something really simple like "flying horse with horn." 385 00:28:11,724 --> 00:28:13,891 You know what I mean? If I just need to keep it simple. 386 00:28:13,893 --> 00:28:17,928 But basically, it's like the most incredible animal that's ever existed. 387 00:28:17,930 --> 00:28:19,797 It's half unicorn, half Pegasus. 388 00:28:19,799 --> 00:28:23,567 So it's like a flying horse with wings and a horn. 389 00:28:23,569 --> 00:28:27,604 I can't even tell you how important the Pegasus on its own, without a horn, 390 00:28:27,606 --> 00:28:29,406 has been essentially since I was, like, born. 391 00:28:29,408 --> 00:28:31,675 'Cause when I was a kid, I had this game called Dark Tower. 392 00:28:31,677 --> 00:28:34,211 It's, like, there's this tower, and it's called the Dark Tower. 393 00:28:34,213 --> 00:28:37,481 And there's all these things like Brigands... I think the Brigand is the bad guy. 394 00:28:37,483 --> 00:28:39,616 Then there's this other... like you have rations. 395 00:28:39,618 --> 00:28:41,452 Oh, yeah. And you go to the Bazaar. 396 00:28:41,454 --> 00:28:43,087 It spins around, and I don't know... Jamie. 397 00:28:43,089 --> 00:28:48,625 Could you stop, like... Could you stop talking, please? For like a second. 398 00:28:48,627 --> 00:28:50,694 - I'm sorry. - 399 00:28:50,696 --> 00:28:52,830 I'm really sorry. No, don't be sorry. 400 00:28:52,832 --> 00:28:55,666 You just... You make me nervous, I guess. 401 00:28:55,668 --> 00:28:57,835 There's nothing to be nervous about. 402 00:28:57,837 --> 00:29:00,971 There isn't? No. I like you, okay? 403 00:29:00,973 --> 00:29:04,608 Just... with the talking, please just be calm, okay? 404 00:29:04,610 --> 00:29:06,944 For an exercise. Because I want to be quiet. 405 00:29:06,946 --> 00:29:11,148 I mean, I really do. It's like I want my mouth to just die. 406 00:29:11,150 --> 00:29:13,016 But then, like, all of a sudden, it's back. 407 00:29:13,018 --> 00:29:16,019 It resurrects like Christ, and then it's like... Jamie! 408 00:29:16,021 --> 00:29:17,387 Please! I am begging you. 409 00:29:17,389 --> 00:29:19,490 Sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Thank you. 410 00:29:19,492 --> 00:29:21,258 I'll shut up. 411 00:29:28,166 --> 00:29:31,935 She told me how she feels about you, Kevin. 412 00:29:32,070 --> 00:29:36,940 You might take that into consideration. 413 00:29:38,877 --> 00:29:41,245 What are you talking about? 414 00:29:41,513 --> 00:29:45,783 Jamie's... very fragile. 415 00:29:47,552 --> 00:29:51,188 I'm not saying she'd do anything, but... 416 00:29:52,791 --> 00:29:56,493 Just do me a favor and be nice to her. 417 00:29:56,495 --> 00:29:57,895 Yeah. 418 00:29:57,897 --> 00:30:00,564 Yeah, of course. 419 00:30:23,722 --> 00:30:27,324 Everybody loves him. He's very talented. 420 00:30:37,402 --> 00:30:41,738 Tweet, tweet, tweet, tweet. 421 00:30:43,942 --> 00:30:47,010 Tweet, tweet, tweet, tweet! 422 00:30:47,012 --> 00:30:51,048 I'm sorry. Tweet, tweet. 423 00:30:53,284 --> 00:30:55,219 Tweet, tweet! 424 00:30:56,588 --> 00:31:00,657 In the end, I did end up forgetting Theresa... 425 00:31:00,659 --> 00:31:05,395 and Doris and Allison and Sheila and Adrienne... 426 00:31:05,397 --> 00:31:06,730 and... and all of them. 427 00:31:06,732 --> 00:31:08,999 I mean, it's not that I forgot them literally though. 428 00:31:09,001 --> 00:31:14,504 It's just I made it so I didn't care anymore. 429 00:31:14,739 --> 00:31:18,175 See? That's a picture of me not caring. 430 00:31:20,045 --> 00:31:21,845 Ah, anyway, um, 431 00:31:21,847 --> 00:31:26,850 I decided I had to try to remember more about my sister Nicole, 432 00:31:26,852 --> 00:31:28,018 what happened. 433 00:31:28,020 --> 00:31:30,754 Try to really find the answer this time, 434 00:31:30,756 --> 00:31:36,960 try to figure out... why I'm like this. 435 00:31:43,534 --> 00:31:46,937 All right, Ruby. Are you comfortable? 436 00:31:49,340 --> 00:31:50,874 What do you want me to do? 437 00:31:50,876 --> 00:31:55,512 Well, I just... I want to record you, okay? 438 00:31:56,681 --> 00:31:57,681 I want to... 439 00:31:57,683 --> 00:32:02,886 I want to record some of your stories about the old days... 440 00:32:02,888 --> 00:32:04,554 because, uh... 441 00:32:04,556 --> 00:32:07,858 I mean, what happens when you're gone, right? 442 00:32:07,860 --> 00:32:10,060 I mean, no one's gonna know what you know. 443 00:32:10,062 --> 00:32:13,697 So, I just want you to talk, all right? 444 00:32:13,699 --> 00:32:19,069 Just like normal. Forget that the camera's even here. 445 00:32:20,038 --> 00:32:22,873 What do you want me to talk about? 446 00:32:24,809 --> 00:32:26,777 Talk about Mom. 447 00:32:33,451 --> 00:32:35,886 Talk about Nicole. 448 00:32:44,930 --> 00:32:46,997 What is it? Uh, there's someone here. 449 00:32:46,999 --> 00:32:51,735 I didn't have an appointment. It's not a good time. 450 00:32:51,836 --> 00:32:54,738 I think you should come out here, Kevin. 451 00:33:01,946 --> 00:33:05,315 - Hi. - Um, my name is Denise Gilcrest, 452 00:33:05,317 --> 00:33:09,653 and this is my... this is Mike Haley. 453 00:33:10,088 --> 00:33:12,622 What... What can I do for you? 454 00:33:13,224 --> 00:33:15,459 Well... 455 00:33:15,760 --> 00:33:18,195 - Adrienne. - She's my sister. 456 00:33:18,197 --> 00:33:21,164 - You're Kevin Wolfe, right? - Yeah. Yeah. 457 00:33:21,166 --> 00:33:24,134 - I took these pictures. - Have you seen her? 458 00:33:24,136 --> 00:33:29,439 Uh, no. I mean, not for a while. You know. 459 00:33:29,441 --> 00:33:30,941 Why? Is... Is she... 460 00:33:30,943 --> 00:33:33,910 - She's been missing. - Missing? 