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Everyone is intimidated by a shark. Become
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<i>I believe we have a choice in this
world about how to tell sad stories.</i>

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<i>On the one hand,
you can sugarcoat it.</i>

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<i>The way they do in movies
and romance novels...</i>

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<i>where beautiful people
learn beautiful lessons...</i>

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<i>where nothing is too messed
up that can't be fixed...</i>

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<i>with an apology
and a Peter Gabriel song.</i>

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<i>I like that version as much
as the next girl does,</i>

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<i>believe me.</i>

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<i>It's just not the truth.</i>

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<i>This is the truth.</i>

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<i>Sorry.</i>

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<i>Late in the winter
of my seventeenth year...</i>

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<i>my mother decided
that I was depressed.</i>

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She just eats like a bird,
she barely leaves the house.

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I am not depressed, Mom.

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She's reading the same
book over and over.

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She's depressed.

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I'm not depressed.

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<i>The booklets and the websites
always list depression as</i>

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<i>a side effect of cancer.</i>

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<i>Depression's not
a side effect of cancer.</i>

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<i>It's a side effect of dying.</i>

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<i>Which is what was happening to me.</i>

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I may switch you to Zoloft.

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Or Lexapro.

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And twice a day instead of once.

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- Why stop there?
- Hmm?

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Really, just keep them coming.

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I'm like the Keith Richards
of cancer kids.

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Have you been going to that
support group I suggested?

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Yeah, it's not my thing.

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Support groups can be a great way

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for you to connect
with people who are...

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Who are... What?

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on the same journey.

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"Journey"? Really?

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Give it a chance.

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Who knows, you might even
find it enlightening.

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All right.

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Are you guys ready?

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We are gathered here today

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literally in the heart of Jesus.

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We're here with J.C.

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Who wants to share their
story with the group?

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I'm Angel.

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I have acute myeloid leukemia.

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Sid. Acute lymphoblastic leukemia.

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Hi, I'm PJ. Um,
I have neuroblastoma.

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I'm Patrick.

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Testicular.

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<i>I'll spare you the gory details
of Patrick's ball cancer.</i>

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<i>Basically, they found it
in his nuts...</i>

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<i>they cut most of it out, and he
almost died, but he didn't die.</i>

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<i>So now, here he is,
divorced, friendless...</i>

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<i>living on his parents' couch...</i>

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<i>exploiting his cancer-tastic
past in the heart of Jesus.</i>

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<i>Literally.</i>

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<i>To show us that one day,
if we're lucky...</i>

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<i>we could be just like him.</i>

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Who's next?

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Hazel?

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Um...

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I'm Hazel.

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Uh, thyroid, originally...

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but now with quite the impressive

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satellite colony in my lungs.

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And how are you doing?

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<i>Uh, you mean besides
the terminal cancer?</i>

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All right, I guess.

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We're here for you, Hazel.

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Why don't I play another song?

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<i>Christ is our friend</i>

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<i>And he'll be there till the end</i>

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<i>Christ is our friend</i>

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<i>And he'll be there till the end</i>

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<i>Christ</i>

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Hey, sweet pea.

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So... was it awesome?

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"Yeah, Mom, it was awesome!"

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<i>And that was my life.</i>

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<i>Reality shows.</i>

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<i>Doctor's appointments.</i>

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<i>Eight prescription drugs,
three times a day.</i>

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<i>But worst, worst, worst of all...</i>

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<i>Support group.</i>

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- You cannot make me.
- Of course we can.

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We're your parents.

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Come on, we've been through this.

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You need to go.

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You need to make friends,
and be a teenager.

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Mom, if you want me
to be a teenager,

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you don't send me to support group.

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You gotta get me a fake ID
so that I can go to clubs...

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and drink gimlets and take pot.

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Uh, you don't "take" pot.

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Well, that is the kind of thing
I would know with a fake ID.

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Can you just get in the car, please?

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<i>And so I went.</i>

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<i>Not because I wanted to, or because
I thought it would help me...</i>

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<i>but for the same reason
I did anything these days.</i>

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<i>To make my parents happy.</i>

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I really don't understand
why I can't just drive myself.

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It's not like you're
gonna do anything.

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You're just gonna sit here
and wait again.

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Of course I'm not.

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No, I've got stuff to do.
I'm gonna do errands.

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Yeah.

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I love you.

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I love you, too.

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Have fun.

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<i>The only thing worse than
biting it from cancer...</i>

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<i>is having a kid
bite it from cancer.</i>

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Hey!

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Make some friends.

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Oh, sorry.

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- I'll take the stairs.
- No problem.

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Thank you.

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Sorry.

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My bad.

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I'm sorry.

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Oh, my God.

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<i>So, who would like to start?</i>

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Does anyone want to start?
Who wants to kick it off?

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Go ahead.

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I'm Beth. I have
spindle cell sarcoma.

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It's been an okay week.

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Isaac, I know that you're facing
some challenges right now.

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Do you want to share
with the group?

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Or maybe your friend, here?

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No, I'll share.

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Hey, guys. Uh...

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Hi, I'm Isaac.

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I have retinoblastoma.

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We had surgery on one eye
when I was younger...

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so this is a glass eye.

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And then I'm going in to the
hospital to have another surgery...

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to take out the other eye.

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So, after that surgery, I'm
just gonna be totally blind.

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But I'm lucky, because I have this
beautiful, smoking hot girlfriend...

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who's way out of my league. Monica.

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And I have great friends like
Augustus Waters to help me out.

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So, that's what's up. Thanks.

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We're here for you, Isaac.

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Thank you.

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Your turn, Gus.

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Yeah, sure.

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Um, I'm Augustus Waters.

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I'm 18 years old

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and I had a touch of osteosarcoma
about a year-and-a-half ago.

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So, I've lost this baby
as a result.

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And, uh, now I'm part
cyborg, which is awesome.

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But, really, I'm just
here at Isaac's request.

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And how are you feeling, Gus?

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I'm grand, yeah.

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I'm on a roller coaster that
only goes up, my friend.

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Maybe you'd like to share
your fears with the group?

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My fears?

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Oblivion.

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Oblivion?

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Yeah.

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You see, I intend to live
an extraordinary life.

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To be remembered.

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So, I'd say if I have any fears,

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it would be to not do that.

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Would anyone else in the
group like to speak to that?

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Hazel?

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Unexpected.

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I just want to say
that there's gonna

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come a time when
all of us are dead.

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There was a time before humans

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and there's gonna be a time after.

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It could be tomorrow, it could
be a million years from now.

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And when it does,
there will be no one left...

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to remember Cleopatra or
Muhammad Ali or Mozart...

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let alone any of us.

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Oblivion's inevitable.

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And if that scares you, then
I suggest you ignore it.

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God knows it's what
everyone else does.

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Well, that's some good advice.

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And I like all this because it's
really nice to hear everybody...

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- Thank you.
- Mmm-hmm.

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- Always.
- Always.

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- Always.
- Always.

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"Literally."

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I thought we were
in a church basement...

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but apparently we were literally
in the heart of Jesus.

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Oh, yeah.

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What's your name?

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Hazel.

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No, what's your full name?

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Hazel Grace Lancaster.

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What?

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I didn't say anything.

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Why are you looking
at me like that?

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Because you're beautiful.

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Oh, my God.

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I enjoy looking
at beautiful people.

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See, I decided a while back...

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not to deny myself the simpler
pleasures of existence.

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Particularly, as you
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we're all gonna die pretty soon.

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Okay, well, that's great.
But I am not beautiful.

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Hey, Gus.

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Hi, Lisa.

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I like it when you say it first.

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I like it when you say it first.

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Okay.

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Always.

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Always.

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What is with the "always"?

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"Always" is, like, their thing.

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They'll "always" love
each other, and whatnot.

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They probably texted "always" to each
other 14 million times this year.

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He's got to be hurting her boob.

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Let's go watch a movie.

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- What?
- Hmm?

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Huh?

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Um...

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I'm free later this week,
we could...

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No, I mean now.

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You could be an axe murderer.

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There's always that possibility.

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Come on, Hazel Grace.
Take a risk.

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I don't...

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Really?

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That is disgusting.

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What?

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What, do you think that
that's cool or something?

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You just ruined this whole thing.

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- The whole thing?
- Yes, this whole thing!

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Oh, man.

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Ugh. And you were
doing really well, too.

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God! There's always
a hamartia, isn't there?

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And yours is even though
you had freaking cancer...

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you're willing to give
money to a corporation...

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for the chance to acquire
even more cancer?

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Let me just tell you that not
being able to breathe sucks!

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It totally sucks.

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"Hamartia"?

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It's a fatal flaw.

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Ah, a fatal...

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Hazel Grace,

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they don't actually hurt
you unless you light them.

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Hmm?

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I've never lit one.

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It's a metaphor, see?

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You put the thing that does the
killing right between your teeth...

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but you never give it
the power to kill you.

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A metaphor.

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Hey, sweetheart.
Is it <i>Top Model</i> time?

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No. Uh...

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I've made plans
with Augustus Waters.

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Whoa!

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Oh, my God.

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Ooh!

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Yeah, I failed my test
a couple times.

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You don't say.

259
00:13:11.560 --> 00:13:13.119
Actually, the fourth time
I took the test,

260
00:13:13.120 --> 00:13:15.079
it was going about
how this is going.

261
00:13:15.080 --> 00:13:16.999
And when it was over...

262
00:13:17.000 --> 00:13:19.399
the instructor looks over
at me, and she says...

263
00:13:19.400 --> 00:13:23.079
"Your driving, while unpleasant,
is not technically unsafe."

264
00:13:23.080 --> 00:13:24.159
Cancer perk.

265
00:13:24.160 --> 00:13:26.489
Total cancer perk.

266
00:13:27.560 --> 00:13:30.159
So, tell me about you.

267
00:13:30.160 --> 00:13:33.491
Um, I was 13 when they found it.

268
00:13:33.600 --> 00:13:36.359
<i>Pretty much worst-case scenario.</i>

269
00:13:36.360 --> 00:13:38.679
<i>Thyroid, stage four.</i>

270
00:13:38.680 --> 00:13:40.361
<i>Not much they could do.</i>

271
00:13:40.400 --> 00:13:42.843
<i>Which didn't stop them, of course.</i>

272
00:13:43.360 --> 00:13:44.559
<i>Surgery.</i>

273
00:13:44.560 --> 00:13:46.239
<i>Radiation.</i>

274
00:13:46.240 --> 00:13:47.719
<i>Chemo.</i>

275
00:13:47.720 --> 00:13:49.526
<i>More radiation.</i>

276
00:13:51.280 --> 00:13:53.848
<i>All of which worked for a while.</i>

277
00:13:54.240 --> 00:13:57.319
<i>But, then stopped working.</i>

278
00:13:58.440 --> 00:14:01.439
<i>And then one day, my lungs
started filling up with water.</i>

279
00:14:01.440 --> 00:14:03.599
Nurse! We need a nurse right now!

280
00:14:03.600 --> 00:14:04.879
<i>I couldn't breathe.</i>

281
00:14:04.880 --> 00:14:07.559
<i>No one could get it under control.</i>

282
00:14:07.560 --> 00:14:10.049
You can let go, sweetie.

283
00:14:10.160 --> 00:14:11.719
Don't be afraid.

284
00:14:11.720 --> 00:14:13.439
<i>That should have been the end.</i>

285
00:14:13.440 --> 00:14:15.565
Oh, my God.

286
00:14:16.400 --> 00:14:18.239
<i>But then something
strange happened.</i>

287
00:14:18.240 --> 00:14:20.119
<i>The antibiotics kicked in.</i>

288
00:14:20.120 --> 00:14:22.279
<i>They drained the fluid
from my lungs.</i>

289
00:14:22.280 --> 00:14:24.006
<i>I got some strength back.</i>

290
00:14:24.440 --> 00:14:27.959
<i>Next thing I know, I found
myself in an experimental trial.</i>

291
00:14:27.960 --> 00:14:29.439
<i>You know, the ones that are famous</i>

292
00:14:29.440 --> 00:14:32.439
<i>in the Republic of
Cancervania for not working.</i>

293
00:14:32.440 --> 00:14:33.959
<i>It's called Phalanxifor.</i>

294
00:14:33.960 --> 00:14:35.959
<i>It didn't work in over
70% of the patients...</i>

295
00:14:35.960 --> 00:14:38.679
<i>but for some reason
it's been working for me.</i>

296
00:14:38.680 --> 00:14:40.279
So, they called it
"The Miracle."

297
00:14:40.280 --> 00:14:42.079
Of course, my lungs still
suck at being lungs...

298
00:14:42.080 --> 00:14:44.639
but, theoretically, they could
continue to suck like this...

299
00:14:44.640 --> 00:14:47.479
for, I don't know, a while maybe.

300
00:14:47.480 --> 00:14:49.119
So, are you back in school?

301
00:14:49.120 --> 00:14:53.119
I got my GED, so I'm
taking classes at MCC.

302
00:14:53.120 --> 00:14:55.599
Whoa! A college girl!

303
00:14:55.600 --> 00:14:58.079
Well, that explains
the aura of sophistication.

304
00:14:58.080 --> 00:14:59.681
Oh! Careful!

305
00:15:04.520 --> 00:15:05.599
Oops.

306
00:15:08.920 --> 00:15:12.046
Welcome to my humble abode.

307
00:15:17.520 --> 00:15:20.088
Uh, my folks call them
"encouragements."

308
00:15:22.000 --> 00:15:23.519
Don't ask.

309
00:15:25.160 --> 00:15:26.479
Hi, guys!

310
00:15:26.480 --> 00:15:28.319
- Hey!
- Augustus, hi.

311
00:15:28.320 --> 00:15:30.445
New friend?

312
00:15:31.280 --> 00:15:33.679
Yeah. This is Hazel Grace.

313
00:15:33.680 --> 00:15:35.199
Hey. Oh, it's just "Hazel."

314
00:15:35.200 --> 00:15:36.439
How's it going, "Just Hazel"?

315
00:15:36.440 --> 00:15:38.319
Hi, Hazel, how are you?

316
00:15:38.320 --> 00:15:40.199
Yeah, we're going downstairs. Bye.

317
00:15:40.200 --> 00:15:42.723
- Nice to meet you guys.
- Nice to meet you, too.

318
00:15:49.360 --> 00:15:50.639
This is it.

319
00:15:50.640 --> 00:15:52.959
Augusto World.

320
00:15:52.960 --> 00:15:54.279
This is my room.

321
00:15:54.280 --> 00:15:56.325
Wow.

322
00:15:57.880 --> 00:16:00.039
It's an impressive collection.

323
00:16:00.040 --> 00:16:01.359
Yeah, I used to play.

324
00:16:02.680 --> 00:16:04.519
Do you mind if I sit down?

325
00:16:04.520 --> 00:16:07.122
Yeah. Make yourself at home.

326
00:16:07.720 --> 00:16:10.800
<i>Mi casa es tu casa.</i>

327
00:16:12.480 --> 00:16:15.811
Sorry, the, um, stairs...

328
00:16:16.960 --> 00:16:19.244
and the standing...

329
00:16:19.400 --> 00:16:22.002
Yeah, I understand.

330
00:16:23.640 --> 00:16:25.079
Seriously, are you okay?

331
00:16:25.080 --> 00:16:26.359
Yeah, yeah.

332
00:16:26.360 --> 00:16:29.239
All right. What's your story?

333
00:16:29.240 --> 00:16:31.763
I already told you.

334
00:16:32.240 --> 00:16:34.559
I was diagnosed when I was 13...

335
00:16:34.560 --> 00:16:36.810
No, no, no. Not your cancer
story, your real story.

336
00:16:37.760 --> 00:16:39.319
Your interests, your hobbies,

337
00:16:39.320 --> 00:16:41.079
your passions, your weird fetishes.

338
00:16:41.080 --> 00:16:42.399
"Weird fetishes"?

339
00:16:42.400 --> 00:16:44.239
Think of something. The first
thing that pops in your head.

340
00:16:44.240 --> 00:16:45.887
Something you love.

341
00:16:47.360 --> 00:16:49.079
<i>An Imperial Affliction.</i>

342
00:16:49.080 --> 00:16:51.919
Okay. What's that?

343
00:16:51.920 --> 00:16:53.239
It's a novel.

344
00:16:53.240 --> 00:16:55.079
It's my favorite novel.

345
00:16:55.080 --> 00:16:57.199
Wait, does it have zombies in it?

346
00:16:57.200 --> 00:16:58.279
Zombies? No!

347
00:16:58.280 --> 00:16:59.679
Stormtroopers?

348
00:16:59.680 --> 00:17:02.759
No, it's not that kind of a book.

349
00:17:02.760 --> 00:17:04.879
Okay, what's it about?

350
00:17:04.880 --> 00:17:06.720
Uh, cancer.

351
00:17:07.240 --> 00:17:08.399
It's about cancer?

352
00:17:08.400 --> 00:17:12.399
But not like that.
Trust me, it's amazing.

353
00:17:12.400 --> 00:17:15.439
The author, his name
is Peter Van Houten.

354
00:17:15.440 --> 00:17:18.079
He's the only person I've ever
come across in my life...

355
00:17:18.080 --> 00:17:21.599
who, A, understands what
it's like to be dying...

356
00:17:21.600 --> 00:17:23.919
but, B, hasn't actually died.

357
00:17:23.920 --> 00:17:25.479
Okay.

358
00:17:25.480 --> 00:17:28.119
I will read this horrible book
with this very boring title...

359
00:17:28.120 --> 00:17:30.799
that does not include
zombies or Stormtroopers.

360
00:17:30.800 --> 00:17:32.731
And in exchange...

361
00:17:35.120 --> 00:17:36.959
you will read this.

362
00:17:36.960 --> 00:17:38.279
This haunting,

363
00:17:38.280 --> 00:17:41.201
yet brilliant novelization
of my favorite video game.

364
00:17:41.400 --> 00:17:43.764
<i>"Counterinsurgence."</i>

365
00:17:45.640 --> 00:17:47.999
Yeah, don't laugh. It's awesome.

366
00:17:48.000 --> 00:17:51.080
It's about honor, and sacrifice,
and bravery, and heroism.

367
00:17:51.440 --> 00:17:54.959
It's about embracing your destiny,

368
00:17:54.960 --> 00:17:56.319
and leaving a mark on the world.

369
00:17:58.560 --> 00:18:00.479
Well, thank you.

370
00:18:00.480 --> 00:18:02.799
Wait, your hands are so cold.

371
00:18:02.800 --> 00:18:06.399
Well, they're not so much cold
as just under-oxygenated.

372
00:18:06.400 --> 00:18:08.119
- Hazel Grace?
- Hmm?

373
00:18:08.120 --> 00:18:10.404
I love it when you
talk medical to me.

374
00:18:18.360 --> 00:18:20.121
That's different.

375
00:18:21.600 --> 00:18:24.567
Did he give it to you?

376
00:18:24.680 --> 00:18:26.805
By "it," do you mean herpes?

377
00:18:27.160 --> 00:18:28.439
Wow.

378
00:18:28.440 --> 00:18:29.799
Yes, I did.

379
00:18:29.800 --> 00:18:32.129
It's a mother's dream.

380
00:18:46.560 --> 00:18:49.039
Hey, don't worry.

381
00:18:49.040 --> 00:18:50.879
Oh, my God, Mom.
I'm not worried.

382
00:18:50.880 --> 00:18:52.479
It's not a big deal.

383
00:18:52.480 --> 00:18:53.719
Yeah.

384
00:18:53.720 --> 00:18:57.608
We just hung out, it's not like
I'm waiting for him to call me.