461 00:33:33,912 --> 00:33:37,447 - Did you know her? - Me? No. 462 00:33:37,449 --> 00:33:40,517 No, I just saw her when we did the pictures. 463 00:33:40,519 --> 00:33:44,154 But you knew her better than that, didn't you, Kevin? 464 00:33:44,156 --> 00:33:48,525 Yeah. I mean, we went out one night, um, and then that was it. 465 00:33:48,527 --> 00:33:52,095 I mean, I called her once after that, and then we saw each other briefly, but... 466 00:33:52,097 --> 00:33:56,900 - Do you remember what day that was? - Yeah, that was on... 467 00:33:57,268 --> 00:33:59,736 Uh, when was that? 468 00:33:59,738 --> 00:34:04,474 Uh, no, actually I don't remember exactly. 469 00:34:04,476 --> 00:34:05,776 Well, where did you go? 470 00:34:05,778 --> 00:34:09,479 We went to a diner on 43rd Street, and then, uh... 471 00:34:09,481 --> 00:34:11,381 Yeah, are you sure she didn't just take off? 472 00:34:11,383 --> 00:34:13,683 Is that... I mean, you called her friends and everything? 473 00:34:13,685 --> 00:34:17,521 If she just took off, she did it with none of her belongings... 474 00:34:17,523 --> 00:34:19,122 no suitcase, no money, nothing. 475 00:34:19,124 --> 00:34:21,758 The detectives think it's really unlikely, so... 476 00:34:21,760 --> 00:34:24,161 She would have called her sister, don't you think? 477 00:34:24,163 --> 00:34:28,432 Are the police, like... Are they helping you guys? 478 00:34:28,434 --> 00:34:29,099 Hardly. 479 00:34:29,101 --> 00:34:33,537 So, can you tell us what you talked about the last time you saw her? 480 00:34:33,539 --> 00:34:38,575 Um, yeah. Well, I gave her these pictures, and then, uh... 481 00:34:38,577 --> 00:34:41,344 and then, geez, what did we... then we talked about, um... 482 00:34:41,346 --> 00:34:45,682 Well, we talked about why she didn't really wanna see me. 483 00:34:45,684 --> 00:34:47,717 She was breaking up with you? 484 00:34:47,719 --> 00:34:52,756 Ye... Well, I mean, we had hardly left it at that. 485 00:34:55,660 --> 00:34:58,795 Do you guys want coffee or... 486 00:35:00,298 --> 00:35:02,332 Hmm. 487 00:35:02,334 --> 00:35:03,433 Oh! 488 00:35:03,435 --> 00:35:06,136 You are one sick motherfucker. 489 00:35:06,138 --> 00:35:09,840 Ah, you're just as interested in these pictures as I am. 490 00:35:09,842 --> 00:35:11,608 Mm-mmm. 491 00:35:11,610 --> 00:35:13,243 No, I like real girls. 492 00:35:13,245 --> 00:35:16,880 Yeah, but even these girls won't do it... 493 00:35:16,882 --> 00:35:20,350 unless there's a camera there. 494 00:35:20,352 --> 00:35:21,084 It's true. 495 00:35:21,086 --> 00:35:26,156 The camera... That's what makes all this magic happen. 496 00:35:26,158 --> 00:35:30,327 You do have a point. Which is exactly why you became a photographer. 497 00:35:30,329 --> 00:35:34,531 So that you could get girls to do twisted shit... 498 00:35:34,533 --> 00:35:37,634 like... that. 499 00:35:38,336 --> 00:35:41,371 I don't take pictures like this. 500 00:35:41,839 --> 00:35:44,307 What about that one? 501 00:35:45,076 --> 00:35:47,577 - It's not pornographic. - She's naked. 502 00:35:47,579 --> 00:35:50,147 Yeah, but it's different. It's completely different. 503 00:35:50,149 --> 00:35:53,850 Oh, yeah. I mean, if I were you, I would... 504 00:35:53,951 --> 00:35:59,122 I'm not really interested in what their bodies look like in these pictures. 505 00:36:00,191 --> 00:36:02,259 Would Adrienne do something like... 506 00:36:02,261 --> 00:36:04,895 that? 507 00:36:06,063 --> 00:36:07,831 No. 508 00:36:09,167 --> 00:36:11,535 See her eyes? 509 00:36:11,736 --> 00:36:16,139 Yeah? Yeah, like, the way they're flat. 510 00:36:16,141 --> 00:36:18,875 Looks like she doesn't even care, 511 00:36:18,877 --> 00:36:20,977 like it doesn't even matter. Yeah. 512 00:36:20,979 --> 00:36:22,546 That's exactly what I don't like. 513 00:36:22,548 --> 00:36:25,048 When I have a girl at the studio, 514 00:36:25,050 --> 00:36:26,950 she's, like... 515 00:36:26,952 --> 00:36:28,718 She's doing it for a whole different reason. 516 00:36:28,720 --> 00:36:33,156 She's looking at the camera in a completely different way, like... 517 00:36:33,158 --> 00:36:36,826 like she's looking out at you from the inside. 518 00:36:37,361 --> 00:36:39,629 And you see it. 519 00:36:39,631 --> 00:36:42,732 You see that spark. 520 00:36:42,734 --> 00:36:45,235 You see that life. 521 00:36:50,041 --> 00:36:51,041 Good. 522 00:36:51,043 --> 00:36:53,476 Good. This is really good. Have you modeled before? 523 00:36:53,478 --> 00:36:55,478 No. I'm an actress. 524 00:36:55,480 --> 00:36:57,647 I mean, I want to be an actress. 525 00:36:57,649 --> 00:37:00,650 Right. Wolfe Photography. Hello. 526 00:37:00,652 --> 00:37:03,653 Uh, Kevin's busy right now. Who is it? 527 00:37:03,655 --> 00:37:06,189 Just some girl. What girl? 528 00:37:06,191 --> 00:37:08,658 Uh, Beth, her name is. 529 00:37:08,660 --> 00:37:10,727 Beth. Give me the phone. 530 00:37:10,729 --> 00:37:13,129 Hold on. Kevin wants to talk to you. 531 00:37:13,131 --> 00:37:16,466 Hold on for one second. Beth? 532 00:37:17,568 --> 00:37:19,769 Hi! Beth from the play, right. 533 00:37:19,771 --> 00:37:23,840 Kevin won a, uh, portrait award in college. 534 00:37:23,842 --> 00:37:28,011 I don't know if you know that. It's true. 535 00:37:28,013 --> 00:37:29,846 I'm Jamie, by the way. 536 00:37:29,848 --> 00:37:30,880 I've been doing Kevin's makeup... 537 00:37:30,882 --> 00:37:34,351 Well, not Kevin's makeup because Kevin doesn't actually wear any makeup, 538 00:37:34,353 --> 00:37:36,086 but makeup for his clients, you know. 539 00:37:36,088 --> 00:37:39,222 Girls like you... actresses and models. 540 00:37:39,224 --> 00:37:41,524 You're not a model, are you? Mm-mmm. 541 00:37:41,526 --> 00:37:42,592 No. Hmm. 542 00:37:42,594 --> 00:37:44,160 Good. I'm so glad that you called. 543 00:37:44,162 --> 00:37:47,731 Your pitch was pretty hard to forget. 544 00:37:47,733 --> 00:37:51,001 Remember Beth? Hmm? 545 00:37:51,469 --> 00:37:52,969 Those big, watery eyes. 546 00:37:52,971 --> 00:37:56,740 Her mouth permanently curved into a half smile. 547 00:37:56,742 --> 00:38:01,578 I'll never forget the day that she looked me dead in the eye and she said... 548 00:38:01,580 --> 00:38:03,580 Okay. 549 00:38:03,582 --> 00:38:05,248 You will? 550 00:38:05,250 --> 00:38:07,284 What do you wanna see? 551 00:38:07,286 --> 00:38:09,653 Um, I don't know. Whatever. 552 00:38:09,655 --> 00:38:12,856 Anything that you wanna see. You can pick it. 553 00:38:12,858 --> 00:38:15,725 Okay. I'll call you. 554 00:38:15,727 --> 00:38:20,630 Later this afternoon, I'll find something and I'll call you. 555 00:38:21,265 --> 00:38:24,200 Good. Okay, yeah, call me. 556 00:38:24,535 --> 00:38:27,237 Good. 557 00:38:27,239 --> 00:38:27,804 Okay. 558 00:38:27,806 --> 00:38:31,541 I was starting to get giddy inside. 559 00:38:31,543 --> 00:38:34,711 Like all of a sudden, I had another chance. 560 00:38:34,713 --> 00:38:38,181 It was like Adrienne had never happened. Forget Adrienne! 561 00:38:38,183 --> 00:38:39,449 Just relax. 562 00:38:39,451 --> 00:38:43,586 I knew exactly what was gonna happen next. 563 00:38:44,055 --> 00:38:45,889 It was gonna be awesome. 564 00:38:45,891 --> 00:38:50,894 Truly, incredibly, amazingly fantastic. 565 00:38:50,896 --> 00:38:56,232 Easily the greatest romantic experience of my entire... 566 00:38:56,234 --> 00:38:57,033 fucking... life. 567 00:38:57,035 --> 00:39:00,203 You're incredibly blotchy. What are you talking about? 568 00:39:00,205 --> 00:39:04,407 Step away with that thing, please. Please. 569 00:39:07,645 --> 00:39:11,781 Maybe afterwards we could grab a bite to eat? 570 00:39:12,817 --> 00:39:14,718 Maybe. 571 00:39:16,754 --> 00:39:19,222 Maybe. 572 00:39:31,802 --> 00:39:35,105 - There's nothing wrong with me, is there? - No. 573 00:39:35,107 --> 00:39:36,639 He could... He could... 574 00:39:36,641 --> 00:39:38,575 I mean, if I really made an effort... 575 00:39:38,577 --> 00:39:40,844 You would totally have to help me, Derek. 576 00:39:40,846 --> 00:39:44,247 Jamie. He could go for me, right? 577 00:39:44,249 --> 00:39:47,450 Jamie. He's all I ever think about, Derek. 578 00:39:47,452 --> 00:39:50,887 I know. He's all I ever have on my mind. 579 00:39:50,889 --> 00:39:56,126 And sometimes I think if I could just get him away from those girls for one minute, 580 00:39:56,128 --> 00:39:58,895 if I could just get them out of the fucking picture... 581 00:39:58,897 --> 00:40:00,230 There's always another one. 582 00:40:00,232 --> 00:40:02,866 Maybe you should keep your options open. 583 00:40:02,868 --> 00:40:04,834 There are a lot of boys out there. 584 00:40:04,836 --> 00:40:08,004 Kevin can't be the only one, can he? 585 00:40:08,006 --> 00:40:10,540 He kind of is. 586 00:40:15,279 --> 00:40:18,014 What was she like, Ruby? 587 00:40:18,016 --> 00:40:22,318 What was her... her personality like? 588 00:40:24,522 --> 00:40:26,423 Oh. 589 00:40:26,425 --> 00:40:29,259 She was full of energy. 590 00:40:29,261 --> 00:40:31,828 She was rambunctious. 591 00:40:31,830 --> 00:40:33,897 Not like you. You were always quiet, 592 00:40:33,899 --> 00:40:36,633 always such a quiet little boy. 593 00:40:38,002 --> 00:40:41,204 You were very sensitive, you know. 594 00:40:41,906 --> 00:40:44,707 Oh, but I was so proud of you. 595 00:40:44,709 --> 00:40:46,176 So proud. 596 00:40:46,178 --> 00:40:48,645 Of both of you. 597 00:40:49,280 --> 00:40:52,015 You were such good children. 598 00:40:52,017 --> 00:40:54,517 A boy and a girl. 599 00:40:56,220 --> 00:40:59,289 Wish your mother could have seen you. 600 00:40:59,291 --> 00:41:03,293 She never even saw your sister at all, did she? 601 00:41:03,295 --> 00:41:06,196 She never even saw what Nicole looked like. 602 00:41:06,198 --> 00:41:10,633 She never... She never got to see her own daughter. 603 00:41:13,571 --> 00:41:18,074 How could I have lost my two girls like that? 604 00:41:34,391 --> 00:41:37,260 Hey, hey. Hey. 605 00:41:37,262 --> 00:41:39,462 Thought I wouldn't make it? 606 00:41:39,464 --> 00:41:41,297 Hmm. I wasn't sure. 607 00:41:41,299 --> 00:41:46,836 Uh, we don't have to see this particular movie if you don't want to. 608 00:41:46,838 --> 00:41:48,404 I mean, there are a lot we can go to. 609 00:41:48,406 --> 00:41:52,542 Yeah, this is fine. I really wanted to see this, you know, so... 610 00:41:52,544 --> 00:41:55,712 And besides, I already bought the tickets. 611 00:41:55,714 --> 00:41:56,846 Yeah. 612 00:41:56,848 --> 00:42:01,117 Um, do you want some popcorn? Sure. 613 00:42:46,197 --> 00:42:49,732 La-la-la-la, la-la 614 00:42:49,734 --> 00:42:51,267 La-la 615 00:42:51,269 --> 00:42:54,504 La-la-la-la 616 00:43:01,745 --> 00:43:03,646 What about... 617 00:43:04,281 --> 00:43:09,619 What about the day that she... you know... 618 00:43:10,921 --> 00:43:12,555 in the pool? 619 00:43:12,557 --> 00:43:16,793 Kevin. I can't. 620 00:43:17,828 --> 00:43:20,797 You can't remember? 621 00:43:23,133 --> 00:43:25,034 It was my fault. 622 00:43:25,036 --> 00:43:27,737 I wasn't there. I wasn't... 623 00:43:28,872 --> 00:43:30,873 I know you tried. 624 00:43:32,276 --> 00:43:35,111 Did you see me? 625 00:43:35,113 --> 00:43:37,981 Did you see me try? 626 00:43:40,317 --> 00:43:44,921 You know what I like to do sometimes, Derek? 