385
00:19:36.760 --> 00:19:37.999
<i>- Is that what...?
- Yeah.</i>

386
00:19:38.000 --> 00:19:39.599
Because I thought
those were peppers.

387
00:19:39.600 --> 00:19:42.279
Today, in China,

388
00:19:42.280 --> 00:19:43.440
International Goji Berry Day.

389
00:19:45.000 --> 00:19:46.239
Isn't that great?

390
00:19:46.240 --> 00:19:47.599
I like the color.

391
00:19:47.600 --> 00:19:48.679
Mmm-hmm.

392
00:19:48.680 --> 00:19:50.759
- This is the dry.
- Uh-huh. Very good.

393
00:19:50.760 --> 00:19:53.010
- They're good, right?
- Mmm-hmm.

394
00:19:53.360 --> 00:19:57.328
So, do they eat a lot of goji
berries on Goji Berry Day?

395
00:20:00.440 --> 00:20:02.599
I did something with the dessert...

396
00:20:02.600 --> 00:20:05.879
just to try to keep
the goji berry theme going.

397
00:20:05.880 --> 00:20:08.209
Because they're
an amazing antioxidant.

398
00:20:12.960 --> 00:20:14.079
Well, I like it.

399
00:20:14.080 --> 00:20:15.719
We should do it every year.

400
00:20:15.720 --> 00:20:16.959
- Every year.
- We should do it every year.

401
00:20:16.960 --> 00:20:18.039
I know.

402
00:20:18.040 --> 00:20:20.369
I really do like these.

403
00:20:21.600 --> 00:20:24.089
Honey, would you like
to be excused?

404
00:20:24.720 --> 00:20:26.239
What?

405
00:20:31.080 --> 00:20:32.999
<i>Hazel Grace.</i>

406
00:20:33.000 --> 00:20:36.319
Welcome to the sweet torture of
reading <i>An Imperial Affliction.</i>

407
00:20:36.320 --> 00:20:38.759
<i>But now I'm breaking all the rules!</i>

408
00:20:38.760 --> 00:20:40.319
Are you okay?

409
00:20:40.320 --> 00:20:42.399
<i>And now I'm breaking all the rules</i>

410
00:20:42.400 --> 00:20:44.999
Uh... Me? Yeah,
I am excellent.

411
00:20:45.000 --> 00:20:47.762
I am, however, with Isaac, and...

412
00:20:48.000 --> 00:20:51.444
Isaac, does Support Group Hazel
make this better or worse?

413
00:20:52.760 --> 00:20:54.479
<i>I've been wasting all my time</i>

414
00:20:54.480 --> 00:20:56.159
Isaac! Focus on me.

415
00:20:56.160 --> 00:20:57.479
<i>Been wasting all my time</i>

416
00:20:57.480 --> 00:20:59.759
How fast can you get here?

417
00:20:59.760 --> 00:21:00.839
Um...

418
00:21:00.840 --> 00:21:02.279
<i>Great. Well,
the door's open.</i>

419
00:21:02.280 --> 00:21:03.879
I gotta run. Bye.

420
00:21:10.480 --> 00:21:12.319
Hello?

421
00:21:12.320 --> 00:21:14.199
Hazel.

422
00:21:14.200 --> 00:21:16.290
Isaac, Hazel Grace from the
Support Group is here.

423
00:21:17.240 --> 00:21:18.841
- Hi.
- Hi.

424
00:21:20.360 --> 00:21:22.799
Uh... A gentle reminder...

425
00:21:22.800 --> 00:21:25.199
Isaac's in the midst of a
psychotic episode right now.

426
00:21:25.200 --> 00:21:26.679
You look really nice, by the way.

427
00:21:26.680 --> 00:21:27.839
I like this color on you.

428
00:21:27.840 --> 00:21:29.439
Thank you.

429
00:21:29.440 --> 00:21:31.405
Isaac.

430
00:21:37.040 --> 00:21:38.559
Isaac, Hazel's here.

431
00:21:38.560 --> 00:21:39.999
Hey, Isaac.

432
00:21:40.000 --> 00:21:42.199
Hey, Hazel.

433
00:21:47.560 --> 00:21:48.879
How you doing?

434
00:21:48.880 --> 00:21:51.519
I'm doing okay.

435
00:21:51.520 --> 00:21:54.964
It seems Isaac and Monica are
no longer a going concern.

436
00:21:55.360 --> 00:21:56.799
Oh, Isaac, I'm so sorry.

437
00:21:56.800 --> 00:21:58.199
Do you want to talk about it?

438
00:21:58.200 --> 00:22:01.849
No, I just want to cry
and play video games.

439
00:22:02.400 --> 00:22:04.159
However, you know, it doesn't
hurt to talk to him...

440
00:22:04.160 --> 00:22:07.719
if you have any sage words
of feminine advice.

441
00:22:07.720 --> 00:22:10.919
I actually think that his
response is fairly appropriate.

442
00:22:10.920 --> 00:22:12.599
"Pain demands to be felt."

443
00:22:12.600 --> 00:22:14.690
You're quoting my book.

444
00:22:14.760 --> 00:22:18.679
She said she wanted to break up
with me before the surgery...

445
00:22:18.680 --> 00:22:21.079
because she couldn't handle it.

446
00:22:21.080 --> 00:22:25.079
I'm about to lose my eyesight,
and she can't handle it.

447
00:22:25.080 --> 00:22:27.559
I kept saying "always" to her.
Like, "Always."

448
00:22:27.560 --> 00:22:29.999
And she kept talking over me

449
00:22:30.000 --> 00:22:32.602
and not saying it back, and...

450
00:22:32.760 --> 00:22:36.439
It was like I was gone
already, you know?

451
00:22:36.440 --> 00:22:37.879
You know, sometimes...

452
00:22:37.880 --> 00:22:40.119
people don't understand
the promises

453
00:22:40.120 --> 00:22:42.399
that they're making
when they make them.

454
00:22:42.400 --> 00:22:44.001
I know, but...

455
00:22:44.400 --> 00:22:46.119
I feel like such a loser.

456
00:22:46.120 --> 00:22:47.439
I still have her necklace on.

457
00:22:47.440 --> 00:22:48.759
Take it off.

458
00:22:48.760 --> 00:22:50.566
Dude, take that off.

459
00:22:50.960 --> 00:22:52.759
Yeah.

460
00:22:52.760 --> 00:22:54.279
Here we go, man.
Here we go.

461
00:22:54.280 --> 00:22:56.723
I just want to kick something.

462
00:22:59.080 --> 00:23:01.239
Don't hit that, don't hit that.

463
00:23:01.240 --> 00:23:02.841
Uh...

464
00:23:03.280 --> 00:23:05.405
- Hit this.
- Sorry.

465
00:23:12.920 --> 00:23:14.559
I've been wanting to call
you for a few days now...

466
00:23:14.560 --> 00:23:16.159
but I've been waiting
until I could form

467
00:23:16.160 --> 00:23:18.250
a coherent thought about
<i>An Imperial Affliction.</i>

468
00:23:21.000 --> 00:23:22.119
One second.

469
00:23:22.120 --> 00:23:23.881
Isaac.

470
00:23:24.320 --> 00:23:25.799
Pillows don't break.

471
00:23:25.800 --> 00:23:28.084
You need to break something.

472
00:23:28.600 --> 00:23:30.725
Try this.

473
00:23:30.960 --> 00:23:32.839
- The trophy?
- Yeah.

474
00:23:32.840 --> 00:23:33.919
Are you sure?

475
00:23:33.920 --> 00:23:36.599
I've been looking for a way to tell
my father I kind of hate basketball.

476
00:23:36.600 --> 00:23:38.770
Go to town!

477
00:23:44.600 --> 00:23:46.439
Always!

478
00:23:46.440 --> 00:23:47.999
<i>An Imperial Affliction.</i>

479
00:23:48.000 --> 00:23:49.879
Yes. I'm so glad that you liked it.

480
00:23:51.000 --> 00:23:52.679
Yes, I did.
But the ending.

481
00:23:52.680 --> 00:23:54.359
I know.
It is rather abrupt.

482
00:23:54.360 --> 00:23:56.759
"Rather abrupt"? Are you kidding?
It's evil!

483
00:23:56.760 --> 00:23:59.119
I mean, I understand
that she dies...

484
00:23:59.120 --> 00:24:01.639
but there's an unwritten
contract between author and...

485
00:24:01.640 --> 00:24:02.839
- Gus?
- Yeah?

486
00:24:02.840 --> 00:24:03.999
- Cool?
- Sure.

487
00:24:04.000 --> 00:24:05.559
Between author and reader.

488
00:24:05.560 --> 00:24:07.519
And I feel like ending your book
in the middle of a sentence...

489
00:24:07.520 --> 00:24:09.519
violates that contract,
don't you think?

490
00:24:09.520 --> 00:24:10.679
Okay, yes.

491
00:24:10.680 --> 00:24:12.119
I know what you mean...

492
00:24:12.120 --> 00:24:13.719
but, to be completely honest,

493
00:24:13.720 --> 00:24:15.479
I think it's just so truthful.

494
00:24:15.480 --> 00:24:17.439
You just die in the middle of life.

495
00:24:17.440 --> 00:24:18.840
You die in the middle
of a sentence.

496
00:24:20.200 --> 00:24:22.479
And, I don't know...

497
00:24:22.480 --> 00:24:24.279
But I really would like to know

498
00:24:24.280 --> 00:24:27.087
what happens to everyone
after Anna dies.

499
00:24:27.880 --> 00:24:28.959
Like Anna's mother.

500
00:24:28.960 --> 00:24:30.559
Yes, and the Dutch Tulip Man.

501
00:24:30.560 --> 00:24:32.399
And Sisyphus the Hamster.

502
00:24:32.400 --> 00:24:34.079
Yes!

503
00:24:35.240 --> 00:24:37.799
Have you tried contacting
this Peter Van Houten fellow?

504
00:24:37.800 --> 00:24:39.759
I've written him so many letters,

505
00:24:39.760 --> 00:24:41.399
but he's never responded.

506
00:24:41.400 --> 00:24:42.879
Apparently, he moved to Amsterdam

507
00:24:42.880 --> 00:24:44.811
and became a recluse, and...

508
00:24:45.640 --> 00:24:47.919
- Shame.
- Yeah.

509
00:24:47.920 --> 00:24:49.239
Isaac...

510
00:24:49.240 --> 00:24:51.808
You feeling better, buddy?

511
00:24:52.320 --> 00:24:54.843
That's the thing about pain.

512
00:24:55.520 --> 00:24:56.759
It demands to be felt.

513
00:24:56.760 --> 00:25:00.011
I'll help you clean this up.

514
00:25:01.920 --> 00:25:03.919
<i>Hazel Grace.</i>

515
00:25:03.920 --> 00:25:05.079
Augustus Waters.

516
00:25:05.080 --> 00:25:07.719
I cannot stop thinking
about this goddamn book.

517
00:25:07.720 --> 00:25:09.999
<i>You're welcome.</i>

518
00:25:10.000 --> 00:25:11.719
However, we do need closure,
don't you think?

519
00:25:11.720 --> 00:25:13.439
That is exactly what I was asking

520
00:25:13.440 --> 00:25:14.919
Van Houten for in my letters.

521
00:25:14.920 --> 00:25:16.759
But he never responded.

522
00:25:16.760 --> 00:25:18.805
Um, nope.

523
00:25:19.600 --> 00:25:21.399
"Dear Mr. Waters...

524
00:25:21.400 --> 00:25:24.599
"I am writing to thank you for
your electronic correspondence.

525
00:25:24.600 --> 00:25:26.679
"I am grateful to anyone
who sets aside the time...

526
00:25:26.680 --> 00:25:28.239
<i>"to read my book."</i>

527
00:25:28.240 --> 00:25:29.599
Augustus?

528
00:25:29.600 --> 00:25:31.361
<i>Yes?</i>

529
00:25:31.800 --> 00:25:32.959
What are you doing?

530
00:25:32.960 --> 00:25:34.039
<i>I may have found...</i>

531
00:25:34.040 --> 00:25:36.399
Van Houten's assistant,
emailed her.

532
00:25:36.400 --> 00:25:37.333
Augustus!

533
00:25:37.334 --> 00:25:39.439
She may have forwarded
that email on to Van Houten.

534
00:25:39.440 --> 00:25:40.639
<i>Shall I continue?</i>

535
00:25:40.640 --> 00:25:42.599
Oh, my God. Yeah, go, go, go!

536
00:25:42.600 --> 00:25:44.879
"I am particularly
indebted to you, sir."

537
00:25:44.880 --> 00:25:47.799
Hazel Grace,
he just called me "sir."

538
00:25:47.800 --> 00:25:50.599
Augustus, keep reading,
keep reading!

539
00:25:50.600 --> 00:25:53.279
"Both for your kind words about
<i>An Imperial Affliction...</i>

540
00:25:53.280 --> 00:25:54.719
"and for taking the time...

541
00:25:54.720 --> 00:25:56.959
<i>"to tell me that the book, and
here I quote you directly...</i>

542
00:25:56.960 --> 00:26:00.159
<i>"'meant a great deal to you
and your friend Hazel Grace.</i>

543
00:26:00.160 --> 00:26:01.879
<i>You did not! You did not!</i>

544
00:26:01.880 --> 00:26:03.159
You did not, you did not!

545
00:26:03.160 --> 00:26:04.239
<i>Of course I did.</i>

546
00:26:04.240 --> 00:26:08.079
"To answer your question, no, I have
not written anything else, nor will I.

547
00:26:08.080 --> 00:26:10.399
<i>"I do not feel like continuing to
share my thoughts with readers...</i>

548
00:26:10.400 --> 00:26:11.759
<i>"would benefit either them or me.</i>

549
00:26:11.760 --> 00:26:13.439
<i>"However, thank you...</i>

550
00:26:13.440 --> 00:26:14.839
"for your generous email.

551
00:26:14.840 --> 00:26:18.728
"Yours most sincerely,
Peter Van Houten."

552
00:26:20.160 --> 00:26:21.679
So, yeah, that just happened.

553
00:26:22.840 --> 00:26:24.399
Oh, my God.

554
00:26:24.400 --> 00:26:26.360
I've been trying to tell
you, I'm kind of awesome.

555
00:26:28.280 --> 00:26:30.319
Do you think that I...

556
00:26:30.320 --> 00:26:31.679
Check your inbox.

557
00:26:31.680 --> 00:26:33.520
Oh, my God.

558
00:26:38.120 --> 00:26:40.439
Oh, my God, Augustus.

559
00:26:40.440 --> 00:26:42.519
I'm freaking out. I'm freaking out.

560
00:26:42.520 --> 00:26:44.599
<i>Dear Mr. Peter Van Houten,</i>

561
00:26:44.600 --> 00:26:46.919
<i>my name is Hazel Grace Lancaster.</i>

562
00:26:46.920 --> 00:26:48.599
<i>My friend Augustus Waters...</i>

563
00:26:48.600 --> 00:26:51.319
<i>who read your book
at my recommendation...</i>

564
00:26:51.320 --> 00:26:53.959
<i>just received an email
from you at this address.</i>

565
00:26:53.960 --> 00:26:57.119
<i>I hope you will not mind that
he shared that email with me.</i>

566
00:26:57.120 --> 00:26:59.519
<i>I was wondering if you wouldn't mind
answering a few questions I have...</i>

567
00:26:59.520 --> 00:27:02.039
<i>about what happens
after the end of the book.</i>

568
00:27:02.040 --> 00:27:03.719
<i>Specifically the following.</i>

569
00:27:03.720 --> 00:27:06.891
<i>Does Anna's mom marry
the Dutch Tulip Man?</i>

570
00:27:07.000 --> 00:27:08.839
<i>And is the Dutch Tulip Man
up to something...</i>

571
00:27:08.840 --> 00:27:10.965
<i>or is he just
completely misunderstood?</i>

572
00:27:11.680 --> 00:27:16.119
<i>Lastly, I was hoping you could shed
some light on Sisyphus the Hamster.</i>

573
00:27:16.120 --> 00:27:18.839
<i>These questions have
haunted me for years...</i>

574
00:27:18.840 --> 00:27:22.519
<i>and I don't know how long I have
left to get answers to them.</i>

575
00:27:22.520 --> 00:27:24.839
<i>I know that these are not
important literary questions...</i>

576
00:27:24.840 --> 00:27:27.079
"and that your book is full of
important literary questions...

577
00:27:27.080 --> 00:27:28.799
"but I would just
really like to know.

578
00:27:28.800 --> 00:27:31.079
<i>"And, of course, if you ever do
decide to write anything else...</i>

579
00:27:31.080 --> 00:27:32.679
"I would love to read it.

580
00:27:32.680 --> 00:27:35.159
"Frankly, I'd read
your grocery lists.

581
00:27:35.160 --> 00:27:38.239
"Yours, with great admiration,
Hazel Grace Lancaster."

582
00:27:38.240 --> 00:27:40.159
Not bad.

583
00:27:40.160 --> 00:27:41.239
You think?

584
00:27:41.240 --> 00:27:43.479
Yeah, I mean,
it's a bit pretentious...

585
00:27:43.480 --> 00:27:46.079
<i>but then again, Van Houten
uses words like "tendentious"</i>

586
00:27:46.080 --> 00:27:48.079
<i>and "Bacchanalia," so...</i>

587
00:27:48.080 --> 00:27:50.170
I think he'll like it.

588
00:27:55.440 --> 00:27:57.519
Is it really 1:00 AM?

589
00:27:57.520 --> 00:27:58.599
<i>Is it?</i>

590
00:27:58.600 --> 00:28:01.441
Yeah, I guess it is.

591
00:28:02.760 --> 00:28:06.045
I should probably go to sleep.

592
00:28:07.120 --> 00:28:09.722
Okay.

593
00:28:10.760 --> 00:28:12.725
Okay.

594
00:28:16.920 --> 00:28:19.204
Okay.

595
00:28:21.120 --> 00:28:23.051
Okay.

596
00:28:24.280 --> 00:28:27.645
Perhaps "okay"
will be our "always."

597
00:28:33.240 --> 00:28:35.649
Okay.

598
00:29:05.840 --> 00:29:07.771
Oh, my God.

599
00:29:10.800 --> 00:29:13.319
"Dear Ms. Lancaster...

600
00:29:13.320 --> 00:29:15.319
"I cannot answer your questions,
at least not in writing...

601
00:29:15.320 --> 00:29:17.959
"because to do so
would constitute a sequel...

602
00:29:17.960 --> 00:29:20.839
"which you might publish or
otherwise share on the internet.

603
00:29:20.840 --> 00:29:23.119
"Not that I don't trust you,
but how could I trust you?

604
00:29:23.120 --> 00:29:24.721
"I barely know you.

605
00:29:24.760 --> 00:29:26.839
"Should ever you find
yourself in Amsterdam,

606
00:29:26.840 --> 00:29:29.408
"do pay a visit at your leisure."

607
00:29:29.840 --> 00:29:31.679
What?

608
00:29:31.680 --> 00:29:34.965
"Yours most sincerely,
Peter Van Houten."

609
00:29:37.120 --> 00:29:38.319
Oh, my God!

610
00:29:38.320 --> 00:29:39.519
What is this life?

611
00:29:39.520 --> 00:29:41.439
Hazel?

612
00:29:41.440 --> 00:29:42.839
- Mom!
- Hazel, what's wrong?

613
00:29:42.840 --> 00:29:43.999
Mom, look at this.

614
00:29:44.000 --> 00:29:46.648
Come here. Come here, come here.

615
00:29:46.680 --> 00:29:48.486
Look.

616
00:29:49.440 --> 00:29:50.519
- What?
- Yeah.