627 00:43:44,923 --> 00:43:52,395 Sometimes I like to imagine that I have this whole bottle of little blue pills. 628 00:43:52,397 --> 00:43:55,131 Why blue? 629 00:43:55,232 --> 00:43:59,569 I don't know. I just like the color, I guess. 630 00:43:59,670 --> 00:44:03,072 And then, I take these little blue pills... 631 00:44:03,074 --> 00:44:08,678 and I line them up on the bed, one by one. 632 00:44:08,680 --> 00:44:10,079 Jamie, why are you telling me this? 633 00:44:10,081 --> 00:44:14,250 I'm just making conversation, Derek. 634 00:44:14,418 --> 00:44:19,088 Then I take the pills... 635 00:44:19,090 --> 00:44:22,925 and I push them into my mouth. 636 00:44:22,927 --> 00:44:24,861 Past my lips. 637 00:44:25,295 --> 00:44:29,799 But you don't have any... of those pills. 638 00:44:29,801 --> 00:44:31,734 Do you? 639 00:44:31,736 --> 00:44:33,202 No. 640 00:44:33,204 --> 00:44:37,874 No, of course not. 'Cause if you did, you would tell me. 641 00:44:37,876 --> 00:44:42,478 I tell you everything, Derek. You're my sponsor. 642 00:44:42,480 --> 00:44:49,352 I just feel like, why did she have to call him? 643 00:44:49,354 --> 00:44:51,220 Who, Jamie? 644 00:44:51,222 --> 00:44:55,725 Her name is... B-E-T-H. 645 00:44:55,727 --> 00:44:59,529 Jamie, I'm... I'm gonna ask you to do something for me. 646 00:44:59,531 --> 00:45:02,799 I'm gonna put down the phone. 647 00:45:02,801 --> 00:45:05,768 And I want you to look at yourself. 648 00:45:05,770 --> 00:45:09,439 This is gonna sound stupid, but I want you to look at yourself in the mirror, 649 00:45:09,441 --> 00:45:14,243 and I want you to tell yourself that you're pretty. 650 00:45:17,648 --> 00:45:22,151 - Did you hear me? - Are you serious? 651 00:45:22,619 --> 00:45:24,220 Do that for me, Jamie. 652 00:45:24,222 --> 00:45:27,557 Are... Are you gonna stay on the phone? 653 00:45:27,559 --> 00:45:29,759 I'm right here. 654 00:45:29,761 --> 00:45:32,562 Okay. 655 00:45:41,739 --> 00:45:44,907 You... are... 656 00:45:45,342 --> 00:45:50,613 You... are... 657 00:45:50,615 --> 00:45:55,451 Fuck you. 658 00:45:55,453 --> 00:45:56,953 Go fuck yourself! 659 00:45:56,955 --> 00:45:58,688 I'm not even fucking kidding around right now. 660 00:45:58,690 --> 00:46:02,925 Go fuck yourself, you stupid piece of shit! 661 00:46:02,927 --> 00:46:04,293 I fucking hate you! 662 00:46:04,295 --> 00:46:09,866 I fucking hate you, and I want you to fucking die! 663 00:46:17,908 --> 00:46:23,646 The holy crosses 664 00:46:24,181 --> 00:46:27,917 Shit. 665 00:46:28,619 --> 00:46:30,753 Co... Coming. 666 00:46:37,895 --> 00:46:39,729 Did you find her? 667 00:46:39,731 --> 00:46:41,864 No. 668 00:46:41,965 --> 00:46:44,700 Did you ask anyone in the diner? 669 00:46:44,702 --> 00:46:48,571 Nobody remembers you two being there. 670 00:46:49,640 --> 00:46:52,308 Where's your boyfriend? Kevin. 671 00:46:53,210 --> 00:46:56,179 Do you mind if I ask you a question? 672 00:46:56,181 --> 00:46:58,748 No, not at all. 673 00:47:00,117 --> 00:47:02,185 Did you do something to her? 674 00:47:02,187 --> 00:47:04,387 Listen, I-I... 675 00:47:04,389 --> 00:47:09,358 I am really sorry if something bad has happened to your sister. I really am. 676 00:47:09,360 --> 00:47:14,030 But it was her decision to not see me anymore, you know? 677 00:47:14,032 --> 00:47:16,566 That was her choice, not mine. 678 00:47:16,568 --> 00:47:20,169 I've just been trying to forget I ever met her. 679 00:47:22,005 --> 00:47:23,139 I'm sorry. No, I'm sorry. 680 00:47:23,141 --> 00:47:27,076 I don't know what I'm doing. Just tell me... Tell me how to help. 681 00:47:27,078 --> 00:47:29,712 I just don't know where she is. 682 00:47:29,714 --> 00:47:32,882 I know. Gee. 683 00:47:32,884 --> 00:47:37,587 I'm so sorry. No, no, no, no. It's okay. 684 00:47:37,589 --> 00:47:40,323 It's okay. 685 00:48:09,753 --> 00:48:12,121 That was good. The movie? 686 00:48:12,123 --> 00:48:13,656 Oh, no, the... the pizza. 687 00:48:13,658 --> 00:48:19,061 Was it, uh, Ray's Original or Famous Ray's? 688 00:48:19,063 --> 00:48:23,099 Famous Ray's Original. 689 00:48:28,238 --> 00:48:32,742 Um, you can kiss me now. 690 00:48:37,114 --> 00:48:38,614 Really? 691 00:49:17,454 --> 00:49:18,587 Hey, hey. 692 00:49:18,589 --> 00:49:22,625 Sorry. Not, uh... Not yet. What? 693 00:49:26,129 --> 00:49:28,731 Um... 694 00:49:41,845 --> 00:49:47,717 Kevin. Kevin. Kevin, come on. I said stop. 695 00:49:47,719 --> 00:49:50,319 Shit. Okay. 696 00:49:50,321 --> 00:49:52,421 Sorry. 697 00:49:54,624 --> 00:49:57,026 I just, uh... 698 00:49:58,662 --> 00:50:02,865 Sorry. I thought that we had a... 699 00:50:03,700 --> 00:50:04,700 Oh. Sorry. 700 00:50:04,702 --> 00:50:09,271 No. You're really nice, you know. Uh... 701 00:50:09,273 --> 00:50:13,943 Nice. And I really like you. 702 00:50:13,945 --> 00:50:16,178 And... I just... 703 00:50:16,180 --> 00:50:21,617 I just barely know you. You know? I mean, we just, um... 704 00:50:21,619 --> 00:50:23,252 I just met you. And I... 705 00:50:23,254 --> 00:50:28,991 I just think, you know, I gotta wait a little. 706 00:50:28,993 --> 00:50:32,495 I mean, you've just gotta be patient. 707 00:50:35,399 --> 00:50:37,867 But I love you. 708 00:50:40,704 --> 00:50:44,407 Suddenly, I could see directly into the future. 709 00:50:44,409 --> 00:50:46,042 Sorry. 710 00:50:46,143 --> 00:50:51,580 I could see the days unfolding in front of me like pages of a newspaper. 711 00:50:51,582 --> 00:50:53,849 Huh. What do you mean? 712 00:50:53,851 --> 00:50:58,587 And I realized that Beth was far, far away. 713 00:50:58,589 --> 00:51:02,958 I would have to forget Beth with some... severity. 714 00:51:02,960 --> 00:51:05,094 It wouldn't be easy. 715 00:51:05,195 --> 00:51:12,234 Forgetting Beth would not be easy at all. 716 00:51:12,469 --> 00:51:16,605 If I told her the truth... This is bullshit. I'm sorry. This... 717 00:51:16,607 --> 00:51:20,443 If I told her who I really was... 718 00:51:20,977 --> 00:51:22,211 I probably should go. 719 00:51:22,213 --> 00:51:24,847 She would hate me. 720 00:51:26,917 --> 00:51:27,917 Uh, Kev. Uh... 721 00:51:27,919 --> 00:51:32,688 Why would she go out with me in the first place? What the fuck is wrong with her? 722 00:51:34,524 --> 00:51:35,524 Kevin... 723 00:51:35,526 --> 00:51:39,228 What the fuck is wrong with me? 724 00:51:40,597 --> 00:51:42,431 I just... 725 00:51:42,999 --> 00:51:47,770 And I guess I hadn't really forgotten Adrienne after all. 726 00:52:04,488 --> 00:52:08,624 Sometimes nothing can help you forget a girl better than another one. 727 00:52:08,626 --> 00:52:12,561 Hello? 728 00:52:12,563 --> 00:52:15,364 Hey, it's me. What are you doing? 729 00:52:15,366 --> 00:52:19,268 What happened to your date? What date? 730 00:52:19,270 --> 00:52:20,536 Oh. 731 00:52:20,538 --> 00:52:23,272 Uh, are you hungry? 732 00:52:23,274 --> 00:52:25,007 No. 733 00:52:25,009 --> 00:52:29,845 - Will you meet me? - Okay. 734 00:52:29,847 --> 00:52:34,950 The truth is, women are objects. 735 00:52:34,952 --> 00:52:38,254 I mean, the feminists can say what they want, 736 00:52:38,256 --> 00:52:40,856 but when it comes right down to it, 737 00:52:40,858 --> 00:52:43,726 girls are made of bones... 738 00:52:43,728 --> 00:52:47,429 and muscle... and blood. 739 00:52:47,431 --> 00:52:49,064 And you're over there. 740 00:52:49,066 --> 00:52:54,937 You're right behind the camera, looking at them, 741 00:52:54,939 --> 00:52:59,441 creating a moment, an object in space. 742 00:52:59,443 --> 00:53:00,776 - And you're saying... - Smile. 743 00:53:00,778 --> 00:53:04,480 Look this way. And smooth your hair just back a little off your eye. 744 00:53:04,482 --> 00:53:08,551 - And they're saying... - How do you want me? 745 00:53:08,985 --> 00:53:11,954 Here? Like this? 746 00:53:11,956 --> 00:53:15,958 And you're saying... yes. 747 00:53:15,960 --> 00:53:19,795 Yes, I want you exactly... 748 00:53:19,797 --> 00:53:21,897 like... 749 00:53:22,933 --> 00:53:24,433 that. 750 00:53:28,772 --> 00:53:30,639 Like that. 751 00:54:38,375 --> 00:54:39,875 I take the "A" train 752 00:54:39,877 --> 00:54:44,280 No! 753 00:54:45,615 --> 00:54:46,615 Oh, yes! 754 00:54:46,617 --> 00:54:50,519 - That's one of the saddest things I've ever seen. 755 00:54:50,521 --> 00:54:53,122 - I'm fine. And... 756 00:54:53,124 --> 00:54:55,924 - Oh! - Yes! I got one. 757 00:54:55,926 --> 00:54:56,759 Notice the form. 758 00:54:56,761 --> 00:54:58,961 You're like... I'm a champion! 759 00:54:58,963 --> 00:55:01,897 - Go, Kevin, go! 760 00:55:02,599 --> 00:55:05,367 Your aim... It almost looks like you're placing it in the gutter. 761 00:55:05,369 --> 00:55:08,203 There. You want a direct line. 762 00:55:08,205 --> 00:55:12,241 Cool it, cool it, cool it, cool it, cool it, cool it, cool it 763 00:55:12,243 --> 00:55:15,411 Feel the hot dough 764 00:55:15,413 --> 00:55:16,712 Are you kidding me? Oh! 765 00:55:16,714 --> 00:55:19,014 Are you kidding me? Oh! 766 00:55:19,016 --> 00:55:21,050 Oh, my God. I'm like a bowling genius. 767 00:55:21,052 --> 00:55:23,085 - That is... Wow. - Oh, my God. 768 00:55:23,087 --> 00:55:24,087 That... Wow. 769 00:55:24,088 --> 00:55:28,023 Is this helping you? 770 00:55:28,025 --> 00:55:30,326 What do you mean? 771 00:55:30,328 --> 00:55:33,162 With that girl. With Beth. 772 00:55:33,164 --> 00:55:37,800 Is this helping you with your forgetting thing? 773 00:55:44,607 --> 00:55:48,310 Do you know what I need? What? 774 00:55:49,479 --> 00:55:51,513 I need whiskey. 775 00:55:52,282 --> 00:55:54,083 Neat. 776 00:55:54,984 --> 00:55:58,220 Do you want to go get a drink? 777 00:55:58,222 --> 00:56:00,389 Yeah. 778 00:56:00,557 --> 00:56:02,491 That would be fantastic. 779 00:56:02,493 --> 00:56:04,493 Okay. 780 00:56:35,993 --> 00:56:38,060 Looks like you caught me. 781 00:56:38,062 --> 00:56:42,564 Mmm. Looks like I did. 782 00:56:59,817 --> 00:57:02,184 My parents are dead. 783 00:57:03,420 --> 00:57:07,689 Or actually, you know, that I... I never actually met my dad, 784 00:57:07,691 --> 00:57:09,925 so... who knows? 785 00:57:09,927 --> 00:57:13,095 Who knows? He might still be alive. 786 00:57:13,097 --> 00:57:19,168 Um... And then when I was eight or... seven. 787 00:57:19,170 --> 00:57:21,937 Uh... Something like that... Eight, seven. 788 00:57:21,939 --> 00:57:28,043 I... had a sister. Uh, Nicole. 789 00:57:28,045 --> 00:57:33,148 I have a dead sister... named Nicole. 790 00:57:33,383 --> 00:57:35,951 What-What happened to her? 791 00:57:35,953 --> 00:57:38,253 You know, I don't know. 792 00:57:38,255 --> 00:57:41,790 I, uh... It's hard for me to remember. 793 00:57:41,792 --> 00:57:43,959 I, uh... 794 00:57:43,961 --> 00:57:46,562 She drowned in the pool. 795 00:57:46,564 --> 00:57:48,697 She drowned? Yeah. 796 00:57:48,699 --> 00:57:51,400 - Oh, my God. 797 00:57:54,404 --> 00:57:56,905 It's okay, Kevin. 798 00:57:56,907 --> 00:58:00,042 Is it? Yeah. 799 00:58:00,044 --> 00:58:02,778 It's fine. 800 00:58:03,913 --> 00:58:06,048 I don't pay you enough. Oh, my God. 801 00:58:06,050 --> 00:58:07,416 Jamie, I don't. Come on. 802 00:58:07,418 --> 00:58:10,385 I don't. I mean, here we are, we're sitting here. 803 00:58:10,387 --> 00:58:13,222 I feel like I can tell you anything. 