617
00:29:50.520 --> 00:29:52.326
Peter Van Houten!

618
00:29:52.880 --> 00:29:54.039
Look what he said!

619
00:29:54.040 --> 00:29:56.359
"Should ever you find
yourself in Amsterdam"!

620
00:29:56.360 --> 00:29:57.639
I have to go!

621
00:29:57.640 --> 00:29:58.719
That's incredible.

622
00:29:58.720 --> 00:30:00.399
He invited us to Amsterdam.

623
00:30:00.400 --> 00:30:01.559
Amsterdam!

624
00:30:01.560 --> 00:30:03.719
- Wow!
- Can we go?

625
00:30:03.720 --> 00:30:06.721
I mean, do you think
we could actually go?

626
00:30:06.840 --> 00:30:08.039
I mean, Amsterdam!

627
00:30:08.040 --> 00:30:10.879
I want you to have everything
you want in the world.

628
00:30:10.880 --> 00:30:13.239
But we don't have
the money, you know?

629
00:30:13.240 --> 00:30:15.519
Just getting all the
equipment over there.

630
00:30:15.520 --> 00:30:17.159
How do we do that?

631
00:30:17.160 --> 00:30:20.491
Yeah, duh. I'm sorry.

632
00:30:26.640 --> 00:30:30.084
Hey, you, I am so sorry.

633
00:30:30.360 --> 00:30:33.930
It's okay.

634
00:30:50.880 --> 00:30:53.439
Why don't you just ask
the Genies? Use your wish.

635
00:30:53.440 --> 00:30:55.359
I already used it.
Pre-Miracle.

636
00:30:55.360 --> 00:30:57.371
What'd you use it on?

637
00:31:00.080 --> 00:31:02.569
Not Disney.

638
00:31:02.720 --> 00:31:06.799
Hazel Grace, you did not
go to Disney World.

639
00:31:06.800 --> 00:31:09.119
- You did not use your last dying wish...
- I was 13.

640
00:31:09.120 --> 00:31:10.399
to go to Disney World.

641
00:31:10.400 --> 00:31:11.679
And Epcot Center.

642
00:31:11.680 --> 00:31:12.959
Oh, my God.

643
00:31:12.960 --> 00:31:14.639
It was actually a really fun trip!

644
00:31:14.640 --> 00:31:15.839
That's the saddest thing
I've ever heard.

645
00:31:15.840 --> 00:31:17.079
I met Goofy!

646
00:31:17.080 --> 00:31:18.279
Now I'm just embarrassed.

647
00:31:18.280 --> 00:31:19.479
Why are you embarrassed?

648
00:31:19.480 --> 00:31:23.279
I can't believe I have a crush on
a girl with such cliche wishes.

649
00:31:23.280 --> 00:31:25.564
Terrible.

650
00:31:26.480 --> 00:31:28.206
You coming?

651
00:31:33.000 --> 00:31:35.679
<i>The most important
thing in any MRI...</i>

652
00:31:35.680 --> 00:31:38.408
<i>is to lie completely still.</i>

653
00:31:38.840 --> 00:31:42.284
<i>But that day,
it was almost impossible.</i>

654
00:31:55.760 --> 00:31:57.639
Hey, Gus! How are you?

655
00:31:57.640 --> 00:31:59.605
Hi, Mrs. Lancaster.

656
00:32:00.520 --> 00:32:03.159
Hey. Rik Smits jersey?

657
00:32:03.160 --> 00:32:04.639
- Yeah, it is indeed.
- I loved that guy.

658
00:32:04.640 --> 00:32:05.799
I'm Augustus Waters.

659
00:32:05.800 --> 00:32:08.289
Nice to meet you.
I'm Michael.

660
00:32:10.320 --> 00:32:12.359
- It's good to see you.
- Hi, Mrs. Lancaster.

661
00:32:12.360 --> 00:32:15.042
Good to see you.

662
00:32:16.720 --> 00:32:18.479
Hi, Hazel Grace.

663
00:32:18.480 --> 00:32:20.159
Hi.

664
00:32:20.160 --> 00:32:22.762
How would you like to go
on a picnic with me?

665
00:32:23.840 --> 00:32:27.808
Um, I would love to go
on a picnic with you.

666
00:32:29.480 --> 00:32:31.159
Shall we?

667
00:32:31.160 --> 00:32:33.359
No. Let me...

668
00:32:33.360 --> 00:32:37.885
I smell like hospital,
so I should just change.

669
00:32:44.680 --> 00:32:46.159
So, uh...

670
00:32:46.160 --> 00:32:48.799
you're a survivor yourself, huh?

671
00:32:48.800 --> 00:32:49.879
Yeah.

672
00:32:49.880 --> 00:32:52.079
I didn't cut this fellow
off for the hell of it.

673
00:32:54.080 --> 00:32:57.239
Although it does make an
excellent weight-loss strategy.

674
00:32:57.240 --> 00:32:59.365
Legs are very heavy.

675
00:33:00.040 --> 00:33:01.999
How's your health now?

676
00:33:02.000 --> 00:33:04.399
It's great. NEC for 14 months.

677
00:33:04.400 --> 00:33:05.519
- Really?
- Yeah.

678
00:33:05.520 --> 00:33:07.479
- That's fantastic.
- Yeah.

679
00:33:07.480 --> 00:33:09.764
I'm very lucky.

680
00:33:14.520 --> 00:33:17.441
Hey, listen, Gus.

681
00:33:20.040 --> 00:33:24.565
You have to understand,
Hazel's still pretty sick.

682
00:33:25.080 --> 00:33:27.919
And she will be
the rest of her life.

683
00:33:27.920 --> 00:33:29.439
And she's gonna want to
keep up with you.

684
00:33:29.440 --> 00:33:31.519
She's that kind of girl. But
the truth is, her lungs...

685
00:33:31.520 --> 00:33:33.201
Ready, Gus?

686
00:33:33.560 --> 00:33:35.161
Yeah.

687
00:33:36.760 --> 00:33:39.719
All right. See you soon.

688
00:33:39.720 --> 00:33:41.560
All right.

689
00:33:43.840 --> 00:33:45.399
Oh!

690
00:33:45.400 --> 00:33:47.359
Such a beautiful day.

691
00:33:47.360 --> 00:33:48.439
Yeah.

692
00:33:48.440 --> 00:33:50.959
Is this where you take all
of your romantic conquests?

693
00:33:50.960 --> 00:33:52.879
Every last one of them.

694
00:33:52.880 --> 00:33:55.721
That's probably why
I'm still a virgin.

695
00:33:57.040 --> 00:33:59.802
You are not still a virgin.

696
00:34:01.080 --> 00:34:02.239
Are you really?

697
00:34:02.240 --> 00:34:03.639
Let me show you something.

698
00:34:08.240 --> 00:34:10.251
See this circle?

699
00:34:13.800 --> 00:34:15.639
That is a circle of virgins.

700
00:34:15.640 --> 00:34:17.241
Uh-huh.

701
00:34:18.240 --> 00:34:21.411
And this...

702
00:34:23.120 --> 00:34:25.722
is 18-year-old dudes with one leg.

703
00:34:28.920 --> 00:34:31.124
- Oh...
- So, yeah.

704
00:34:34.880 --> 00:34:38.450
<i>Funky Bones</i> by Joep Van Lieshout.

705
00:34:40.840 --> 00:34:42.119
He sounds quite Dutch.

706
00:34:42.120 --> 00:34:43.359
And he is.

707
00:34:43.360 --> 00:34:45.279
Much like Rik Smits.

708
00:34:45.280 --> 00:34:47.609
And tulips.

709
00:34:48.920 --> 00:34:50.399
Sandwich?

710
00:34:50.400 --> 00:34:51.479
Let me guess.

711
00:34:51.480 --> 00:34:54.208
Dutch cheese and tomato.

712
00:34:54.480 --> 00:34:56.684
Sorry, the tomatoes are Mexican.

713
00:34:56.720 --> 00:34:58.890
How dare you!

714
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:01.159
Hmm.

715
00:35:01.160 --> 00:35:03.319
How cool is this?

716
00:35:03.320 --> 00:35:05.839
They're using a skeleton
as a playground.

717
00:35:05.840 --> 00:35:08.010
Think about that.

718
00:35:09.200 --> 00:35:10.919
You do love your symbols.

719
00:35:10.920 --> 00:35:12.919
Speaking of which,
you're probably wondering...

720
00:35:12.920 --> 00:35:15.119
why you're sitting here eating
a bad cheese sandwich...

721
00:35:15.120 --> 00:35:17.559
and drinking orange juice with
a guy in a Rik Smits jersey.

722
00:35:17.560 --> 00:35:19.959
It actually has crossed my mind.

723
00:35:19.960 --> 00:35:22.439
Well, Hazel Grace,
like so many before you...

724
00:35:22.440 --> 00:35:26.089
and listen, I say this with
the utmost of affection...

725
00:35:26.280 --> 00:35:28.079
you used your wish moronically.

726
00:35:28.080 --> 00:35:29.959
Okay, we've been
through this. I was 13.

727
00:35:29.960 --> 00:35:33.079
Hush! I am in the midst
of a grand soliloquy, here.

728
00:35:33.080 --> 00:35:35.159
You were young, impressionable...

729
00:35:35.160 --> 00:35:37.279
the Grim Reaper staring
you right in the face...

730
00:35:37.280 --> 00:35:40.319
and it led you to rush into making
a wish you didn't really want.

731
00:35:40.320 --> 00:35:42.039
But, how could little Hazel Grace,

732
00:35:42.040 --> 00:35:43.599
having never read
<i>An Imperial Affliction...</i>

733
00:35:43.600 --> 00:35:47.239
know that her one true wish was
to visit Mr. Peter Van Houten...

734
00:35:47.240 --> 00:35:49.399
in his Amsterdam exile.

735
00:35:49.400 --> 00:35:52.321
But I didn't save it, so...

736
00:35:54.040 --> 00:35:56.961
It's a good thing I saved mine.

737
00:35:57.960 --> 00:36:00.919
So, you're saying...

738
00:36:00.920 --> 00:36:03.359
I'm not gonna give you my
wish or anything, Hazel.

739
00:36:03.360 --> 00:36:05.039
If that's what you're thinking.

740
00:36:05.040 --> 00:36:06.641
However...

741
00:36:06.800 --> 00:36:12.008
I, too, have an interest in meeting
this Mr. Peter Van Houten...

742
00:36:12.600 --> 00:36:14.079
and I don't really think
it would make much sense...

743
00:36:14.080 --> 00:36:15.239
to meet him without the
girl who introduced me

744
00:36:15.240 --> 00:36:16.439
to the book in the first place...

745
00:36:16.440 --> 00:36:17.919
now, would it?

746
00:36:17.920 --> 00:36:20.879
So I talked to the Genies,
and they're all for it.

747
00:36:20.880 --> 00:36:23.050
We leave in a month.

748
00:36:23.960 --> 00:36:25.279
No.

749
00:36:25.280 --> 00:36:27.086
Mmm-hmm.

750
00:36:28.320 --> 00:36:29.967
Oh, my God.

751
00:36:30.600 --> 00:36:32.119
Oh, my God!

752
00:36:32.120 --> 00:36:34.165
Augustus!

753
00:36:34.240 --> 00:36:36.569
Thank you!

754
00:36:37.560 --> 00:36:40.239
Apparently, they... I don't know
if they do this that often,

755
00:36:40.240 --> 00:36:44.159
but they're willing to
bring me, too, and...

756
00:36:44.160 --> 00:36:45.959
That's incredible.

757
00:36:45.960 --> 00:36:47.719
Hazel, that's so beautiful.

758
00:36:47.720 --> 00:36:48.839
I know.

759
00:36:48.840 --> 00:36:50.679
And a little insane.

760
00:36:50.680 --> 00:36:53.439
Oh, it's super insane. It's...
It's... It's... It's crazy!

761
00:36:53.440 --> 00:36:54.639
- Well...
- It's Amsterdam!

762
00:36:54.640 --> 00:36:55.959
He just met you...

763
00:36:55.960 --> 00:36:58.319
- I know!
- ...and he's giving you his wish.

764
00:36:58.320 --> 00:37:02.719
Well, we're sharing the wish. We're...
I mean, he... He... Yeah. We're sharing it.

765
00:37:02.720 --> 00:37:04.731
That's sweet.

766
00:37:05.400 --> 00:37:06.959
Unless...

767
00:37:06.960 --> 00:37:08.799
What?

768
00:37:08.800 --> 00:37:11.079
Is he your boyfriend? Is that...

769
00:37:11.080 --> 00:37:13.079
Stop it! Do not...
He is not my...

770
00:37:13.080 --> 00:37:14.639
Mom, focus,
we're talking about Amsterdam.

771
00:37:14.640 --> 00:37:17.599
- I like him so much. I...
- Stop.

772
00:37:17.600 --> 00:37:20.079
Pay attention. Please! Can I go?

773
00:37:20.080 --> 00:37:23.889
Right, as your mom,
I love this idea.

774
00:37:26.280 --> 00:37:30.566
And I... I think we
should talk to Dr. Maria.

775
00:37:31.960 --> 00:37:33.559
Okay.

776
00:37:33.560 --> 00:37:34.679
I don't know.

777
00:37:34.680 --> 00:37:36.039
But you said that
the PET scan was encouraging.

778
00:37:36.040 --> 00:37:37.839
Well, the PET scan is encouraging,

779
00:37:37.840 --> 00:37:40.159
but we don't know how long
it will stay that way.

780
00:37:40.160 --> 00:37:43.759
Okay, I'm not seeking political asylum.
It's a few days. It's a vacation!

781
00:37:43.760 --> 00:37:45.319
- It's true.
- What if you get sick?

782
00:37:45.320 --> 00:37:46.839
In a foreign country?

783
00:37:46.840 --> 00:37:49.999
They have doctors in
Amsterdam. And cancer.

784
00:37:50.000 --> 00:37:53.999
Well, not all cancers are alike, and
yours is particularly unusual, Hazel.

785
00:37:54.000 --> 00:37:57.519
The only way I could ever
authorize a trip like this

786
00:37:57.520 --> 00:37:59.759
would be if someone
familiar with your case...

787
00:37:59.760 --> 00:38:01.879
What if my mom came?

788
00:38:01.880 --> 00:38:03.599
Wait, what?

789
00:38:03.600 --> 00:38:05.239
What if you came?

790
00:38:05.240 --> 00:38:08.366
I'm... I'm sure the Genies would
hook it up. They're loaded.

791
00:38:08.880 --> 00:38:10.959
That just might work.

792
00:38:10.960 --> 00:38:13.324
<i>And then this happened.</i>

793
00:39:01.280 --> 00:39:02.639
Hey.

794
00:39:02.640 --> 00:39:04.401
Hi.

795
00:39:04.600 --> 00:39:07.168
- Hey.
- You're okay.

796
00:39:07.800 --> 00:39:09.519
So, what happened?

797
00:39:09.520 --> 00:39:11.639
The usual.

798
00:39:11.640 --> 00:39:14.799
Fluid in the lungs
preventing oxygenation.

799
00:39:14.800 --> 00:39:17.402
They put a tube in.

800
00:39:17.760 --> 00:39:20.399
They drained a liter
and a half last night.

801
00:39:20.400 --> 00:39:22.199
The good news is...

802
00:39:22.200 --> 00:39:24.199
no tumor growth.

803
00:39:24.200 --> 00:39:26.564
No new tumors in your body.

804
00:39:27.080 --> 00:39:28.959
We're so relieved.

805
00:39:28.960 --> 00:39:32.279
This is just a thing, Hazel.

806
00:39:32.280 --> 00:39:35.451
It's a thing we can live with.

807
00:39:40.160 --> 00:39:42.319
Mr. Lancaster.

808
00:39:42.320 --> 00:39:43.679
How's she doing?

809
00:39:43.680 --> 00:39:45.039
Better.

810
00:39:45.040 --> 00:39:47.199
Yeah, thank you.
Much, much better.

811
00:39:47.200 --> 00:39:49.999
Uh, they won't let me in.
It's family only.

812
00:39:50.000 --> 00:39:51.759
Yeah, sorry.

813
00:39:51.760 --> 00:39:53.719
Yeah, I get it.

814
00:39:53.720 --> 00:39:55.526
Um...

815
00:39:55.800 --> 00:39:57.719
Could you just tell her I was here?

816
00:39:57.720 --> 00:39:59.999
Yeah, of course.
Of course I will.

817
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:03.399
- Okay.
- Gus, listen, why don't you go home?

818
00:40:03.400 --> 00:40:05.399
Get some rest.

819
00:40:05.400 --> 00:40:07.604
Okay.

820
00:40:14.160 --> 00:40:16.519
Normally, the tumors start
resisting the treatment...

821
00:40:16.520 --> 00:40:18.839
and that hasn't happened here...

822
00:40:18.840 --> 00:40:20.319
Yet.

823
00:40:20.320 --> 00:40:22.159
On the other hand...

824
00:40:22.160 --> 00:40:25.359
the drug may be
worsening the edema.

825
00:40:25.360 --> 00:40:26.439
The truth is...

826
00:40:26.440 --> 00:40:30.279
very few people have been on
Phalanxifor as long as Hazel has.

827
00:40:30.280 --> 00:40:32.199
We really don't know
the long-term effects.

828
00:40:32.200 --> 00:40:34.559
What we're trying to do is
prevent endothelial growth...

829
00:40:34.560 --> 00:40:40.199
which, when overexpressed, can
contribute to disease, decay...

830
00:40:40.200 --> 00:40:41.719
vascular inhibition...

831
00:40:41.720 --> 00:40:44.279
and the spread of the tumors

832
00:40:44.280 --> 00:40:46.879
we're working so hard to eradicate.

833
00:40:46.880 --> 00:40:49.599
The survival rate of patients
with severe endothelial growth...

834
00:40:49.600 --> 00:40:53.886
decreases exponentially the
more the condition advances.

835
00:40:54.680 --> 00:40:57.487
You can let go, sweetie.

836
00:40:57.760 --> 00:40:59.566
Don't be afraid.

837
00:41:01.080 --> 00:41:03.205
Oh, my God.

838
00:41:05.240 --> 00:41:07.919
I'm not gonna be a mom anymore.

839
00:41:13.520 --> 00:41:15.121
I have a question.

840
00:41:16.080 --> 00:41:17.879
Yes, Hazel?

841
00:41:17.880 --> 00:41:19.639
Can I still go to Amsterdam?

842
00:41:19.640 --> 00:41:22.865
- That would not be wise at this juncture.
- Why not?

843
00:41:22.866 --> 00:41:24.759
Is there any way we can
make that trip happen?

844
00:41:24.760 --> 00:41:27.559
It would increase some risks.

845
00:41:27.560 --> 00:41:29.239
But so does going to the mall.

846
00:41:29.240 --> 00:41:30.959
Yes, but an airplane?

847
00:41:30.960 --> 00:41:32.919
But they have oxygen on airplanes.

848
00:41:32.920 --> 00:41:34.199
You're stage four.

849
00:41:34.200 --> 00:41:37.087
This is an opportunity
that I may never get again.

850
00:41:37.240 --> 00:41:38.399
Ever.

851
00:41:38.400 --> 00:41:40.319
If the medication is working, I
don't understand why I can't...

852
00:41:40.320 --> 00:41:41.599
Perhaps there's a scenario...

853
00:41:41.600 --> 00:41:43.247
No.

854
00:41:43.400 --> 00:41:46.599
I don't know any other
way to say this, Hazel.

855
00:41:46.600 --> 00:41:48.281
You're just too sick.