804 00:58:13,224 --> 00:58:15,791 You can. Yeah. 805 00:58:15,793 --> 00:58:17,559 I feel like I can... 806 00:58:17,561 --> 00:58:22,297 I-I can explain myself to you. You can. 807 00:58:22,299 --> 00:58:24,867 I feel like... 808 00:58:24,869 --> 00:58:26,835 I feel like you understand. 809 00:58:26,837 --> 00:58:28,937 I do, Kevin. Yeah. 810 00:58:28,939 --> 00:58:32,875 I do. I-I do understand. 811 00:58:32,877 --> 00:58:36,278 I understand absolutely everything. 812 00:58:36,280 --> 00:58:40,582 Anything that you could ever say to me, I would understand. 813 00:58:40,584 --> 00:58:44,520 And there's something that I've been wanting to tell you too. 814 00:58:44,522 --> 00:58:46,788 For a really long time, okay? Mm-hmm. 815 00:58:46,790 --> 00:58:51,193 And that is that... I told my mom... 816 00:58:51,195 --> 00:58:55,030 that you were my boyfriend. 817 00:58:55,032 --> 00:58:57,599 And, like, I know that I shouldn't have. 818 00:58:57,601 --> 00:59:00,168 Oh, and another thing: I've been following you. 819 00:59:00,170 --> 00:59:03,171 When you're with those girls. Just to make sure you're okay. 820 00:59:03,173 --> 00:59:05,874 And I know that I shouldn't and everything, but I just... 821 00:59:05,876 --> 00:59:07,509 I don't know. I wanted to make sure you were okay. 822 00:59:07,511 --> 00:59:11,280 And I just felt, like, a little bit jealous, and, uh... I don't know. 823 00:59:11,282 --> 00:59:17,185 It's just that I've always felt like we have this amazing connection, you know? 824 00:59:17,187 --> 00:59:18,887 And, like, the first time I ever met you... 825 00:59:18,889 --> 00:59:21,990 It was like I was watching again. 826 00:59:21,992 --> 00:59:26,128 I mean, I was there with Jamie, in the bar, 827 00:59:26,130 --> 00:59:28,096 sitting on the hard stool. 828 00:59:28,098 --> 00:59:33,869 But my true self was actually up in the ceiling, 829 00:59:33,970 --> 00:59:38,707 looking down, watching myself sitting there. 830 00:59:39,242 --> 00:59:41,810 I could see Jamie too. 831 00:59:53,890 --> 00:59:58,427 I left you on the bed 832 00:59:58,429 --> 01:00:02,831 And took all the money 833 01:00:09,173 --> 01:00:16,011 Gonna buy you something to ease the hurt 834 01:00:16,013 --> 01:00:19,948 You're here. 835 01:00:20,917 --> 01:00:23,251 You're here. I am. 836 01:00:23,686 --> 01:00:26,555 I've loved you for so long. 837 01:00:29,158 --> 01:00:30,158 I know. 838 01:00:30,160 --> 01:00:35,397 I've always loved you. 839 01:00:35,399 --> 01:00:37,733 I know. 840 01:00:37,735 --> 01:00:40,102 It's okay. 841 01:00:40,269 --> 01:00:43,338 Okay. 842 01:00:45,241 --> 01:00:48,143 This is Jean. Jean. 843 01:00:48,145 --> 01:00:52,280 Forgotten after a full-release body massage. 844 01:00:54,384 --> 01:00:55,917 Oh, this is Fiona. 845 01:00:55,919 --> 01:01:01,490 Uh... I forgot Fiona by joining a gym I never ended up going to. 846 01:01:01,891 --> 01:01:07,729 Brenda. I forgot Brenda at the Museum of Modern Art. 847 01:01:08,197 --> 01:01:11,566 I forgot... Mary. 848 01:01:11,568 --> 01:01:13,301 Forgot Sarah. 849 01:01:13,303 --> 01:01:16,004 Forgot Kelly. 850 01:01:16,006 --> 01:01:17,873 I forgot... 851 01:01:19,042 --> 01:01:21,376 Forgot. 852 01:01:21,378 --> 01:01:23,512 Forgot. 853 01:01:23,514 --> 01:01:25,714 Forgot. 854 01:01:56,045 --> 01:01:58,413 Holy shit. 855 01:02:12,962 --> 01:02:15,130 I had to do something radical, 856 01:02:15,132 --> 01:02:18,734 something to forget all this in a major way. 857 01:02:18,736 --> 01:02:20,836 I was really going out of my mind, I admit. 858 01:02:20,838 --> 01:02:23,905 And I don't think I knew... I mean, I... 859 01:02:23,907 --> 01:02:26,742 I knew what was going on, what was happening. 860 01:02:26,744 --> 01:02:30,812 But I had to find some way of canceling it all out. 861 01:02:30,814 --> 01:02:34,883 Of forgetting Beth, forgetting Adrienne... 862 01:02:34,885 --> 01:02:39,187 and especially forgetting Jamie. 863 01:02:46,095 --> 01:02:49,197 I had to forget Jamie. 864 01:03:22,799 --> 01:03:26,635 Kevie. Kevie! 865 01:03:27,203 --> 01:03:28,603 Kevin! 866 01:03:28,605 --> 01:03:31,773 I really feel that we made this... this connection. 867 01:03:31,775 --> 01:03:34,342 I'm really sorry, Kevin. But I love you. 868 01:03:34,344 --> 01:03:36,044 What do you mean? 869 01:03:36,046 --> 01:03:38,113 I feel like I can tell you anything. 870 01:03:38,115 --> 01:03:42,384 I've been following you. I've always loved you. 871 01:03:52,361 --> 01:03:54,129 Beth. 872 01:03:54,131 --> 01:03:56,631 - What are you doing here? Oh. 873 01:03:56,633 --> 01:04:00,335 I thought you were someone else. Ow. 874 01:04:02,471 --> 01:04:05,173 Poor Beth. 875 01:04:05,175 --> 01:04:08,977 She couldn't have known what I was doing this for. 876 01:04:08,979 --> 01:04:12,013 But once I started, 877 01:04:13,616 --> 01:04:15,917 I had to keep going. 878 01:04:27,630 --> 01:04:29,364 Come on. 879 01:04:29,366 --> 01:04:32,500 I had to forget about all this somehow. 880 01:04:34,003 --> 01:04:35,871 Kevie. Kevie! 881 01:04:35,873 --> 01:04:39,441 I just wish I could remember more about Nicole, you know? Kevie! 882 01:04:39,443 --> 01:04:42,878 What the hell was she doing in that pool anyway? She wasn't allowed. 883 01:04:42,880 --> 01:04:47,249 She was too little to swim. I mean, I could barely swim myself. 