856
00:41:48.960 --> 00:41:51.289
I'm sorry.

857
00:42:34.120 --> 00:42:35.799
Hello?

858
00:42:35.800 --> 00:42:38.289
Yeah, just a sec.

859
00:42:38.600 --> 00:42:42.090
Hi. Gus... again.

860
00:42:44.040 --> 00:42:46.404
Sorry, she's asleep.

861
00:42:46.440 --> 00:42:48.007
Yeah. Uh, okay.

862
00:42:48.360 --> 00:42:50.849
All right. Bye-bye.

863
00:42:55.320 --> 00:42:57.160
I know what you're thinking.

864
00:42:58.400 --> 00:43:00.439
It's not fair to him.

865
00:43:00.440 --> 00:43:02.041
It's not.

866
00:43:02.080 --> 00:43:04.079
He doesn't need this in his life.

867
00:43:04.080 --> 00:43:05.599
Nobody does.

868
00:43:05.600 --> 00:43:07.929
A lot more trouble than it's worth.

869
00:43:07.960 --> 00:43:09.971
No, you're right.

870
00:43:10.520 --> 00:43:12.879
Your mom and I were just
saying the same thing.

871
00:43:12.880 --> 00:43:16.324
I mean, it could be time we
tossed you out on the street.

872
00:43:16.640 --> 00:43:20.483
Drop you off in an orphanage
somewhere, make you their problem.

873
00:43:20.840 --> 00:43:22.487
I'm serious.

874
00:43:23.480 --> 00:43:26.287
We're not sentimental people.

875
00:44:19.640 --> 00:44:22.083
<i>Hazel Grace.</i>

876
00:44:23.280 --> 00:44:25.439
Hi, Augustus.

877
00:44:25.440 --> 00:44:28.407
<i>Are you okay?</i>

878
00:44:36.040 --> 00:44:37.926
No.

879
00:44:38.720 --> 00:44:41.243
<i>What's the matter?</i>

880
00:44:41.680 --> 00:44:43.279
<i>Talk to me.</i>

881
00:44:44.600 --> 00:44:46.884
I don't know.

882
00:44:49.320 --> 00:44:51.729
Everything.

883
00:44:57.560 --> 00:45:00.879
I want to go to Amsterdam, Gus.

884
00:45:00.880 --> 00:45:02.199
And I want Van Houten to tell us

885
00:45:02.200 --> 00:45:04.882
what happens after his book.

886
00:45:09.960 --> 00:45:13.643
I also don't really want
this particular life.

887
00:45:18.480 --> 00:45:19.639
I mean, it's really just the sky.

888
00:45:19.640 --> 00:45:20.839
The sky is making me sad.

889
00:45:20.840 --> 00:45:23.799
And there's this pathetic
old swing set...

890
00:45:23.800 --> 00:45:27.961
that my dad built for me
when I was a kid and...

891
00:45:30.920 --> 00:45:33.399
It's just everything, I guess.

892
00:45:33.400 --> 00:45:38.642
<i>Well, I demand to see
this swing set of tears.</i>

893
00:45:40.320 --> 00:45:41.839
I do see your point.

894
00:45:41.840 --> 00:45:44.841
This is one sad swing set.

895
00:45:49.000 --> 00:45:51.762
Hazel Grace, I hope you realize...

896
00:45:52.440 --> 00:45:53.799
that you trying to
keep your distance from me

897
00:45:53.800 --> 00:45:57.119
in no way lessens
my affection for you.

898
00:45:57.120 --> 00:46:01.359
All your efforts to keep me
from you are gonna fail.

899
00:46:01.360 --> 00:46:03.450
Look. Uh...

900
00:46:04.680 --> 00:46:06.691
I like you.

901
00:46:07.560 --> 00:46:10.759
And I like hanging out
with you and everything...

902
00:46:10.760 --> 00:46:14.330
but I can't let this
go on any further.

903
00:46:15.000 --> 00:46:16.479
Why not?

904
00:46:16.480 --> 00:46:18.079
Because I don't want to hurt you.

905
00:46:18.080 --> 00:46:19.559
I wouldn't mind.

906
00:46:19.560 --> 00:46:21.159
- No, you don't understand.
- I do understand.

907
00:46:21.160 --> 00:46:22.199
You don't understand.

908
00:46:22.200 --> 00:46:23.639
I know what you're trying to say.

909
00:46:23.640 --> 00:46:25.959
Hazel, I'm saying I wouldn't mind.

910
00:46:25.960 --> 00:46:28.759
It'd be a privilege to have
my heart broken by you.

911
00:46:28.760 --> 00:46:31.328
Gus, I'm a grenade.

912
00:46:35.560 --> 00:46:36.839
One day I'm gonna explode...

913
00:46:36.840 --> 00:46:39.807
and I'm gonna obliterate
everything in my wake and...

914
00:46:40.720 --> 00:46:43.039
I don't know, I feel like
it's my responsibility...

915
00:46:43.040 --> 00:46:45.483
to minimize the casualties.

916
00:46:48.080 --> 00:46:50.409
A grenade?

917
00:46:51.880 --> 00:46:54.960
I mean, that's why I
don't have a hamster.

918
00:47:06.600 --> 00:47:10.010
Well, we gotta do something
about this frickin' swing set.

919
00:47:13.600 --> 00:47:15.201
Okay.

920
00:47:15.640 --> 00:47:19.130
"Swing set needs home."

921
00:47:24.840 --> 00:47:29.650
"Desperately lonely swing set

922
00:47:30.080 --> 00:47:33.729
"needs loving home."

923
00:47:42.440 --> 00:47:47.319
"Lonely, vaguely
pedophilia swing set

924
00:47:47.320 --> 00:47:51.686
"seeks the butts of children."

925
00:47:54.360 --> 00:47:55.679
No. No.

926
00:47:55.680 --> 00:47:57.119
No? No?

927
00:47:57.120 --> 00:47:59.563
I like it.

928
00:47:59.880 --> 00:48:01.720
That's why.

929
00:48:02.600 --> 00:48:06.363
In case you're wondering, that's
why I like you, Hazel Grace.

930
00:48:06.480 --> 00:48:08.999
You're just so busy
being you, you have

931
00:48:09.000 --> 00:48:12.080
no idea how utterly
unprecedented you are.

932
00:48:16.200 --> 00:48:17.799
You can't say stuff like that.

933
00:48:17.800 --> 00:48:20.129
What? That's how I
speak to all my friends.

934
00:48:21.280 --> 00:48:24.360
I know, I know. Friends.

935
00:48:25.600 --> 00:48:28.282
Friends.

936
00:48:28.400 --> 00:48:30.119
Friends!

937
00:48:30.120 --> 00:48:32.484
You can't do that!

938
00:49:26.120 --> 00:49:30.770
"Dear Hazel, received word via
the Genies that you will...

939
00:49:31.720 --> 00:49:33.399
"you'll be visiting us
with Augustus Waters

940
00:49:33.400 --> 00:49:35.923
"and your mother on the fourth."

941
00:49:38.280 --> 00:49:39.839
Mom?

942
00:49:39.840 --> 00:49:41.279
Yeah?

943
00:49:41.280 --> 00:49:43.211
Mom!

944
00:49:44.160 --> 00:49:45.959
- What's wrong?
- Sorry.

945
00:49:45.960 --> 00:49:47.759
No, I was just taking a bath.

946
00:49:47.760 --> 00:49:51.359
Did you email the Genies to tell
them that the trip was off?

947
00:49:51.360 --> 00:49:53.319
Because Van Houten's
assistant just emailed me...

948
00:49:53.320 --> 00:49:56.730
and she said that she
thinks we're still coming.

949
00:49:58.920 --> 00:50:00.806
What?

950
00:50:01.200 --> 00:50:04.719
I was supposed to tell
you with your dad.

951
00:50:04.720 --> 00:50:05.959
Mom.

952
00:50:05.960 --> 00:50:08.244
We're going to Amsterdam.

953
00:50:08.480 --> 00:50:11.439
You're se...
We're going to Amsterdam?

954
00:50:11.440 --> 00:50:13.159
We're going to Amsterdam.

955
00:50:13.160 --> 00:50:15.559
We figured the whole
thing out. We're going.

956
00:50:15.560 --> 00:50:18.039
Doctor Maria, everybody knows.

957
00:50:18.040 --> 00:50:20.959
- But only for three days, not six.
- Oh, my God.

958
00:50:20.960 --> 00:50:24.279
But everything. An
oncologist is set there.

959
00:50:24.280 --> 00:50:26.199
Everything.
We're just so good.

960
00:50:26.200 --> 00:50:28.006
I love you.

961
00:50:28.400 --> 00:50:31.287
I love you so much.

962
00:50:31.560 --> 00:50:34.208
I love you.

963
00:50:41.320 --> 00:50:43.039
- Here, sit down.
- We're going to Amsterdam.

964
00:50:43.040 --> 00:50:45.768
We're going to Amsterdam.

965
00:50:51.920 --> 00:50:53.479
- We're going to Amsterdam.
- You can come talk to me.

966
00:50:53.480 --> 00:50:55.081
You've got a phone call to make.

967
00:50:57.680 --> 00:51:00.089
Call him!

968
00:51:06.520 --> 00:51:10.079
Okay, lungs, you keep your
shit together for one week.

969
00:51:10.080 --> 00:51:13.365
You got it?
One more week.

970
00:51:49.880 --> 00:51:51.039
Oh. Oh, wait, the food.

971
00:51:51.040 --> 00:51:52.641
What did you forget?

972
00:51:53.520 --> 00:51:54.599
Do you have my passport?

973
00:51:54.600 --> 00:51:56.725
Yeah, I've got it.

974
00:52:07.480 --> 00:52:08.999
It's like I said to the Genies...

975
00:52:09.000 --> 00:52:12.365
"I travel in style,
or I don't travel at all."

976
00:52:13.480 --> 00:52:14.719
Mom, we're going to Amsterdam!

977
00:52:14.720 --> 00:52:17.846
We are going to
Amsterdam, right now.

978
00:52:17.920 --> 00:52:20.124
Hello, Lancasters.

979
00:52:21.080 --> 00:52:24.126
Gus. Hey. Nice to see you.

980
00:52:24.360 --> 00:52:25.559
I'll take that, sir.

981
00:52:25.560 --> 00:52:27.889
Gus, you're so inventive!

982
00:52:28.080 --> 00:52:29.681
Okay, Hazel Grace?

983
00:52:29.760 --> 00:52:32.169
Okay!

984
00:52:41.200 --> 00:52:42.319
What's in your nose?

985
00:52:42.320 --> 00:52:43.399
Jackie!

986
00:52:43.400 --> 00:52:44.799
I'm really sorry about that.

987
00:52:44.800 --> 00:52:46.239
No, it's totally fine.

988
00:52:46.240 --> 00:52:49.119
It's called a "cannula."
And it helps me breathe.

989
00:52:49.120 --> 00:52:51.079
See this little friend right here?

990
00:52:51.080 --> 00:52:53.599
He feeds oxygen through your tube.

991
00:52:53.600 --> 00:52:55.239
Will it help me breath, too?

992
00:52:55.240 --> 00:52:58.491
Maybe. Do you want to try it?

993
00:52:58.920 --> 00:53:00.521
Okay.

994
00:53:03.640 --> 00:53:05.241
Come here.

995
00:53:07.200 --> 00:53:08.919
There ya go.

996
00:53:08.920 --> 00:53:10.885
It tickles!

997
00:53:11.400 --> 00:53:14.446
Wow, yeah, that's something.

998
00:53:14.520 --> 00:53:16.479
I think I'm breathing better.

999
00:53:16.480 --> 00:53:18.199
I would love to give it to you,

1000
00:53:18.200 --> 00:53:19.959
but I kind of could use the help.

1001
00:53:19.960 --> 00:53:22.079
- Thanks for letting me try it.
- You're welcome.

1002
00:53:22.080 --> 00:53:23.639
All right, Jackie, let's go.

1003
00:53:23.640 --> 00:53:25.279
- Thank you. Take care.
- Bye.

1004
00:53:25.280 --> 00:53:28.959
<i>Flight 1721 is now prepared to
begin boarding at gate 46...</i>

1005
00:53:28.960 --> 00:53:30.959
- I think that's us.
- That's us.

1006
00:53:30.960 --> 00:53:32.239
We are going to Amsterdam!

1007
00:53:32.240 --> 00:53:33.966
Oh, my God.

1008
00:53:34.520 --> 00:53:36.531
Come on, help me.

1009
00:53:37.800 --> 00:53:39.159
- What, are they wet?
- Wet hands.

1010
00:53:39.160 --> 00:53:41.808
- I'm sorry about that.
- Gross! Get outta here! Stop it!

1011
00:53:50.000 --> 00:53:52.239
Have you never been
on a plane before?

1012
00:53:52.240 --> 00:53:53.841
No.

1013
00:53:54.120 --> 00:53:56.370
It's exciting.

1014
00:54:02.000 --> 00:54:03.639
- Sir?
- Uh-huh?

1015
00:54:03.640 --> 00:54:05.079
There's no smoking on this plane.

1016
00:54:05.080 --> 00:54:06.399
Or any plane.

1017
00:54:06.400 --> 00:54:07.999
I don't smoke.

1018
00:54:08.000 --> 00:54:09.839
Yeah, it's just a metaphor.

1019
00:54:09.840 --> 00:54:11.119
He puts the killing thing
in his mouth...

1020
00:54:11.120 --> 00:54:12.759
but he doesn't actually give
it the power to kill him.

1021
00:54:12.760 --> 00:54:16.250
Well, that metaphor, it's
prohibited on today's flight.

1022
00:54:16.320 --> 00:54:18.900
<i>Flight attendants, prepare
for take off, please.</i>

1023
00:54:19.000 --> 00:54:20.647
Thanks.

1024
00:54:21.920 --> 00:54:23.681
Okay?

1025
00:54:24.160 --> 00:54:27.079
Gus, this is what it's like
to drive in a car with you.

1026
00:54:27.080 --> 00:54:29.170
Ha-ha-ha-ha...

1027
00:54:30.480 --> 00:54:32.127
Oh...

1028
00:54:39.040 --> 00:54:40.199
Oh!

1029
00:54:40.200 --> 00:54:43.559
Oh, my God, we're flying.

1030
00:54:43.560 --> 00:54:45.759
We're flying!

1031
00:54:45.760 --> 00:54:46.959
Look at the ground!

1032
00:54:46.960 --> 00:54:48.439
Look.

1033
00:54:48.440 --> 00:54:52.283
Nothing has ever looked like
this in all of human history!

1034
00:54:52.720 --> 00:54:55.163
Look at the cars.
They're like...

1035
00:54:56.520 --> 00:54:58.479
You two are so adorable.

1036
00:54:58.480 --> 00:55:00.439
We're just friends.

1037
00:55:00.440 --> 00:55:02.849
Well, she is, I'm not.

1038
00:55:04.120 --> 00:55:05.279
Oh, my!

1039
00:55:05.280 --> 00:55:07.530
Whoa!

1040
00:55:21.960 --> 00:55:24.559
<i>Get away from her, you bitch!</i>

1041
00:55:49.840 --> 00:55:52.329
Look at this, Hazel.

1042
00:55:52.920 --> 00:55:54.965
This is so crazy.

1043
00:56:25.000 --> 00:56:26.719
Whoa.

1044
00:56:26.720 --> 00:56:27.879
What?

1045
00:56:27.880 --> 00:56:29.999
Look at the stained glass.

1046
00:56:30.000 --> 00:56:32.199
It's amazing.

1047
00:56:32.200 --> 00:56:34.450
Oh, I'm gonna check us in.

1048
00:56:41.640 --> 00:56:43.439
We better get you dressed...

1049
00:56:43.440 --> 00:56:45.341
because you have reservations
for two tonight,

1050
00:56:46.120 --> 00:56:49.159
- for dinner at Oranjee.
- Oh.

1051
00:56:49.160 --> 00:56:53.759
And it says, "Enjoy.
Mr. Peter Van Houten."

1052
00:56:53.760 --> 00:56:56.799
So, I looked it up
and it sounds amazing.

1053
00:56:56.800 --> 00:57:01.450
The guide book says it's
fancy and very romantic.

1054
00:57:02.000 --> 00:57:04.359
Right. Fancy...

1055
00:57:04.360 --> 00:57:06.639
Oh, God.

1056
00:57:06.640 --> 00:57:09.447
But, okay, what...

1057
00:57:10.360 --> 00:57:12.724
will you wear?

1058
00:57:13.400 --> 00:57:15.319
Is that for me?

1059
00:57:21.480 --> 00:57:23.519
Oh, my God.
It's so beautiful.

1060
00:57:23.520 --> 00:57:25.724
I'm just saying.

1061
00:57:26.240 --> 00:57:27.999
You're just saying?

1062
00:57:28.000 --> 00:57:30.079
What, you're saying
that you're totally fine...

1063
00:57:30.080 --> 00:57:33.559
with your teenage daughter running
free with an older boy...

1064
00:57:33.560 --> 00:57:35.159
in a city that's famous
for its vice

1065
00:57:35.160 --> 00:57:37.364
and debauchery is
totally fine with you?

1066
00:57:38.080 --> 00:57:41.239
Yeah, that's pretty much
exactly what I'm saying.

1067
00:57:49.440 --> 00:57:51.039
Gus!

1068
00:57:51.040 --> 00:57:54.079
Oh, you look so handsome!

1069
00:57:54.080 --> 00:57:56.319
- Thank you, ma'am.
- Wow.

1070
00:57:56.320 --> 00:57:58.319
Hazel, Gus is here...

1071
00:57:58.320 --> 00:58:00.968
looking incredible!

1072
00:58:01.680 --> 00:58:06.126
I hear this restaurant
is unbelievable.

1073
00:58:16.040 --> 00:58:17.679
Wow.

1074
00:58:17.680 --> 00:58:19.441
What?

1075
00:58:22.480 --> 00:58:24.605
You look gorgeous.

1076
00:58:27.840 --> 00:58:29.566
Thanks.

1077
00:58:39.560 --> 00:58:41.446
Whoa!

1078
00:58:50.880 --> 00:58:52.720
Wow.

1079
00:59:10.680 --> 00:59:12.486
This is it.

1080
00:59:13.240 --> 00:59:14.799
Oranjee. Yeah, this is it.

1081
00:59:14.800 --> 00:59:16.481
Oh, yeah.

1082
00:59:23.680 --> 00:59:26.647
Your table, Mr. and Mrs. Waters.

1083
00:59:26.920 --> 00:59:28.760
Thank you.

1084
00:59:30.920 --> 00:59:32.119
Thanks, Gus.

1085
00:59:32.120 --> 00:59:34.131
You are very welcome.

1086
00:59:38.240 --> 00:59:40.839
The champagne is our gift. Enjoy.

1087
00:59:40.840 --> 00:59:42.359
Thank you.

1088
00:59:42.360 --> 00:59:44.246
Good evening.

1089
00:59:55.760 --> 00:59:57.361
<i>Voilà.</i>

1090
00:59:59.040 --> 01:00:02.086
- Okay?
- Okay.

1091
01:00:10.840 --> 01:00:12.441
Whoa.

1092
01:00:14.360 --> 01:00:16.279
That is amazing.

1093
01:00:16.280 --> 01:00:17.679
Do you know what Dom Pérignon said

1094
01:00:17.680 --> 01:00:20.203
after he invented champagne?

1095
01:00:20.440 --> 01:00:23.879
"Come quickly," he said.
"I'm tasting the stars."

1096
01:00:25.840 --> 01:00:27.439
Welcome to Oranjee.

1097
01:00:27.440 --> 01:00:31.567
Would you like a menu, or will
you have the chef's choice?

1098
01:00:31.920 --> 01:00:34.439
Chef's choice sounds wonderful.

1099
01:00:34.440 --> 01:00:36.759
- Mmm.
- And, sir, um...

1100
01:00:36.760 --> 01:00:40.719
something tells me we're gonna
need a little bit more of this.

1101
01:00:40.720 --> 01:00:42.879
We have bottled all the
stars for you this evening,

1102
01:00:42.880 --> 01:00:44.970
my young friends.

1103
01:00:51.080 --> 01:00:53.489
- Ooh!
- I think that's ours.

1104
01:00:54.040 --> 01:00:55.959
Dragon carrot risotto for the lady.

1105
01:00:55.960 --> 01:00:57.971
Thank you.

1106
01:00:58.960 --> 01:01:00.607
And for the gentleman.

1107
01:01:00.640 --> 01:01:03.083
- Thank you.
- Enjoy.

1108
01:01:09.200 --> 01:01:11.006
Mmm.

1109
01:01:12.920 --> 01:01:16.679
I want this dragon carrot
risotto to become a person...

1110
01:01:16.680 --> 01:01:18.919
so that I can take it
to Vegas and marry it.

1111
01:01:25.560 --> 01:01:26.959
I like your suit.

1112
01:01:26.960 --> 01:01:29.359
Thank you. It's the first
time I've ever worn it.

1113
01:01:29.360 --> 01:01:30.959
That's not the suit
you wear to funerals?

1114
01:01:30.960 --> 01:01:32.119
No.

1115
01:01:32.120 --> 01:01:34.370
That one is not nearly this nice.

1116
01:01:34.800 --> 01:01:36.679
When I first got sick...

1117
01:01:36.680 --> 01:01:40.011
they told me I had an 85 percent
chance of being cancer-free.

1118
01:01:40.440 --> 01:01:41.839
Great odds.

1119
01:01:41.840 --> 01:01:44.799
But that meant a year of
torture, the loss of my leg...

1120
01:01:44.800 --> 01:01:47.721
and, still, a 15 percent
chance it might fail.

1121
01:01:48.000 --> 01:01:49.439
Just before the surgery...

1122
01:01:49.440 --> 01:01:54.090
I asked my parents if I could
buy a really nice suit.

1123
01:01:54.120 --> 01:01:55.679
So, it's your death suit.

1124
01:01:55.680 --> 01:01:56.959
That's what it is.

1125
01:01:56.960 --> 01:01:59.879
I have one of those. I got it
for my fifteenth birthday.

1126
01:01:59.880 --> 01:02:01.720
A dress.

1127
01:02:01.760 --> 01:02:05.921
I don't necessarily think I'd
wear it on a date, though.

1128
01:02:07.320 --> 01:02:09.206
So, we're on a date?

1129
01:02:11.240 --> 01:02:13.639
Hey, you watch it.

1130
01:02:14.720 --> 01:02:17.243
We are Mr. and Mrs. Waters.

1131
01:02:17.520 --> 01:02:18.919
Oh. That's just because
she can't speak English.

1132
01:02:18.920 --> 01:02:22.439
We should be, though, if they ask.
You know?

1133
01:02:22.440 --> 01:02:23.639
Remember what you said about Vegas?

1134
01:02:23.640 --> 01:02:24.879
Yeah.

1135
01:02:24.880 --> 01:02:27.369
Do you think I could
join in on that deal?

1136
01:02:27.680 --> 01:02:29.079
God?

1137
01:02:29.080 --> 01:02:30.806
Maybe.

1138
01:02:31.080 --> 01:02:32.159
How about angels?

1139
01:02:32.160 --> 01:02:33.239
Mmm, no.

1140
01:02:33.240 --> 01:02:34.679
- Afterlife?
- Mmm...

1141
01:02:34.680 --> 01:02:35.799
No.

1142
01:02:35.800 --> 01:02:37.359
Well, maybe. I don't know.

1143
01:02:37.360 --> 01:02:39.239
I guess I wouldn't go
as far as to say "no"...

1144
01:02:39.240 --> 01:02:42.411
but I would like some evidence.

1145
01:02:43.160 --> 01:02:44.919
What about you?

1146
01:02:44.920 --> 01:02:46.959
- Absolutely.
- Really?

1147
01:02:46.960 --> 01:02:49.759
I mean, not like a heaven where
you ride on a unicorn all day...

1148
01:02:49.760 --> 01:02:51.999
and live in a mansion
made of clouds...

1149
01:02:52.000 --> 01:02:55.759
but yes, I definitely
believe in something.

1150
01:02:55.760 --> 01:02:57.599
I mean, otherwise...

1151
01:02:57.600 --> 01:02:59.884
what's the point?

1152
01:03:00.920 --> 01:03:03.399
Maybe there is no point.

1153
01:03:03.400 --> 01:03:05.525
I won't accept that.

1154
01:03:10.760 --> 01:03:13.522
I am in love with you.

1155
01:03:16.080 --> 01:03:17.966
You heard me.

1156
01:03:22.360 --> 01:03:23.479
Augustus...

1157
01:03:23.480 --> 01:03:25.525
I am in love with you.

1158
01:03:25.720 --> 01:03:27.559
And I know that love is just
a shout into the void...

1159
01:03:27.560 --> 01:03:29.359
and that oblivion is inevitable.

1160
01:03:29.360 --> 01:03:30.999
And that we're all doomed...

1161
01:03:31.000 --> 01:03:34.331
and that one day...

1162
01:03:34.400 --> 01:03:37.890
all of our labors
will be returned to dust.

1163
01:03:39.200 --> 01:03:41.279
And I know that
the sun will swallow

1164
01:03:41.280 --> 01:03:43.839
the only Earth we will ever have.

1165
01:03:43.840 --> 01:03:46.169
And I am in love with you.

1166
01:03:49.360 --> 01:03:51.086
Sorry.

1167
01:04:02.000 --> 01:04:03.761
More stars?

1168
01:04:04.400 --> 01:04:05.559
No, thank you.

1169
01:04:05.560 --> 01:04:07.799
I think we'll just have the check.

1170
01:04:07.800 --> 01:04:08.999
No, sir.

1171
01:04:09.000 --> 01:04:12.171
Your meal has been paid
by Mr. Van Houten.

1172
01:04:16.920 --> 01:04:18.439
What?

1173
01:05:08.000 --> 01:05:11.639
I don't really get that shirt.

1174
01:05:11.640 --> 01:05:13.119
Mmm.

1175
01:05:13.120 --> 01:05:15.399
But Van Houten will get it.

1176
01:05:15.400 --> 01:05:19.119
There are, like, fifty Magritte
references in <i>An Imperial Affliction.</i>

1177
01:05:19.120 --> 01:05:21.679
"This is not a pipe."

1178
01:05:21.680 --> 01:05:22.999
But it is a pipe.

1179
01:05:23.000 --> 01:05:24.886
But it's not.

1180
01:05:25.240 --> 01:05:26.839
It is a drawing of a pipe.

1181
01:05:26.840 --> 01:05:28.399
See?

1182
01:05:28.400 --> 01:05:30.399
A drawing of a thing
is not the thing itself.

1183
01:05:30.400 --> 01:05:34.719
Nor is a T-shirt of a drawing
of a thing, the thing itself.

1184
01:05:34.720 --> 01:05:35.879
Hey, you.

1185
01:05:35.880 --> 01:05:37.799
When did you get so grown up?

1186
01:05:42.720 --> 01:05:44.765
Who's ready for some answers?

1187
01:05:45.080 --> 01:05:47.045
Me!

1188
01:06:10.320 --> 01:06:11.879
This is it.

1189
01:06:11.880 --> 01:06:14.687
I'm so excited,
I can barely breathe.

1190
01:06:14.800 --> 01:06:16.925
As opposed to normal?

1191
01:06:17.040 --> 01:06:19.483
Get out of here.

1192
01:06:24.800 --> 01:06:27.164
Lidewij?

1193
01:06:29.200 --> 01:06:31.245
- Hi!
- Hi, I'm Augustus.

1194
01:06:32.080 --> 01:06:34.519
- Lidewij.
- Hazel.

1195
01:06:34.520 --> 01:06:35.799
Please, come in.

1196
01:06:35.800 --> 01:06:37.401
Thank you.

1197
01:06:37.480 --> 01:06:39.199
Peter! They're here!

1198
01:06:39.200 --> 01:06:41.848
Who the hell is "they," Lidewij?

1199
01:06:42.000 --> 01:06:45.399
They are Augustus and Hazel...

1200
01:06:45.400 --> 01:06:47.843
the young fans with whom
you've been corresponding.

1201
01:06:48.120 --> 01:06:49.559
The Americans?

1202
01:06:49.560 --> 01:06:51.650
You invited them.

1203
01:06:52.200 --> 01:06:53.839
Please, come in.

1204
01:06:53.840 --> 01:06:56.283
You know why I left
America, Lidewij.

1205
01:06:57.240 --> 01:07:00.366
To never have to
encounter Americans.

1206
01:07:00.760 --> 01:07:02.919
You're American.

1207
01:07:02.920 --> 01:07:04.399
Incurably so.

1208
01:07:04.400 --> 01:07:06.411
Get rid of them.

1209
01:07:06.880 --> 01:07:09.199
I will not do this, Peter.

1210
01:07:09.200 --> 01:07:11.279
Please, be nice.

1211
01:07:11.280 --> 01:07:13.484
Come in, please.

1212
01:07:20.960 --> 01:07:24.404
Sorry, let me clear this for you.

1213
01:07:27.640 --> 01:07:29.526
Thank you.

1214
01:07:33.120 --> 01:07:36.199
Which of you is Augustus Waters?

1215
01:07:36.200 --> 01:07:37.847
I am.

1216
01:07:38.960 --> 01:07:40.971
And that's Hazel.

1217
01:07:45.000 --> 01:07:47.039
Mr. Van Houten, thank you so
much for writing back to us.

1218
01:07:47.040 --> 01:07:48.839
Clearly an error in judgment.

1219
01:07:48.840 --> 01:07:51.359
Yours are the first missives
to which I've replied,

1220
01:07:51.360 --> 01:07:52.719
and look where it got me.

1221
01:07:52.720 --> 01:07:54.039
Scotch?

1222
01:07:54.040 --> 01:07:55.559
Uh...

1223
01:07:55.560 --> 01:07:57.241
No, thank you.

1224
01:07:57.840 --> 01:07:59.479
Just me, then, Lidewij.

1225
01:07:59.480 --> 01:08:02.048
Another scotch and soda, please.

1226
01:08:04.400 --> 01:08:06.639
Perhaps some
breakfast first, Peter?

1227
01:08:06.640 --> 01:08:08.810
She thinks I have
a drinking problem.

1228
01:08:10.000 --> 01:08:12.319
I also think the Earth is round.

1229
01:08:18.400 --> 01:08:21.319
So, you like my book.

1230
01:08:21.320 --> 01:08:22.479
- We love your book.
- Yeah.

1231
01:08:22.480 --> 01:08:24.199
We love it.

1232
01:08:24.200 --> 01:08:25.519
Augustus...

1233
01:08:25.520 --> 01:08:28.639
He made his wish meeting
you so that we could talk.

1234
01:08:28.640 --> 01:08:31.119
- No pressure.
- Yeah.

1235
01:08:31.120 --> 01:08:34.644
Did you dress like her on purpose?

1236
01:08:35.760 --> 01:08:37.441
Kind of.

1237
01:08:37.480 --> 01:08:40.359
And, incidentally, sir,
we both really

1238
01:08:40.360 --> 01:08:42.279
wanted to thank you
for dinner last night.

1239
01:08:42.280 --> 01:08:43.999
And for the champagne.

1240
01:08:44.000 --> 01:08:45.279
It was amazing.

1241
01:08:45.280 --> 01:08:46.759
It was magical.

1242
01:08:46.760 --> 01:08:49.159
We bought them dinner last night?

1243
01:08:49.160 --> 01:08:51.489
It was our pleasure.

1244
01:08:55.200 --> 01:08:56.801
You've come a long way.

1245
01:08:58.360 --> 01:09:00.639
What can I do for you?

1246
01:09:00.640 --> 01:09:02.519
We have some questions...

1247
01:09:02.520 --> 01:09:05.799
obviously, about what happens
at the end of your book.

1248
01:09:05.800 --> 01:09:08.359
Uh, specifically to those
who Anna leaves behind.

1249
01:09:08.360 --> 01:09:10.599
Like her mom,
the Dutch Tulip Man...

1250
01:09:10.600 --> 01:09:13.680
How familiar are you
with Swedish hip-hop?

1251
01:09:14.680 --> 01:09:16.479
I would say, limited.

1252
01:09:16.480 --> 01:09:21.608
Uh, Lidewij, play
Bomfalleralla immediately.

1253
01:09:22.960 --> 01:09:24.925
Okay.

1254
01:10:18.400 --> 01:10:19.799
We don't speak Swedish, sir.

1255
01:10:19.800 --> 01:10:21.239
Who the hell speaks Swedish?

1256
01:10:21.240 --> 01:10:24.679
The important thing is not what
nonsense the voices are saying...

1257
01:10:24.680 --> 01:10:27.442
but what the voices are feeling.

1258
01:10:39.400 --> 01:10:41.039
Are you messing with us?

1259
01:10:41.040 --> 01:10:44.086
Like, is this some
sort of performance?

1260
01:10:44.400 --> 01:10:46.126
Gus, sit down.

1261
01:10:54.840 --> 01:10:56.399
All right, so at the end
of the book, Anna's...

1262
01:10:56.400 --> 01:10:59.606
Let's imagine
you're racing a tortoise.

1263
01:10:59.640 --> 01:11:02.719
The tortoise has
a ten-yard head start.

1264
01:11:02.720 --> 01:11:04.679
In the time it takes you
to run ten yards...

1265
01:11:04.680 --> 01:11:08.119
the tortoise has moved maybe
one yard, and so on, forever.

1266
01:11:08.120 --> 01:11:09.439
You're faster than the tortoise,

1267
01:11:09.440 --> 01:11:11.799
but you can never
catch him, you see?

1268
01:11:11.800 --> 01:11:14.439
You can only decrease his lead.

1269
01:11:14.440 --> 01:11:17.119
Now, certainly, you can
run past the tortoise...

1270
01:11:17.120 --> 01:11:20.879
as long as you don't contemplate
the mechanics involved.

1271
01:11:20.880 --> 01:11:23.159
But the question of "how?"

1272
01:11:23.160 --> 01:11:25.119
turns out to be so complicated...

1273
01:11:25.120 --> 01:11:27.159
that no one really solved it...

1274
01:11:27.160 --> 01:11:30.719
until Cantor's proof
that some infinities

1275
01:11:30.720 --> 01:11:32.845
are bigger than other infinities.

1276
01:11:35.560 --> 01:11:39.369
I assume that answers
your question.

1277
01:11:41.400 --> 01:11:43.759
Hazel, I'm sorry. I have
no idea what's going on.

1278
01:11:43.760 --> 01:11:47.603
Yet you seemed so intelligent
in print, Mr. Waters.

1279
01:11:47.760 --> 01:11:50.328
Has the cancer found its
way into your brain?

1280
01:11:51.600 --> 01:11:53.201
Peter.

1281
01:11:55.280 --> 01:11:57.399
Can we, for one second,
just focus on Anna?

1282
01:11:57.400 --> 01:11:59.039
Please?

1283
01:11:59.040 --> 01:12:00.719
I understand that the story ends

1284
01:12:00.720 --> 01:12:01.959
in the middle of a sentence...

1285
01:12:01.960 --> 01:12:05.679
because she dies, or that she
becomes too sick to continue...

1286
01:12:05.680 --> 01:12:07.239
I am not interested in
talking about that book.

1287
01:12:07.240 --> 01:12:09.999
But that doesn't mean that her family
and friends don't have a future, right?

1288
01:12:10.000 --> 01:12:11.840
Right?

1289
01:12:12.520 --> 01:12:13.959
I said I'm not interested.

1290
01:12:13.960 --> 01:12:15.359
But you promised!

1291
01:12:15.360 --> 01:12:17.679
Nothing happens! They're fiction!

1292
01:12:17.680 --> 01:12:19.919
They cease to exist the
moment the novel ends.

1293
01:12:19.920 --> 01:12:21.679
But they can't!

1294
01:12:21.680 --> 01:12:23.559
I get it in a literary sense
or whatever, but...

1295
01:12:23.560 --> 01:12:25.119
I can't do this, Lidewij.

1296
01:12:25.120 --> 01:12:26.679
It's impossible
not to imagine what...

1297
01:12:26.680 --> 01:12:28.919
I will not indulge
your childish whims.

1298
01:12:28.920 --> 01:12:30.679
I refuse to pity you in the manner

1299
01:12:30.680 --> 01:12:31.839
in which you are accustomed.

1300
01:12:31.840 --> 01:12:33.839
- I do not want your pity!
- Of course you do!

1301
01:12:33.840 --> 01:12:36.359
Like all sick kids, your
existence depends on it.

1302
01:12:36.360 --> 01:12:39.279
- You are fated to live out your days...
- Peter!

1303
01:12:39.280 --> 01:12:41.479
as the child you were
when diagnosed.

1304
01:12:41.480 --> 01:12:45.319
A child who believes there is
a life after a novel ends.

1305
01:12:45.320 --> 01:12:46.959
And we as adults, we pity this.

1306
01:12:46.960 --> 01:12:50.439
So, we pay for your treatments,
your oxygen machines.

1307
01:12:50.440 --> 01:12:51.839
Peter, that's enough.

1308
01:12:51.840 --> 01:12:55.959
You are a side-effect
to an evolutionary process...

1309
01:12:55.960 --> 01:12:58.239
that cares little
for individual lives.

1310
01:12:58.240 --> 01:13:01.207
You are a failed
experiment in mutation.

1311
01:13:04.240 --> 01:13:05.839
Listen, douchepants...

1312
01:13:05.840 --> 01:13:08.119
there is nothing that you're gonna
tell me about my disease...

1313
01:13:08.120 --> 01:13:09.959
that I don't already know.

1314
01:13:09.960 --> 01:13:12.719
I came here for one thing
and one thing only.

1315
01:13:12.720 --> 01:13:14.879
That is for you
to tell me what happens

1316
01:13:14.880 --> 01:13:17.239
at the end of this goddamn book!

1317
01:13:17.240 --> 01:13:18.439
I can't tell you.

1318
01:13:18.440 --> 01:13:19.639
- Bullshit!
- I can't.

1319
01:13:19.640 --> 01:13:21.651
Then make something up!

1320
01:13:23.000 --> 01:13:25.329
I want you to leave.

1321
01:13:42.120 --> 01:13:43.679
Have you ever stopped
to ask yourself...

1322
01:13:43.680 --> 01:13:46.479
why you care so much
about your silly questions?

1323
01:13:46.480 --> 01:13:48.844
Oh, go fuck yourself.

1324
01:14:01.880 --> 01:14:04.199
Hey, it's okay.

1325
01:14:04.200 --> 01:14:05.961
It's okay.

1326
01:14:06.080 --> 01:14:08.091
I'll write you a sequel.

1327
01:14:08.520 --> 01:14:10.039
All right? I'll write you a sequel.

1328
01:14:10.040 --> 01:14:13.405
It'll be better than any piece of
shit that drunk guy could write.

1329
01:14:13.480 --> 01:14:16.719
It'll have blood, and
guts, and sacrifice.

1330
01:14:16.720 --> 01:14:18.446
You'll love it.

1331
01:14:20.240 --> 01:14:22.439
So sorry that I spent your
wish on that asshole.