884 01:04:50,653 --> 01:04:53,722 What was I supposed to do? 885 01:04:53,923 --> 01:04:56,791 How was I supposed to save her? 886 01:05:20,149 --> 01:05:22,918 What are we gonna do with her? 887 01:05:26,355 --> 01:05:28,423 How did you get in? 888 01:05:30,126 --> 01:05:33,161 I finally got a key made. 889 01:05:35,898 --> 01:05:37,832 Oh. 890 01:05:40,736 --> 01:05:45,473 Why don't you go hop in the shower, and I'll clean up here. 891 01:05:51,113 --> 01:05:52,380 Go. 892 01:06:13,135 --> 01:06:18,807 In the past I was a man 893 01:06:19,810 --> 01:06:26,047 But now I'm a ghost with dirty hands 894 01:06:27,184 --> 01:06:31,486 I stain the ground as I crawl to you 895 01:06:34,690 --> 01:06:38,326 I stain the ground as I move on through 896 01:06:38,328 --> 01:06:40,695 Good. 897 01:06:40,697 --> 01:06:44,766 Good. And tilt... Tilt your head a little to the left. A little more. 898 01:06:44,768 --> 01:06:45,934 Yeah. Completely. 899 01:06:45,936 --> 01:06:48,903 In the dark I cannot sleep 900 01:06:48,905 --> 01:06:52,507 Good. That's good. 901 01:06:52,842 --> 01:06:58,513 - I can't escape these thoughts that creep - Hmm. 902 01:07:02,518 --> 01:07:04,419 Good. Look this way. 903 01:07:04,421 --> 01:07:06,688 Great. Yeah, let's see that smile. 904 01:07:06,690 --> 01:07:09,424 Good. Good. 905 01:07:09,426 --> 01:07:11,126 Perfect. 906 01:07:12,061 --> 01:07:14,796 Move your hair. 907 01:07:18,567 --> 01:07:24,005 A shadow descending to be a man 908 01:07:29,311 --> 01:07:32,080 Why don't you sit up here? 909 01:07:32,082 --> 01:07:33,148 Me? 910 01:07:33,150 --> 01:07:35,950 - Just for one shot. - 911 01:07:35,952 --> 01:07:37,852 Mmm. My makeup is a mess. 912 01:07:37,854 --> 01:07:40,088 No, that's okay. It's not a glamour shot, Jamie. 913 01:07:40,090 --> 01:07:44,893 Plus, I just... I don't have any pictures of you, that's all. 914 01:07:52,935 --> 01:07:55,103 Let's see. 915 01:08:07,917 --> 01:08:14,322 - You know, Jamie, I've been thinking about... - I'm not gonna tell anyone. 916 01:08:14,324 --> 01:08:16,157 I know. 917 01:08:16,459 --> 01:08:19,661 I know that you wouldn't do that. But... 918 01:08:20,729 --> 01:08:23,198 You have to understand, I... 919 01:08:23,200 --> 01:08:27,669 I can't go around remembering all of this. 920 01:08:28,437 --> 01:08:32,807 You know? I have to forget. 921 01:08:33,876 --> 01:08:37,045 Well-Well, what about last night? 922 01:08:37,047 --> 01:08:39,614 Do you have to forget... 923 01:08:50,960 --> 01:08:54,362 Jamie, 924 01:08:54,364 --> 01:08:56,865 last night was... 925 01:08:58,734 --> 01:09:00,335 a mistake. 926 01:09:00,337 --> 01:09:04,739 Oh. 927 01:09:04,741 --> 01:09:07,342 Do you know what I mean? 928 01:09:16,553 --> 01:09:20,155 It's okay. 929 01:09:20,157 --> 01:09:22,357 It's okay. 930 01:09:23,259 --> 01:09:25,593 It's okay. 931 01:09:26,128 --> 01:09:30,465 'Cause I... I have been thinking about something... 932 01:09:30,467 --> 01:09:33,902 for a really long time. 933 01:09:33,904 --> 01:09:36,838 And I even told Derek about it. 934 01:09:36,840 --> 01:09:40,175 And he's trying to talk me out of it, but... 935 01:09:40,177 --> 01:09:46,147 I've got a whole... whole fucking bottle. 936 01:09:46,149 --> 01:09:49,350 Of what? 937 01:09:49,352 --> 01:09:51,819 Blue pills. 938 01:09:52,354 --> 01:09:54,956 Blue. 939 01:09:55,658 --> 01:09:57,525 Blue. 940 01:09:58,527 --> 01:10:03,031 Jamie, it's gonna be beautiful. 941 01:10:03,966 --> 01:10:05,833 It's gonna be so beautiful. 942 01:10:05,835 --> 01:10:07,969 You. Beautiful? 943 01:10:07,971 --> 01:10:09,070 You... 944 01:10:09,072 --> 01:10:12,807 are gonna be so beautiful. 945 01:10:12,809 --> 01:10:15,610 Beautiful. So beautiful. 946 01:10:17,180 --> 01:10:20,582 So beautiful. I promise. 947 01:10:22,017 --> 01:10:23,418 I promise. 948 01:10:23,420 --> 01:10:27,655 I'll give you something. 949 01:10:30,092 --> 01:10:34,295 I wanna be beautiful for you, Kevin. 950 01:10:34,563 --> 01:10:38,399 I wanna be beautiful for you. 951 01:10:45,341 --> 01:10:50,078 Kevin, if you are watching this, 952 01:10:50,080 --> 01:10:53,615 that means that you found me. 953 01:10:53,782 --> 01:10:57,151 And I just want you to know... 954 01:10:57,153 --> 01:11:01,789 why I killed Beth Dalewell in your studio. 955 01:11:01,791 --> 01:11:04,092 And also, 956 01:11:04,094 --> 01:11:09,564 why I took Adrienne Gilcrest's life too. 957 01:11:11,233 --> 01:11:13,868 I guess I was jealous. 958 01:11:14,370 --> 01:11:19,340 And now I have nothing left... 959 01:11:19,342 --> 01:11:21,276 to live for. 960 01:11:21,278 --> 01:11:24,779 I have nothing left. 961 01:11:25,214 --> 01:11:27,148 I'm sorry. 962 01:11:29,585 --> 01:11:32,387 This is Adrienne. 963 01:11:32,389 --> 01:11:35,556 I forgot her on a camping trip. 964 01:11:38,994 --> 01:11:41,496 This is Beth. 965 01:11:41,498 --> 01:11:43,364 Forgotten. 966 01:11:44,566 --> 01:11:48,036 And this is Jamie. 967 01:12:02,485 --> 01:12:06,354 Where did you get these anyway? 968 01:12:06,356 --> 01:12:08,790 A doctor. 969 01:12:08,792 --> 01:12:10,591 Said I was nervous. 970 01:12:10,593 --> 01:12:16,297 You should wipe your fingerprints off the bottle, don't you think? 971 01:12:16,299 --> 01:12:18,266 Don't worry. 972 01:12:20,636 --> 01:12:24,339 What if it doesn't work? 973 01:12:24,840 --> 01:12:27,742 It'll work. 974 01:12:45,461 --> 01:12:47,762 Kevin. 975 01:12:48,664 --> 01:12:51,065 Can I keep my clothes on? 976 01:12:51,067 --> 01:12:55,536 Sure. Sure, you can keep 'em on. 977 01:16:17,774 --> 01:16:23,010 If you're watching this, you've discovered something you shouldn't have. 978 01:16:30,753 --> 01:16:32,720 Anyway, um... 979 01:16:33,121 --> 01:16:37,592 This... This is a close-up of a model's eye. 980 01:16:37,594 --> 01:16:43,064 I can't remember her name to save my life, but she had the bluest eyes I'd ever seen. 981 01:16:43,066 --> 01:16:48,469 The only other time I remember seeing this exact intensity of blue... 982 01:16:48,471 --> 01:16:51,572 was the day my sister drowned. 