1332
01:14:22.440 --> 01:14:25.646
No, you did not spend it on him.
You spent it on us.

1333
01:14:30.120 --> 01:14:32.768
Hazel and Augustus!

1334
01:14:33.560 --> 01:14:35.286
I'm very sorry.

1335
01:14:36.080 --> 01:14:39.359
Circumstance has made him cruel.

1336
01:14:39.360 --> 01:14:41.399
I thought meeting you
would help him...

1337
01:14:41.400 --> 01:14:44.559
that he could see that his
work has shaped real lives.

1338
01:14:44.560 --> 01:14:49.290
But... I'm very sorry.

1339
01:14:49.800 --> 01:14:51.479
Perhaps we can do some sightseeing?

1340
01:14:51.480 --> 01:14:53.119
Have you been to
the Anne Frank house?

1341
01:14:53.120 --> 01:14:54.799
I'm not going anywhere
with that man.

1342
01:14:54.800 --> 01:14:55.999
No.

1343
01:14:56.000 --> 01:14:57.959
He is not invited.

1344
01:15:08.160 --> 01:15:11.001
I'm afraid there's no elevator.

1345
01:15:11.040 --> 01:15:13.319
Oh. That's all right.

1346
01:15:13.320 --> 01:15:14.799
There are many stairs.

1347
01:15:14.800 --> 01:15:15.959
- Steep stairs.
- I can do it.

1348
01:15:15.960 --> 01:15:18.919
- Hazel, we don't have to...
- I can do it.

1349
01:15:18.920 --> 01:15:20.159
Let's go.

1350
01:15:24.080 --> 01:15:28.599
<i>Frank's family came from
Frankfurt, in Germany.</i>

1351
01:15:28.600 --> 01:15:32.124
<i>Anne Frank's diary would
become world famous.</i>

1352
01:15:32.440 --> 01:15:35.799
<i>It's difficult in times like these.</i>

1353
01:15:35.800 --> 01:15:39.599
<i>It's a wonder I haven't
abandoned all my ideals.</i>

1354
01:15:39.600 --> 01:15:43.044
<i>They seem so absurd
and impractical...</i>

1355
01:15:43.120 --> 01:15:46.564
<i>yet I cling to them
because I still believe...</i>

1356
01:15:46.800 --> 01:15:51.803
<i>in spite of everything, that
people are truly good at heart.</i>

1357
01:15:51.880 --> 01:15:55.529
<i>It's utterly impossible
for me to build my life...</i>

1358
01:16:00.320 --> 01:16:01.959
Shall we?

1359
01:16:01.960 --> 01:16:04.403
- Yeah.
- Yeah.

1360
01:16:07.760 --> 01:16:09.159
Hazel, I'll carry it if you want.

1361
01:16:09.160 --> 01:16:11.524
I got it.

1362
01:16:27.320 --> 01:16:29.279
Wow.

1363
01:16:29.280 --> 01:16:33.282
So this is the actual bookcase
that hid the Frank family.

1364
01:16:34.480 --> 01:16:36.081
Whoa.

1365
01:16:54.960 --> 01:16:56.039
I got it.

1366
01:16:56.040 --> 01:16:58.404
Thank you.

1367
01:17:00.880 --> 01:17:04.039
<i>We're much too young to
deal with these problems...</i>

1368
01:17:04.040 --> 01:17:06.799
<i>but they keep thrusting
themselves on us...</i>

1369
01:17:06.800 --> 01:17:10.879
<i>until, finally, we're forced
to think up a solution.</i>

1370
01:17:10.880 --> 01:17:12.119
You okay, Hazel?

1371
01:17:12.120 --> 01:17:13.719
Yeah.

1372
01:17:13.720 --> 01:17:15.159
Don't worry, take your time.

1373
01:17:15.160 --> 01:17:17.039
Sorry.

1374
01:17:17.040 --> 01:17:18.119
Yeah?

1375
01:17:18.120 --> 01:17:19.801
Yeah.

1376
01:17:28.240 --> 01:17:31.719
<i>And yet, when I look
up at the sky...</i>

1377
01:17:31.720 --> 01:17:35.559
<i>I somehow feel that everything
will change for the better.</i>

1378
01:17:35.560 --> 01:17:38.559
<i>That this cruelty, too, will end.</i>

1379
01:17:38.560 --> 01:17:39.639
You Okay?

1380
01:17:39.640 --> 01:17:42.447
Yeah.

1381
01:17:59.880 --> 01:18:01.839
Hazel, I think that's enough.

1382
01:18:01.840 --> 01:18:03.159
You don't need...
You know?

1383
01:18:03.160 --> 01:18:04.559
Uh-huh.

1384
01:18:04.560 --> 01:18:07.208
I got this.

1385
01:18:14.600 --> 01:18:18.044
<i>All is as it should be.</i>

1386
01:18:22.680 --> 01:18:26.409
<i>God wishes to see people happy.</i>

1387
01:18:27.360 --> 01:18:30.042
<i>- Where there is hope...</i>
- Hazel.

1388
01:18:32.560 --> 01:18:34.525
<i>there is life.</i>

1389
01:18:48.960 --> 01:18:51.159
- Well done.
- Yeah.

1390
01:18:51.160 --> 01:18:52.279
You okay?

1391
01:18:52.280 --> 01:18:53.927
Yeah.

1392
01:18:54.080 --> 01:18:57.081
This is it, look.

1393
01:19:00.560 --> 01:19:02.079
All right?

1394
01:19:02.080 --> 01:19:05.251
Oh, yeah. Oh, my God.

1395
01:19:06.160 --> 01:19:07.921
Thanks.

1396
01:19:18.320 --> 01:19:21.685
The only member of the Frank
family to survive was Otto.

1397
01:19:23.160 --> 01:19:25.728
Anne's father.

1398
01:19:26.840 --> 01:19:28.965
<i>At such moments...</i>

1399
01:19:29.520 --> 01:19:32.519
<i>I can't think about the misery...</i>

1400
01:19:32.520 --> 01:19:35.248
<i>but about the beauty
that still remains.</i>

1401
01:19:37.360 --> 01:19:41.567
<i>Try to recapture the
happiness within yourself.</i>

1402
01:19:41.680 --> 01:19:45.602
<i>Think of all the beauty
in everything around you...</i>

1403
01:19:47.120 --> 01:19:49.802
<i>and be happy.</i>

1404
01:20:32.240 --> 01:20:33.759
Bravo.

1405
01:20:47.440 --> 01:20:50.884
<i>I fell in love with him
the way you fall asleep.</i>

1406
01:20:51.920 --> 01:20:55.999
<i>Slowly, and then all at once.</i>

1407
01:21:18.120 --> 01:21:22.884
it just sort of ends right above
where the knee would be...

1408
01:21:23.040 --> 01:21:24.641
and tapers off.

1409
01:21:24.960 --> 01:21:26.239
What?

1410
01:21:26.240 --> 01:21:28.559
My leg.

1411
01:21:28.560 --> 01:21:31.239
You know, just so you're prepared.

1412
01:21:31.240 --> 01:21:32.887
Gus...

1413
01:21:33.280 --> 01:21:36.042
get over yourself.

1414
01:21:51.680 --> 01:21:52.799
Wait.

1415
01:21:52.800 --> 01:21:56.085
I can't, it's stuck.

1416
01:22:04.800 --> 01:22:07.839
I love you so much,
Augustus Waters.

1417
01:22:07.840 --> 01:22:10.839
I love you too, Hazel Grace.

1418
01:22:10.840 --> 01:22:13.522
So, so much.

1419
01:22:21.600 --> 01:22:24.248
Augustus, I can't breathe.

1420
01:22:24.840 --> 01:22:27.044
It's okay.

1421
01:22:35.880 --> 01:22:37.925
Hazel.

1422
01:22:42.840 --> 01:22:44.479
You're so beautiful.

1423
01:22:44.480 --> 01:22:45.679
Stop.

1424
01:22:45.680 --> 01:22:48.169
No, you're so beautiful.

1425
01:22:48.720 --> 01:22:50.999
I'm so lucky.

1426
01:22:51.000 --> 01:22:53.489
I'm so lucky.

1427
01:24:08.040 --> 01:24:09.119
<i>Oh, my God.</i>

1428
01:24:11.960 --> 01:24:13.799
I can't believe you
called him "douchepants."

1429
01:24:13.800 --> 01:24:15.479
- I know!
- You did?

1430
01:24:15.480 --> 01:24:16.799
How did you come up with that?

1431
01:24:16.800 --> 01:24:18.719
I don't know, it just came out.

1432
01:24:18.720 --> 01:24:20.239
I was so angry.

1433
01:24:20.240 --> 01:24:21.319
What a monster.

1434
01:24:21.320 --> 01:24:22.599
Mom, it was awful.

1435
01:24:22.600 --> 01:24:24.119
Then what happened?

1436
01:24:24.120 --> 01:24:26.079
We went to Anne Frank House.

1437
01:24:26.080 --> 01:24:27.159
Oh, you did?

1438
01:24:27.160 --> 01:24:28.319
- It was really awesome.
- Was that incredible?

1439
01:24:28.320 --> 01:24:29.479
It was so awesome.

1440
01:24:29.480 --> 01:24:31.081
And after that?

1441
01:24:31.560 --> 01:24:33.241
We just walked around.

1442
01:24:37.080 --> 01:24:38.839
That sounds lovely.

1443
01:24:38.840 --> 01:24:40.399
Oh, my gosh,

1444
01:24:40.400 --> 01:24:41.919
we probably still have
a few hours, right?

1445
01:24:41.920 --> 01:24:43.399
Should we go to
the Van Gogh Museum?

1446
01:24:43.400 --> 01:24:44.919
Whatever you want.

1447
01:24:44.920 --> 01:24:47.319
Probably don't have time
to do everything, but...

1448
01:24:47.320 --> 01:24:51.129
You're just gonna have
to come back, is all.

1449
01:24:52.680 --> 01:24:55.567
Could you just not be
ridiculous right now, please?

1450
01:24:55.960 --> 01:24:59.159
Hazel, I'm not being ridiculous.

1451
01:24:59.160 --> 01:25:01.762
I'm being positive.

1452
01:25:04.920 --> 01:25:06.199
Mrs. Lancaster?

1453
01:25:06.200 --> 01:25:07.519
Yeah?

1454
01:25:07.520 --> 01:25:10.964
Do you think Hazel and I can
just have a little time alone?

1455
01:25:13.600 --> 01:25:15.239
Sure, Gus.

1456
01:25:15.240 --> 01:25:17.519
Um, I am gonna run to the room...

1457
01:25:17.520 --> 01:25:22.444
and be ready whenever you
guys want to do something.

1458
01:25:28.040 --> 01:25:30.642
Want to go for a walk?

1459
01:26:15.760 --> 01:26:18.169
What is it?

1460
01:26:19.880 --> 01:26:25.008
Just before you went into the
hospital, there was this...

1461
01:26:29.280 --> 01:26:31.689
I felt an ache in my hip.

1462
01:26:34.600 --> 01:26:37.362
So, I had a PET scan...

1463
01:26:39.880 --> 01:26:43.131
and it lit up like
a Christmas tree.

1464
01:26:48.440 --> 01:26:52.169
The lining of my chest
and my liver...

1465
01:26:53.600 --> 01:26:56.202
Everywhere.

1466
01:27:03.560 --> 01:27:06.208
I'm sorry.

1467
01:27:08.880 --> 01:27:11.847
I should've told you.

1468
01:27:28.000 --> 01:27:30.284
It's so unfair.

1469
01:27:36.760 --> 01:27:40.762
Apparently, the world is not
a wish-granting factory.

1470
01:27:54.800 --> 01:27:57.289
Hey, listen.

1471
01:27:57.600 --> 01:27:59.439
Don't you worry about me,
Hazel Grace, okay?

1472
01:27:59.440 --> 01:28:01.279
I'm gonna find a way
to hang around here

1473
01:28:01.280 --> 01:28:02.919
and annoy you for a long time.

1474
01:28:12.320 --> 01:28:14.039
Are you in pain?

1475
01:28:14.040 --> 01:28:15.641
No.

1476
01:28:17.040 --> 01:28:19.324
I'm okay.

1477
01:28:20.360 --> 01:28:22.325
You're okay?

1478
01:28:24.480 --> 01:28:26.809
Okay.

1479
01:28:33.320 --> 01:28:36.491
I don't suppose you can
just forget about this?

1480
01:28:37.320 --> 01:28:40.685
You know, just treat
me like I'm not dying.

1481
01:28:41.840 --> 01:28:44.761
I don't think you're
dying, Augustus.

1482
01:28:45.000 --> 01:28:48.251
You've just got a touch of cancer.

1483
01:28:54.240 --> 01:28:57.684
Would it be absolutely ludicrous...

1484
01:28:58.400 --> 01:29:00.359
if we just made out?

1485
01:29:00.360 --> 01:29:02.530
Right now?

1486
01:29:03.080 --> 01:29:05.523
Probably.

1487
01:29:41.080 --> 01:29:43.409
Oh...

1488
01:30:13.640 --> 01:30:15.159
So how are your eyes, Isaac?

1489
01:30:15.160 --> 01:30:16.559
They're good.

1490
01:30:16.560 --> 01:30:18.639
They're not in my head,
is the only problem.

1491
01:30:18.640 --> 01:30:20.439
Besides that...

1492
01:30:20.440 --> 01:30:23.959
Well, um, it appears my entire
body's made out of cancer now.

1493
01:30:23.960 --> 01:30:26.289
So, sorry to one-up you, dude.

1494
01:30:26.840 --> 01:30:29.159
Did you, uh...
write his eulogy yet?

1495
01:30:29.160 --> 01:30:30.319
- Dude.
- What?

1496
01:30:30.320 --> 01:30:33.439
- What?
- I haven't told her yet, Isaac.

1497
01:30:33.440 --> 01:30:34.839
What are you talking about?

1498
01:30:34.840 --> 01:30:35.959
Oh.

1499
01:30:35.960 --> 01:30:37.199
Sorry.

1500
01:30:37.200 --> 01:30:39.131
Augustus?

1501
01:30:39.680 --> 01:30:42.039
I need speakers at my funeral.

1502
01:30:42.040 --> 01:30:44.319
So, I was hoping
that you and Isaac,

1503
01:30:44.320 --> 01:30:46.888
but mostly you...

1504
01:30:47.360 --> 01:30:50.319
would be, um,

1505
01:30:50.320 --> 01:30:52.319
kind enough to whip something up.

1506
01:30:52.320 --> 01:30:55.048
I would love to do that.

1507
01:30:57.480 --> 01:30:59.650
Thank you.

1508
01:31:05.360 --> 01:31:07.199
You guys are cute.

1509
01:31:07.200 --> 01:31:09.131
Makes me sick.

1510
01:31:10.400 --> 01:31:11.799
You guys are gross.

1511
01:31:11.800 --> 01:31:13.639
Have you heard from Monica?

1512
01:31:13.640 --> 01:31:15.239
Nope, not a thing.

1513
01:31:15.240 --> 01:31:17.399
She hasn't even texted you
to make sure you're okay?

1514
01:31:17.400 --> 01:31:19.239
- Not once.
- I hate that girl.

1515
01:31:19.240 --> 01:31:20.399
But there are tons of other girls.

1516
01:31:20.400 --> 01:31:21.879
You guys don't have
to worry about me.

1517
01:31:21.880 --> 01:31:24.639
In support group,
there's this new girl...

1518
01:31:24.640 --> 01:31:26.319
and she has these humongous...

1519
01:31:27.400 --> 01:31:29.923
How do you even know that?

1520
01:31:30.080 --> 01:31:32.239
I'm blind, but I'm not that blind.

1521
01:31:32.240 --> 01:31:34.524
- Hazel Grace?
- Hmm.

1522
01:31:35.040 --> 01:31:37.847
Do you happen to have five dollars?

1523
01:31:48.920 --> 01:31:50.719
Okay, so, now what?

1524
01:31:50.720 --> 01:31:52.079
Hey, guys?

1525
01:31:52.080 --> 01:31:55.047
I smell eggs. That eggs?

1526
01:32:02.000 --> 01:32:03.679
Is it there?

1527
01:32:03.680 --> 01:32:05.520
- It's there.
- Mmm-hmm.

1528
01:32:06.280 --> 01:32:07.879
I'm nervous.

1529
01:32:07.880 --> 01:32:09.119
Nervous?

1530
01:32:09.120 --> 01:32:10.439
Is Monica in there?

1531
01:32:10.440 --> 01:32:12.119
It doesn't matter where Monica is.

1532
01:32:12.120 --> 01:32:14.279
This is not about Monica.
This is about you.

1533
01:32:14.280 --> 01:32:16.799
- Okay. Can I have an egg?
- Hazel Grace...

1534
01:32:16.800 --> 01:32:17.959
egg me.

1535
01:32:17.960 --> 01:32:19.079
Egged.

1536
01:32:19.080 --> 01:32:20.806
Isaac.

1537
01:32:25.120 --> 01:32:26.399
All right, here we go.

1538
01:32:26.400 --> 01:32:28.240
- You got this.
- All right. Come on.

1539
01:32:31.960 --> 01:32:33.479
I didn't hear anything.

1540
01:32:33.480 --> 01:32:35.809
It's all right. A little
more to your left.

1541
01:32:36.120 --> 01:32:37.879
Wait, throw to my left, or
should I aim a little left?

1542
01:32:37.880 --> 01:32:39.439
Aim left.

1543
01:32:39.440 --> 01:32:41.279
- Okay.
- Left-er.

1544
01:32:41.280 --> 01:32:42.799
Gus, I think we should
wait until dark.

1545
01:32:42.800 --> 01:32:44.919
It's all dark to Isaac.

1546
01:32:44.920 --> 01:32:47.399
Dude, I'm not deaf.
I'm just blind.

1547
01:32:47.400 --> 01:32:49.119
So I can hear when you
make fun of my disability.

1548
01:32:49.120 --> 01:32:50.799
- I'm sorry.
- And I don't love it.

1549
01:32:50.800 --> 01:32:52.639
- Where do I throw?
- Just throw hard.

1550
01:32:52.640 --> 01:32:54.079
Yes.

1551
01:32:54.080 --> 01:32:55.599
- Yes!
- Yeah!

1552
01:32:55.600 --> 01:32:56.839
What? What?

1553
01:32:56.840 --> 01:32:58.479
I hit it! I hit it!

1554
01:32:59.600 --> 01:33:01.119
Now I know exactly
where to line it up.

1555
01:33:01.120 --> 01:33:03.404
That was so exhilarating!

1556
01:33:03.960 --> 01:33:06.210
Keep it going. Keep going.

1557
01:33:07.600 --> 01:33:08.839
Keep throwing, keep throwing.

1558
01:33:08.840 --> 01:33:10.441
Give me more, give me
more, give me more!

1559
01:33:12.080 --> 01:33:13.439
Oh!

1560
01:33:13.440 --> 01:33:14.759
Oh, stop, stop, stop!

1561
01:33:14.760 --> 01:33:16.279
- Isaac.
- Oh.

1562
01:33:17.680 --> 01:33:20.839
Hello. Are you Monica's mother?

1563
01:33:20.840 --> 01:33:22.999
- I am.
- Hello, ma'am.

1564
01:33:23.000 --> 01:33:24.919
Your daughter, she's done
a great injustice.

1565
01:33:24.920 --> 01:33:27.090
So we've come here seeking revenge.

1566
01:33:27.160 --> 01:33:28.759
You see, we may not
look like much...

1567
01:33:28.760 --> 01:33:31.519
but between the three of us, we
have five legs, four eyes...

1568
01:33:31.520 --> 01:33:33.439
and two-and-a-half
working pairs of lungs.

1569
01:33:33.440 --> 01:33:35.759
But we also have two dozen eggs...

1570
01:33:35.760 --> 01:33:39.887
so if I were you,
I would go back inside.

1571
01:33:44.600 --> 01:33:46.359
- Dude, it actually worked?
- Yep.

1572
01:33:46.360 --> 01:33:48.959
That was the stupidest speech
I've ever... That actually worked?

1573
01:33:48.960 --> 01:33:51.881
There you go. Hold on.

1574
01:34:00.000 --> 01:34:02.879
This feels so good!

1575
01:34:32.400 --> 01:34:33.759
Augustus?

1576
01:34:33.760 --> 01:34:35.759
<i>Hazel Grace.</i>

1577
01:34:35.760 --> 01:34:37.839
Hi.

1578
01:34:37.840 --> 01:34:41.359
Oh, my God. Hi, hi. I love you.

1579
01:34:41.360 --> 01:34:43.559
<i>I'm at the gas station.</i>

1580
01:34:43.560 --> 01:34:44.599
You're what?

1581
01:34:44.600 --> 01:34:45.999
<i>Something is wrong.</i>

1582
01:34:46.000 --> 01:34:48.079
<i>You gotta...</i>

1583
01:34:48.080 --> 01:34:50.842
<i>Can you come?
Can you come and help me?</i>

1584
01:35:02.960 --> 01:35:05.164
Gus!

1585
01:35:06.440 --> 01:35:08.041
Gus.

1586
01:35:09.080 --> 01:35:11.409
Babe, what's going on?

1587
01:35:12.640 --> 01:35:13.719
Look.

1588
01:35:13.720 --> 01:35:15.401
Gus, it's infected.

1589
01:35:18.240 --> 01:35:20.888
Take a deep breath.

1590
01:35:22.720 --> 01:35:24.399
Gus, I have to call somebody.

1591
01:35:24.400 --> 01:35:26.759
No, no. Please don't
call 9-1-1. Please.

1592
01:35:26.760 --> 01:35:28.279
Don't call my parents or 9...

1593
01:35:28.280 --> 01:35:29.959
I will never forgive you
if you call them.

1594
01:35:29.960 --> 01:35:31.279
Gus, what are you doing here?

1595
01:35:31.280 --> 01:35:33.245
What are you doing here?

1596
01:35:33.400 --> 01:35:35.923
I wanted to buy cigarettes.

1597
01:35:36.120 --> 01:35:37.559
I don't know what
happened to my pack.

1598
01:35:37.560 --> 01:35:39.479
I might have lost it or something,

1599
01:35:39.480 --> 01:35:41.411
or they took it, but I just...

1600
01:35:42.000 --> 01:35:45.319
I wanted to do something
for myself, you know?

1601
01:35:45.320 --> 01:35:47.039
I wanted to do it myself.

1602
01:35:47.040 --> 01:35:48.279
- I have to call 9-1-1.
- No!

1603
01:35:48.280 --> 01:35:49.519
I have to.

1604
01:35:49.520 --> 01:35:51.406
No!

1605
01:35:52.480 --> 01:35:55.839
Hi, 9-1-1?
Um, we need an ambulance.

1606
01:35:55.840 --> 01:35:58.839
I hate myself!

1607
01:35:58.840 --> 01:36:00.999
My name is Hazel Grace Lancaster.

1608
01:36:01.000 --> 01:36:02.159
Please hurry.

1609
01:36:02.160 --> 01:36:04.679
We're in a silver Jeep
at the gas station.

1610
01:36:04.680 --> 01:36:06.879
<i>I wish I could say
that Augustus Waters</i>

1611
01:36:06.880 --> 01:36:09.399
<i>kept his sense of
humor until the end.</i>

1612
01:36:09.400 --> 01:36:13.971
<i>That not for a single moment
did his courage waver.</i>

1613
01:36:14.400 --> 01:36:16.445
<i>But that is not what happened.</i>

1614
01:36:25.840 --> 01:36:27.759
It hurts so much.

1615
01:36:27.760 --> 01:36:30.488
I'm so stupid.

1616
01:36:40.560 --> 01:36:44.004
Baby, it's okay. It's okay.

1617
01:36:48.680 --> 01:36:50.725
Hazel?

1618
01:36:51.920 --> 01:36:53.679
Will you tell me a story?

1619
01:36:53.680 --> 01:36:55.645
A story?

1620
01:36:56.560 --> 01:36:59.159
Or, like, a poem?

1621
01:36:59.160 --> 01:37:03.242
I do know... I... I know a poem.

1622
01:37:04.640 --> 01:37:07.004
Will you tell me it?

1623
01:37:08.080 --> 01:37:13.208
<i>The Red Wheelbarrow</i>
by William Carlos Williams.

1624
01:37:14.920 --> 01:37:18.524
"So much depends upon
a red wheelbarrow

1625
01:37:18.920 --> 01:37:22.763
"Glazed with rain water

1626
01:37:24.640 --> 01:37:27.925
"beside the white chickens."

1627
01:37:32.800 --> 01:37:36.290
That's it? Is that all?

1628
01:37:37.520 --> 01:37:40.726
No, no, no, of course not.
Of course not.

1629
01:37:41.640 --> 01:37:46.689
"So much depends upon...
A blue sky

1630
01:37:47.480 --> 01:37:50.401
"Cut open by the branches of trees

1631
01:37:53.600 --> 01:37:59.525
"And so much depends upon the...
The transparent G-tube

1632
01:38:00.800 --> 01:38:05.121
"erupting from the belly of
the blue-lipped boy

1633
01:38:05.880 --> 01:38:08.881
"So much depends

1634
01:38:10.160 --> 01:38:13.604
"on this observer of the universe"

1635
01:38:55.320 --> 01:38:56.999
How's he doing?

1636
01:38:57.000 --> 01:38:58.999
He's had a tough night, Hazel.

1637
01:38:59.000 --> 01:39:02.251
His blood pressure's low.

1638
01:39:02.360 --> 01:39:04.724
His heart...

1639
01:39:05.360 --> 01:39:07.325
What about the chemo?

1640
01:39:07.520 --> 01:39:10.521
They are gonna stop the chemo.

1641
01:39:16.080 --> 01:39:18.011
Can I see him?

1642
01:39:20.600 --> 01:39:22.759
We'll tell him you were here.

1643
01:39:22.760 --> 01:39:24.359
- Yeah.
- Okay.

1644
01:39:24.360 --> 01:39:25.999
Yeah.

1645
01:39:26.000 --> 01:39:29.999
I'm just gonna hang out for
a while, if you don't mind.

1646
01:39:30.000 --> 01:39:32.045
Yeah, of course.

1647
01:39:51.960 --> 01:39:53.800
Take your time.

1648
01:40:03.000 --> 01:40:05.011
Here we go, bud.

1649
01:40:08.800 --> 01:40:10.279
- Good?
- All right, sweetie.

1650
01:40:10.280 --> 01:40:12.211
Okay.

1651
01:40:19.640 --> 01:40:21.241
Hi.

1652
01:40:59.000 --> 01:41:01.443
What are you thinking about?

1653
01:41:02.400 --> 01:41:04.001
Oblivion.

1654
01:41:05.000 --> 01:41:08.285
I know it's kid's stuff
or whatever, but...

1655
01:41:11.120 --> 01:41:13.799
I always thought I would be a hero.

1656
01:41:13.800 --> 01:41:15.759
I always thought I'd have
a grand story to tell.

1657
01:41:15.760 --> 01:41:18.931
You know, something they would
publish in all the papers, and...

1658
01:41:19.960 --> 01:41:23.291
I mean, I was supposed
to be special.

1659
01:41:23.960 --> 01:41:25.919
You are special, Augustus.

1660
01:41:25.920 --> 01:41:27.521
Yeah, I know. But...

1661
01:41:27.640 --> 01:41:29.399
you know what I mean.

1662
01:41:29.400 --> 01:41:32.685
I do know what you mean,
I just don't agree with you.

1663
01:41:37.640 --> 01:41:40.641
You know this obsession you
have with being remembered?

1664
01:41:40.680 --> 01:41:43.601
- Don't get mad.
- I am mad.

1665
01:41:44.240 --> 01:41:47.446
I'm mad because I think you're
special. And is that not enough?

1666
01:41:49.360 --> 01:41:51.599
You think that the only way
to lead a meaningful life...

1667
01:41:51.600 --> 01:41:56.039
is for everyone to remember
you, for everyone to love you.

1668
01:41:56.040 --> 01:41:59.239
Guess what, Gus.
This is your life, okay?

1669
01:41:59.240 --> 01:42:01.359
This is all you get.

1670
01:42:01.360 --> 01:42:03.479
You get me,
and you get your family,

1671
01:42:03.480 --> 01:42:05.719
and you get this world,
and that's it.

1672
01:42:05.720 --> 01:42:08.079
And if that's not enough for you,

1673
01:42:08.080 --> 01:42:10.921
then I'm sorry,
but it's not nothing.

1674
01:42:12.760 --> 01:42:15.328
Because I love you.

1675
01:42:16.520 --> 01:42:19.361
And I'm gonna remember you.

1676
01:42:22.480 --> 01:42:25.439
I'm sorry. You're right.

1677
01:42:25.440 --> 01:42:27.719
I just wish you
would be happy with that.

1678
01:42:27.720 --> 01:42:29.560
Hey.

1679
01:42:44.960 --> 01:42:47.767
It's a good life, Hazel Grace.

1680
01:42:51.600 --> 01:42:54.202
It's not over yet, you know.

1681
01:43:03.640 --> 01:43:04.839
Oh, Augustus.

1682
01:43:04.840 --> 01:43:08.079
<i>One of the less bullshitty
conventions of the cancer genre...</i>

1683
01:43:08.080 --> 01:43:12.279
<i>is the convention known as
the "Last Good Day"...</i>

1684
01:43:12.280 --> 01:43:16.199
<i>when it seems like the inexorable
decline has suddenly plateaued...</i>

1685
01:43:16.200 --> 01:43:20.039
<i>when the pain is,
just for a minute, bearable.</i>

1686
01:43:20.040 --> 01:43:22.959
<i>The problem, of course, is that
there's no way of knowing...</i>

1687
01:43:22.960 --> 01:43:25.289
<i>that your last good day
is your last good day.</i>

1688
01:43:26.400 --> 01:43:30.159
<i>At the time, it's just
another decent day.</i>

1689
01:43:36.600 --> 01:43:38.239
Hello, Augustus.

1690
01:43:38.240 --> 01:43:41.446
<i>Good evening, Hazel Grace.</i>

1691
01:43:42.120 --> 01:43:43.359
<i>A quick question for you.</i>

1692
01:43:43.360 --> 01:43:46.122
<i>Did you ever write that eulogy
I asked you to prepare?</i>

1693
01:43:46.720 --> 01:43:48.079
I may have.

1694
01:43:48.080 --> 01:43:49.519
<i>Do you think you could
find your way down...</i>

1695
01:43:49.520 --> 01:43:51.839
<i>to the literal Heart of Jesus
in the next few minutes?</i>

1696
01:43:51.840 --> 01:43:54.199
Maybe. Is everything okay?

1697
01:43:54.200 --> 01:43:56.609
<i>I love you, Hazel Grace.</i>

1698
01:43:59.160 --> 01:44:01.479
- Can I have the keys?
- Oh.

1699
01:44:01.480 --> 01:44:03.919
- Where you going? We're gonna eat something.
- I have to go.

1700
01:44:03.920 --> 01:44:06.159
Hazel, you have to be hungry.
You didn't even eat lunch.

1701
01:44:06.160 --> 01:44:07.319
I'm just not hungry.

1702
01:44:07.320 --> 01:44:09.199
Hazel, you cannot not eat.

1703
01:44:09.200 --> 01:44:10.359
I'm aggressively un-hungry.

1704
01:44:10.360 --> 01:44:13.159
Hazel, I know Gus is sick, but you
got to take care of yourself.

1705
01:44:13.160 --> 01:44:14.559
This has nothing to do with Gus.

1706
01:44:14.560 --> 01:44:15.959
Well, then you've
got to stay healthy.

1707
01:44:15.960 --> 01:44:18.159
Come on, just eat something, honey.

1708
01:44:18.160 --> 01:44:19.879
"Stay healthy"?

1709
01:44:19.880 --> 01:44:22.559
Okay, I'm not healthy,
and I'm gonna die.

1710
01:44:22.560 --> 01:44:24.519
Do you realize that? I'm dying,
and you're gonna be here...

1711
01:44:24.520 --> 01:44:27.319
and you're not gonna have anyone
to look after, or hover around...

1712
01:44:27.320 --> 01:44:28.999
and you're not gonna be a mother
anymore, and I'm sorry...

1713
01:44:29.000 --> 01:44:30.679
but there's nothing
I can do about that.

1714
01:44:30.680 --> 01:44:31.919
So, can I please go?

1715
01:44:31.920 --> 01:44:33.759
Why would you say that to me?

1716
01:44:33.760 --> 01:44:35.239
Because you said that.

1717
01:44:35.240 --> 01:44:36.919
What are you talking about?

1718
01:44:36.920 --> 01:44:38.885
In the ICU.

1719
01:44:40.600 --> 01:44:42.406
Hazel...

1720
01:44:43.320 --> 01:44:45.843
That's not the truth.
I was wrong.

1721
01:44:46.600 --> 01:44:48.119
All right?

1722
01:44:48.120 --> 01:44:50.119
Even if you died...

1723
01:44:50.120 --> 01:44:51.881
"When."

1724
01:44:55.760 --> 01:44:58.169
Even when you die...

1725
01:45:00.040 --> 01:45:02.563
I'll always be your mother.

1726
01:45:04.680 --> 01:45:07.521
It's the greatest
thing I'll ever be.

1727
01:45:08.800 --> 01:45:10.919
That is my biggest fear, Mom.

1728
01:45:10.920 --> 01:45:12.399
When I am gone...

1729
01:45:12.400 --> 01:45:14.959
you're not gonna
have a life anymore.

1730
01:45:14.960 --> 01:45:16.879
You're just gonna sit and
you're gonna stare at walls...

1731
01:45:16.880 --> 01:45:19.119
or you're gonna
off yourselves or...

1732
01:45:19.120 --> 01:45:22.769
Hazel, honey,
we're not gonna do that.

1733
01:45:23.920 --> 01:45:25.719
Losing you...

1734
01:45:27.520 --> 01:45:31.044
That is gonna hurt like hell.

1735
01:45:32.200 --> 01:45:37.727
But you of all people know it's
possible to live with pain.

1736
01:45:40.240 --> 01:45:42.410
You just do it.

1737
01:45:46.240 --> 01:45:50.959
I'm taking classes in social work.

1738
01:45:50.960 --> 01:45:52.879
Wait, you're what?

1739
01:45:52.880 --> 01:45:54.481
Yeah, um...

1740
01:45:55.960 --> 01:45:57.639
You know, if I can take
what we've been through...

1741
01:45:57.640 --> 01:46:01.722
and help other people,
maybe counsel families...

1742
01:46:02.200 --> 01:46:04.119
Mom, how could you
not tell me this?

1743
01:46:04.120 --> 01:46:06.479
We didn't want you
to feel abandoned.

1744
01:46:06.480 --> 01:46:08.570
Feel abandoned?

1745
01:46:09.840 --> 01:46:12.090
You guys, this is...

1746
01:46:15.000 --> 01:46:17.199
This is the best news.

1747
01:46:17.200 --> 01:46:19.040
You go.

1748
01:46:20.200 --> 01:46:21.801
Okay?

1749
01:46:23.800 --> 01:46:25.561
Baby.

1750
01:46:26.960 --> 01:46:28.159
Straight ahead, yeah.

1751
01:46:28.160 --> 01:46:30.125
To your left, a little bit.

1752
01:46:30.760 --> 01:46:31.839
That's a step, right?

1753
01:46:31.840 --> 01:46:33.279
Yeah, put your hand out.

1754
01:46:33.280 --> 01:46:34.919
There's a podium to your right.

1755
01:46:34.920 --> 01:46:37.249
Yeah, perfect.

1756
01:46:45.520 --> 01:46:47.119
Beautiful.

1757
01:46:48.440 --> 01:46:49.919
Hi.

1758
01:46:49.920 --> 01:46:50.999
You're late.

1759
01:46:51.000 --> 01:46:53.279
How you doing? You look
ravishing, Hazel Grace.

1760
01:46:53.280 --> 01:46:56.008
I know, right?

1761
01:47:00.360 --> 01:47:02.119
What's going on, guys?

1762
01:47:02.120 --> 01:47:03.881
Tell her, Gus.

1763
01:47:04.040 --> 01:47:06.768
I wanted to attend my own funeral.

1764
01:47:07.080 --> 01:47:10.879
I mean, I'm hopeful that I'll be
able to attend as a ghost, but...

1765
01:47:12.160 --> 01:47:14.679
However, just in case
it doesn't work out...

1766
01:47:14.680 --> 01:47:18.329
I decided to plan this pre-funeral.

1767
01:47:19.000 --> 01:47:20.761
Ready?

1768
01:47:23.920 --> 01:47:27.039
Augustus Waters was a
cocky son of a bitch.

1769
01:47:27.040 --> 01:47:29.119
But we forgave him.

1770
01:47:29.120 --> 01:47:31.239
Not because of his
superhuman good looks...

1771
01:47:31.240 --> 01:47:33.239
or because he only got 19 years

1772
01:47:33.240 --> 01:47:35.279
when he should've gotten way more.

1773
01:47:35.280 --> 01:47:36.879
18 years, buddy.

1774
01:47:36.880 --> 01:47:38.359
Dude, come on. Really?

1775
01:47:38.360 --> 01:47:40.639
I'm assuming you have a little more
time, you interrupting bastard.

1776
01:47:40.640 --> 01:47:43.321
Interrupt me in the middle of my eulogy.
You're supposed to be dead.

1777
01:47:44.880 --> 01:47:48.839
But when the scientists
from the future...

1778
01:47:48.840 --> 01:47:52.159
come to my house with robot eyes...

1779
01:47:52.160 --> 01:47:55.127
and they tell me to try them on...

1780
01:47:57.320 --> 01:48:01.129
I'm gonna tell those scientists
to piss off, because...

1781
01:48:01.720 --> 01:48:05.403
because Gus, I don't even want
to see a world without you.

1782
01:48:06.320 --> 01:48:07.439
I don't.

1783
01:48:07.440 --> 01:48:10.884
I don't want to see a world
without Augustus Waters.

1784
01:48:13.640 --> 01:48:16.119
Then, having made my point, I'll
probably put the robot eyes on...

1785
01:48:16.120 --> 01:48:18.239
because, you know,
they're robot eyes.

1786
01:48:18.240 --> 01:48:20.285
Sounds awesome.

1787
01:48:22.320 --> 01:48:24.559
And I don't know... Um...

1788
01:48:24.560 --> 01:48:27.119
This is just so hard.

1789
01:48:27.120 --> 01:48:28.559
Um...

1790
01:48:28.560 --> 01:48:30.924
Godspeed.

1791
01:48:31.120 --> 01:48:32.199
Yeah.

1792
01:48:32.200 --> 01:48:35.087
Hazel, can I get a hand here?

1793
01:48:43.800 --> 01:48:46.129
To the right, a little bit.

1794
01:48:48.040 --> 01:48:51.928
Yeah, and turn around.
Sit down. There you go.

1795
01:48:55.840 --> 01:48:58.522
It's down to you, Hazel Grace.