983 01:16:51,974 --> 01:16:54,208 It was everywhere... 984 01:16:54,443 --> 01:16:59,880 in the water, in the sky, Nicole's skin. 985 01:16:59,882 --> 01:17:00,948 Blue. 986 01:17:05,188 --> 01:17:09,557 Nicole. She's the one girl I keep trying to remember. 987 01:17:09,559 --> 01:17:13,027 But I... I think she's the problem. 988 01:17:13,029 --> 01:17:16,931 I think... I think she's the reason... 989 01:17:16,933 --> 01:17:20,768 I am the way I am, right? 990 01:17:30,245 --> 01:17:33,481 This is what it looked like, these flashes of white. 991 01:17:33,483 --> 01:17:36,450 It was like this empty slide. 992 01:17:36,818 --> 01:17:41,088 The sun was flashing off the water. 993 01:17:41,256 --> 01:17:43,658 It was just like this. 994 01:17:48,730 --> 01:17:51,198 Jesus. 995 01:17:55,170 --> 01:17:57,605 I watched her. 996 01:18:00,509 --> 01:18:03,144 I watched the whole thing. 997 01:18:05,480 --> 01:18:09,150 Through the blue and the gold and the white flashes. 998 01:18:11,286 --> 01:18:13,554 The white... 999 01:18:13,556 --> 01:18:15,256 flashes. 1000 01:18:15,258 --> 01:18:16,724 - Flashes. 1001 01:18:21,430 --> 01:18:24,632 Kevie! 1002 01:18:24,966 --> 01:18:27,768 Kevin! 1003 01:18:33,076 --> 01:18:37,812 Kevin! 1004 01:18:38,346 --> 01:18:42,083 Help me! Somebody help! 1005 01:18:42,085 --> 01:18:45,219 Do you remember what happened, sweetheart? 1006 01:18:45,221 --> 01:18:47,788 I just don't remember. 1007 01:18:53,929 --> 01:18:56,330 I watched her. 1008 01:18:57,799 --> 01:19:01,368 I was looking through the light. 1009 01:19:02,170 --> 01:19:04,672 Into the heart of the light. 1010 01:19:05,073 --> 01:19:07,341 Into the silence. 1011 01:19:10,245 --> 01:19:14,081 I knew my baby sister was drowning. 1012 01:19:15,484 --> 01:19:17,852 And I let it happen. 1013 01:19:23,225 --> 01:19:25,426 I watched it... 1014 01:19:26,795 --> 01:19:29,196 because it was beautiful. 1015 01:19:32,601 --> 01:19:34,168 I let it happen... 1016 01:19:34,170 --> 01:19:38,639 because it was beautiful to see. 1017 01:19:57,893 --> 01:20:02,196 Under the water, Nicole called my name. 1018 01:20:03,064 --> 01:20:05,900 What I saw were flashes of light. 1019 01:20:07,002 --> 01:20:09,170 And what I heard... 1020 01:20:09,771 --> 01:20:12,606 What did I hear? 1021 01:20:12,741 --> 01:20:17,077 Put your hands over your ears. 1022 01:20:18,613 --> 01:20:20,848 Press down. 1023 01:21:20,475 --> 01:21:26,413 I know it's hard to tell how mixed up you feel 1024 01:21:26,415 --> 01:21:31,585 Hoping what you need is behind every door 1025 01:21:31,587 --> 01:21:36,690 Each time you get hurt, I don't want you to change 1026 01:21:36,692 --> 01:21:41,829 'Cause everyone has hopes You're human after all 1027 01:21:41,831 --> 01:21:47,668 The feeling sometimes, wishing you were someone else 1028 01:21:47,670 --> 01:21:52,606 Feeling as though you never belong 1029 01:21:52,608 --> 01:21:58,045 This feeling is not sadness This feeling is not joy 1030 01:21:58,047 --> 01:22:04,885 I truly understand Please don't cry now 1031 01:22:06,421 --> 01:22:11,292 Please don't go I want you to stay 1032 01:22:11,294 --> 01:22:16,297 I'm begging you, please Please don't leave here 1033 01:22:16,299 --> 01:22:21,835 I don't want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel 1034 01:22:21,837 --> 01:22:28,542 The world is just illusion trying to change you 1035 01:22:30,278 --> 01:22:35,549 Being like you are Well, this is something else 1036 01:22:35,551 --> 01:22:41,288 Who would comprehend? But some that do lay claim 1037 01:22:41,290 --> 01:22:46,093 Divine purpose blesses them 1038 01:22:46,095 --> 01:22:48,996 Well, that's not what I believe 1039 01:22:48,998 --> 01:22:51,999 And it doesn't matter anyway 1040 01:22:52,001 --> 01:22:56,837 A part of your soul ties you to the next world 1041 01:22:56,839 --> 01:23:01,842 Or maybe to the last, but I'm still not sure 1042 01:23:01,844 --> 01:23:07,314 But what I do know is to us the world is different 1043 01:23:07,316 --> 01:23:13,721 As we are to the world I guess you would know that 1044 01:23:15,757 --> 01:23:20,494 Please don't go I want you to stay 1045 01:23:20,496 --> 01:23:25,599 I'm begging you, please Please don't leave here 1046 01:23:25,601 --> 01:23:31,171 I don't want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel 1047 01:23:31,173 --> 01:23:36,910 The world is just illusion trying to change you 1048 01:23:36,912 --> 01:23:41,749 Please don't go I want you to stay 1049 01:23:41,751 --> 01:23:46,954 I'm begging you, please Oh, please don't leave here 1050 01:23:46,956 --> 01:23:52,393 I don't want you to change for all the hurt that you feel 1051 01:23:52,395 --> 01:23:59,099 This world is just illusion always trying to change you 1052 01:24:30,398 --> 01:24:35,235 Please don't go I want you to stay 1053 01:24:35,237 --> 01:24:40,274 I'm begging you, please Please don't leave here 1054 01:24:40,276 --> 01:24:45,746 I don't want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel 1055 01:24:45,748 --> 01:24:51,618 The world is just illusion trying to change you 1056 01:24:51,620 --> 01:24:56,423 Please don't go I want you to stay 1057 01:24:56,425 --> 01:25:01,662 I'm begging you, please Oh, please don't leave here 1058 01:25:01,664 --> 01:25:07,000 I don't want you to change for all the hurt that you feel 1059 01:25:07,002 --> 01:25:14,041 This world is just illusion always trying to change you 1060 01:25:15,305 --> 01:25:21,947 Support us and become VIP member to remove all ads from www.OpenSubtitles.org