1796
01:49:23.520 --> 01:49:24.719
Hello.

1797
01:49:24.720 --> 01:49:29.006
My name is Hazel Grace Lancaster...

1798
01:49:30.000 --> 01:49:34.479
and Augustus Waters was the
star-crossed love of my life.

1799
01:49:34.480 --> 01:49:36.439
Ours was an epic love story...

1800
01:49:36.440 --> 01:49:40.359
and I probably won't be able to
get more than a sentence out...

1801
01:49:40.360 --> 01:49:44.043
without disappearing
into a puddle of tears.

1802
01:49:45.480 --> 01:49:47.439
Like all real love stories...

1803
01:49:47.440 --> 01:49:49.359
ours will die with us.

1804
01:49:49.360 --> 01:49:51.291
As it should.

1805
01:49:54.040 --> 01:49:58.247
You know, I'd kind of hoped that
he would be the one eulogizing me.

1806
01:49:58.800 --> 01:50:01.448
Because there's really
no one else...

1807
01:50:04.600 --> 01:50:07.009
Yeah, no. Um...

1808
01:50:08.600 --> 01:50:11.399
I'm not gonna talk about our
love story, because I can't.

1809
01:50:11.400 --> 01:50:16.369
So, instead,
I'm gonna talk about math.

1810
01:50:18.040 --> 01:50:22.559
I am not a mathematician,
but I do know this.

1811
01:50:22.560 --> 01:50:25.879
There are infinite numbers
between zero and one.

1812
01:50:25.880 --> 01:50:31.319
There's point-one, point-one-two,
and point-one-one-two, and...

1813
01:50:31.320 --> 01:50:34.287
and an infinite
collection of others.

1814
01:50:34.840 --> 01:50:37.239
Of course,
there is a bigger infinite

1815
01:50:37.240 --> 01:50:39.959
set of numbers
between zero and two...

1816
01:50:39.960 --> 01:50:44.451
or between zero and a million.

1817
01:50:45.280 --> 01:50:49.965
Some infinities are simply
bigger than other infinities.

1818
01:50:51.280 --> 01:50:54.645
A writer that we used
to like taught us that.

1819
01:50:55.840 --> 01:50:58.439
You know, I want more numbers...

1820
01:50:58.440 --> 01:51:00.769
than I'm likely to get.

1821
01:51:03.040 --> 01:51:05.051
And, God...

1822
01:51:06.120 --> 01:51:08.159
do I want more days
for Augustus Waters

1823
01:51:08.160 --> 01:51:10.046
than what he got.

1824
01:51:13.840 --> 01:51:15.771
But, Gus...

1825
01:51:16.720 --> 01:51:18.845
my love...

1826
01:51:19.400 --> 01:51:22.480
I cannot tell you
how thankful I am...

1827
01:51:23.360 --> 01:51:25.928
for our little infinity.

1828
01:51:36.960 --> 01:51:38.971
Hold on.

1829
01:51:46.040 --> 01:51:48.961
You gave me a forever...

1830
01:51:50.400 --> 01:51:53.039
within the numbered days.

1831
01:51:53.040 --> 01:51:55.563
And for that, I am...

1832
01:51:56.120 --> 01:51:58.848
I am eternally grateful.

1833
01:52:05.040 --> 01:52:07.927
I love you so much.

1834
01:52:09.800 --> 01:52:12.368
I love you, too.

1835
01:52:32.080 --> 01:52:36.048
<i>Augustus Waters died eight
days later in the ICU.</i>

1836
01:52:36.600 --> 01:52:40.488
<i>When the cancer,
which was made of him...</i>

1837
01:52:40.560 --> 01:52:45.529
<i>stopped his heart, which
was also made of him.</i>

1838
01:53:44.520 --> 01:53:46.759
<i>It was unbearable.</i>

1839
01:53:46.760 --> 01:53:48.964
<i>The whole thing.</i>

1840
01:53:49.480 --> 01:53:52.686
<i>Every second, worse than the last.</i>

1841
01:53:58.120 --> 01:54:00.079
<i>One of the first things
they ask you in the ER...</i>

1842
01:54:00.080 --> 01:54:03.524
<i>is to rate your pain
on a scale from one to ten.</i>

1843
01:54:04.920 --> 01:54:06.959
<i>I've been asked this question
hundreds of times...</i>

1844
01:54:06.960 --> 01:54:09.199
<i>and I remember once...</i>

1845
01:54:09.200 --> 01:54:11.199
<i>when I couldn't catch my breath</i>

1846
01:54:11.200 --> 01:54:13.643
<i>and it felt like
my chest was on fire...</i>

1847
01:54:14.240 --> 01:54:16.319
<i>the nurse asked me
to rate the pain.</i>

1848
01:54:16.320 --> 01:54:19.890
<i>Though I couldn't speak,
I held up nine fingers.</i>

1849
01:54:20.440 --> 01:54:22.559
<i>Later, when I started
feeling better...</i>

1850
01:54:22.560 --> 01:54:25.925
<i>the nurse came in
and she called me a fighter.</i>

1851
01:54:26.280 --> 01:54:29.008
<i>"You know how I know?"
she said.</i>

1852
01:54:29.200 --> 01:54:31.962
<i>"You called a ten a nine."</i>

1853
01:54:32.480 --> 01:54:34.319
<i>But that wasn't the truth.</i>

1854
01:54:34.320 --> 01:54:37.764
<i>I didn't call it a nine
because I was brave.</i>

1855
01:54:38.720 --> 01:54:44.360
<i>The reason I called it a nine was
because I was saving my ten.</i>

1856
01:54:45.000 --> 01:54:47.125
<i>And this was it.</i>

1857
01:54:49.040 --> 01:54:51.879
<i>This was the great
and terrible ten.</i>

1858
01:54:51.880 --> 01:54:55.165
<i>"I will fear no evil,
for You are with me...</i>

1859
01:54:55.280 --> 01:54:58.959
"Your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

1860
01:54:58.960 --> 01:55:02.159
"You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.

1861
01:55:02.160 --> 01:55:06.599
"You anoint my head with oil.
My cup overflows.

1862
01:55:06.600 --> 01:55:11.199
"Surely, goodness and love will
follow me all the days of my life...

1863
01:55:11.200 --> 01:55:13.839
"and I will dwell
in the house of the Lord...

1864
01:55:13.840 --> 01:55:15.771
"forever."

1865
01:55:18.200 --> 01:55:22.088
Augustus Waters
fought hard for many years.

1866
01:55:22.880 --> 01:55:26.759
His battle was a courageous
one, and his strength...

1867
01:55:26.760 --> 01:55:28.479
What a load of shit, huh, kid?

1868
01:55:28.480 --> 01:55:31.128
was a source of inspiration
for each and every one of us.

1869
01:55:33.360 --> 01:55:35.371
Let us pray.

1870
01:55:36.280 --> 01:55:38.959
We thank You, Lord, for the
life of Augustus Waters...

1871
01:55:38.960 --> 01:55:40.479
We need to fake-pray now.

1872
01:55:40.480 --> 01:55:43.679
...for his strength
and his courage.

1873
01:55:43.680 --> 01:55:47.439
Lord, we ask that You be with
us today, that You be close...

1874
01:55:47.440 --> 01:55:50.159
that You comfort
his friends and family.

1875
01:55:50.160 --> 01:55:52.603
Thank You for Your presence, Lord.

1876
01:55:52.680 --> 01:55:55.119
All this we pray in Jesus' name.

1877
01:55:55.120 --> 01:55:56.279
Amen.

1878
01:55:56.280 --> 01:55:57.879
Amen.

1879
01:55:57.880 --> 01:56:02.839
Now, we are going to hear
from Gus' special friend...

1880
01:56:02.840 --> 01:56:05.602
Hazel Lancaster.

1881
01:56:15.920 --> 01:56:20.445
Not that it really matters,
but I was his girlfriend.

1882
01:57:00.040 --> 01:57:03.919
There's a beautiful quote
in Gus' home that reads...

1883
01:57:03.920 --> 01:57:06.761
"If you want the rainbow, you
have to deal with the rain."

1884
01:57:09.640 --> 01:57:12.679
Even in his last few days...

1885
01:57:12.680 --> 01:57:13.799
Um...

1886
01:57:13.800 --> 01:57:15.159
<i>I didn't believe a word.</i>

1887
01:57:15.160 --> 01:57:18.081
He was always able
to crack a smile.

1888
01:57:18.120 --> 01:57:20.290
<i>But that's okay.</i>

1889
01:57:22.400 --> 01:57:25.890
<i>I knew this was
the right thing to do.</i>

1890
01:57:26.240 --> 01:57:30.925
<i>Funerals, I'd decided,
are not for the dead.</i>

1891
01:57:32.280 --> 01:57:33.319
<i>They're for the living.</i>

1892
01:57:33.320 --> 01:57:35.279
Hey, want some company?

1893
01:57:35.280 --> 01:57:36.479
No, I'm okay.

1894
01:57:36.480 --> 01:57:40.239
I'm just gonna drive
for a bit by myself.

1895
01:57:40.240 --> 01:57:41.921
Love you.

1896
01:57:43.240 --> 01:57:45.119
Love you.

1897
01:57:45.120 --> 01:57:47.006
You spoke beautifully.

1898
01:57:47.640 --> 01:57:49.199
I'll see you soon.
Drive safe.

1899
01:57:49.200 --> 01:57:50.881
Okay.

1900
01:58:15.120 --> 01:58:16.881
May I?

1901
01:58:18.600 --> 01:58:22.409
<i>Omnis cellula e cellula.</i>

1902
01:58:23.960 --> 01:58:27.519
Your boy Waters and I corresponded
quite a bit in his last days.

1903
01:58:27.520 --> 01:58:29.679
Oh. So, you read your fan mail now?

1904
01:58:29.680 --> 01:58:31.719
I wouldn't exactly call him a fan.

1905
01:58:31.720 --> 01:58:33.679
He detested me.

1906
01:58:33.680 --> 01:58:37.439
But he was quite insistent
I attend his funeral...

1907
01:58:37.440 --> 01:58:39.879
and tell you what became
of Anna and her mother...

1908
01:58:39.880 --> 01:58:41.919
so here I am.

1909
01:58:41.920 --> 01:58:44.719
And that's your answer,
<i>"Omnis cellula e cellula."</i>

1910
01:58:44.720 --> 01:58:46.446
"Life comes from life."

1911
01:58:47.360 --> 01:58:48.519
I'm really not in the mood.

1912
01:58:48.520 --> 01:58:49.799
You don't want an explanation?

1913
01:58:49.800 --> 01:58:51.359
No, I don't.

1914
01:58:51.360 --> 01:58:54.039
Thank you, though.
Have a great life.

1915
01:58:54.040 --> 01:58:55.919
You remind me of her.

1916
01:58:57.200 --> 01:59:00.644
I remind a lot of people
of a lot of people.

1917
01:59:01.200 --> 01:59:03.404
My daughter was eight.

1918
01:59:04.680 --> 01:59:10.047
And she suffered
beautifully for so long.

1919
01:59:11.680 --> 01:59:14.408
She had leukemia like Anna?

1920
01:59:14.840 --> 01:59:17.090
Just like Anna.

1921
01:59:20.080 --> 01:59:23.039
I'm very sorry for your loss.

1922
01:59:23.040 --> 01:59:26.849
And I'm sorry for yours. And
sorry for ruining your trip.

1923
01:59:27.000 --> 01:59:28.879
You didn't ruin our trip.

1924
01:59:28.880 --> 01:59:31.005
We had an amazing trip.

1925
01:59:33.280 --> 01:59:37.239
Are you familiar with
the Trolley Problem?

1926
01:59:37.240 --> 01:59:41.199
There's a thought experiment
in the field of ethics...

1927
01:59:41.200 --> 01:59:43.119
known as the Trolley Problem.

1928
01:59:43.120 --> 01:59:45.239
Philippa Foot was an
English philosopher...

1929
01:59:45.240 --> 01:59:46.879
Oh, my God.

1930
01:59:46.880 --> 01:59:49.199
Hazel, I'm trying to
explain something to you.

1931
01:59:49.200 --> 01:59:50.319
I'm trying to give you
what you wanted.

1932
01:59:50.320 --> 01:59:51.519
No, you're not!

1933
01:59:51.520 --> 01:59:53.319
You are a drunk,
and you're a failure...

1934
01:59:53.320 --> 01:59:54.919
and I need you to get out
of my car right now...

1935
01:59:54.920 --> 01:59:59.047
so that I can go home, and
be by myself and grieve!

1936
01:59:59.760 --> 02:00:01.964
You'll want to read this.

1937
02:00:03.880 --> 02:00:05.599
I don't want to read anything.

1938
02:00:05.600 --> 02:00:07.804
Can you just get out of my car?

1939
02:00:12.120 --> 02:00:13.319
Please get out of my car!

1940
02:00:13.320 --> 02:00:14.879
Fine.

1941
02:01:21.640 --> 02:01:24.049
Can I come in?

1942
02:01:35.680 --> 02:01:38.009
I'm so, so sorry.

1943
02:01:39.760 --> 02:01:41.691
Yeah.

1944
02:01:47.440 --> 02:01:51.399
It was a privilege,
though, wasn't it?

1945
02:01:51.400 --> 02:01:53.365
To love him?

1946
02:02:05.000 --> 02:02:08.490
Gives you an idea
how we feel about you.

1947
02:02:15.880 --> 02:02:17.845
Hazel?

1948
02:02:18.000 --> 02:02:20.807
There's a friend here to see you.

1949
02:02:21.640 --> 02:02:24.766
Do you know if it hurt or whatever?

1950
02:02:25.640 --> 02:02:29.039
Apparently he was struggling
for breath for a long time...

1951
02:02:29.040 --> 02:02:32.325
and then eventually
he just went unconscious.

1952
02:02:32.960 --> 02:02:35.085
It wasn't great or anything.

1953
02:02:35.880 --> 02:02:37.970
Dying sucks.

1954
02:02:39.800 --> 02:02:42.084
Gus really loved you, you know?

1955
02:02:42.160 --> 02:02:44.000
I know.

1956
02:02:45.560 --> 02:02:47.999
He wouldn't shut up about it.

1957
02:02:48.000 --> 02:02:49.199
Yeah.

1958
02:02:49.200 --> 02:02:52.239
It was annoying. He
talked about you so much.

1959
02:02:52.240 --> 02:02:53.759
I didn't find it that annoying.

1960
02:02:53.760 --> 02:02:56.681
I know. I know you didn't.

1961
02:03:05.160 --> 02:03:08.039
Did you get that letter
from your author friend?

1962
02:03:08.040 --> 02:03:10.130
Ew. He's not my friend.

1963
02:03:10.160 --> 02:03:11.359
How do you know about that?

1964
02:03:11.360 --> 02:03:12.919
Well, I was talking
to him at the cemetery...

1965
02:03:12.920 --> 02:03:17.279
and he said he came all this way
to give that letter to you.

1966
02:03:17.280 --> 02:03:19.519
Yeah, well, I'm over it.

1967
02:03:19.520 --> 02:03:22.599
I have no interest in reading another
word of that asshole's again.

1968
02:03:22.600 --> 02:03:24.759
No, he didn't write it.
Gus wrote it.

1969
02:03:24.760 --> 02:03:26.199
What?

1970
02:03:26.200 --> 02:03:27.839
Apparently Gus wrote something down

1971
02:03:27.840 --> 02:03:29.965
and then sent it to Van Houten.

1972
02:03:32.400 --> 02:03:34.490
Oh, my God.

1973
02:03:42.880 --> 02:03:47.804
<i>Mr. Van Houten, I'm a good
person, but a shitty writer.</i>

1974
02:03:48.200 --> 02:03:51.039
<i>You're a shitty person,
but a good writer.</i>

1975
02:03:51.040 --> 02:03:53.239
<i>I think we'd make a good team.</i>

1976
02:03:53.240 --> 02:03:55.039
<i>I don't want to ask you
for any favors...</i>

1977
02:03:55.040 --> 02:03:58.479
<i>but if you have the time, and from
what I saw, you have plenty...</i>

1978
02:03:58.480 --> 02:04:00.239
<i>please fix this for me.</i>

1979
02:04:00.240 --> 02:04:03.002
<i>It's a eulogy for Hazel.</i>

1980
02:04:06.120 --> 02:04:07.879
<i>She asked me to write one,
and I'm trying.</i>

1981
02:04:07.880 --> 02:04:11.759
<i>I just... I could
use a little flair.</i>

1982
02:04:11.760 --> 02:04:15.330
<i>See, the thing is, we all
want to be remembered.</i>

1983
02:04:17.320 --> 02:04:19.445
<i>But Hazel's different.</i>

1984
02:04:19.760 --> 02:04:21.639
<i>Hazel knows the truth.</i>

1985
02:04:21.640 --> 02:04:25.399
<i>She didn't want a million admirers.
She just wanted one.</i>

1986
02:04:25.400 --> 02:04:27.206
<i>And she got it.</i>

1987
02:04:27.240 --> 02:04:31.239
<i>Maybe she wasn't loved widely,
but she was loved deeply.</i>

1988
02:04:31.240 --> 02:04:34.081
<i>And isn't that more
than most of us get?</i>

1989
02:04:35.360 --> 02:04:39.119
<i>When Hazel was sick,
I knew I was dying...</i>

1990
02:04:39.120 --> 02:04:41.882
<i>but I didn't want to say so.</i>

1991
02:04:46.120 --> 02:04:48.639
<i>She was in the ICU, and I
snuck in for 10 minutes...</i>

1992
02:04:48.640 --> 02:04:52.050
<i>and I sat with her,
before I got caught.</i>

1993
02:04:53.040 --> 02:04:55.959
<i>Her eyes were closed.
Her skin, pale.</i>

1994
02:04:55.960 --> 02:04:58.719
<i>But her hands
were still her hands.</i>

1995
02:04:58.720 --> 02:05:02.279
<i>Still warm, and her nails were painted
this dark blue-black color...</i>

1996
02:05:02.280 --> 02:05:05.319
<i>and I just held them.</i>

1997
02:05:05.320 --> 02:05:08.730
<i>And I willed myself to imagine
a world without us...</i>

1998
02:05:09.000 --> 02:05:11.921
<i>and what a worthless world
that would be.</i>

1999
02:05:14.480 --> 02:05:17.199
<i>She's so beautiful.</i>

2000
02:05:17.200 --> 02:05:19.039
<i>You don't get tired
of looking at her.</i>

2001
02:05:19.040 --> 02:05:20.719
<i>You never worry if she's
smarter than you...</i>

2002
02:05:20.720 --> 02:05:23.084
<i>because you know she is.</i>

2003
02:05:24.160 --> 02:05:27.240
<i>She's funny without
ever being mean.</i>

2004
02:05:28.640 --> 02:05:30.651
<i>I love her.</i>

2005
02:05:30.800 --> 02:05:31.999
<i>God, I love her.</i>

2006
02:05:32.000 --> 02:05:35.126
<i>I'm so lucky to love her,
Van Houten.</i>

2007
02:05:42.760 --> 02:05:44.999
<i>You don't get to choose if
you get hurt in this world...</i>

2008
02:05:45.000 --> 02:05:48.763
<i>but you do have a say
in who hurts you.</i>

2009
02:05:48.840 --> 02:05:51.442
<i>And I like my choices.</i>

2010
02:05:51.920 --> 02:05:54.648
<i>I hope she likes hers.</i>

2011
02:05:55.160 --> 02:05:57.524
<i>Okay, Hazel Grace?</i>

2012
02:05:59.400 --> 02:06:01.331
Okay.

2012
02:06:02.305 --> 02:06:08.857
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