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[girl] <i>Human touch.</i>

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<i>Our first form of communication.</i>

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<i>Safety, security, comfort,</i>

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<i>all in the gentle caress of a finger.</i>

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<i>Or the brush of lips on a soft cheek.</i>

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<i>It connects us when we're happy...</i>

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<i>- bolsters us in times of fear...</i>
- [screams]

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<i>excites us in times of passion...</i>

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<i>and love.</i>

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<i>We need that touch from the one we love
almost as much as we need air to breathe.</i>

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<i>But I never understood
the importance of touch,</i>

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<i>his touch...</i>

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<i>until I couldn't have it.</i>

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- Oh!
- [laughter]

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- Oh, yeah.
- [girl 2] Oh!

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Oh, yeah. This one's perfect.

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[chuckles]

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Actually,
the tan lines might be incredible.

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Oh, my gosh.
That doesn't even cover half your boob.

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- [girl 2 chuckles]
- No, you need something...

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- This is actually cute.
- [girl 2] That's really cute.

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- Yeah.
- [girl 2] Let me see.

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- [girl] I like that.
- That's actually really pretty.

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But I can't tell, is it too trampy

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- or not trampy enough?
- [sent message tone]

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Hello!

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- Are you with us?
- Okay, guess what.

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Taylor and Mason are meeting us
at the airport in the morning.

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[girl] What's that face?

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- [girl 2] Oh, my God!
- What?

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- I know. I know!
- [girl] What? Wait. What?

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[girl 2] Dude, Mason and Brooke broke up.

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- No, they didn't.
- [girl 3] Yes, they did.

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Oh, my God! Maya!

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- You're gonna do it!
- Yep.

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I wish I could be there
to see that in person.

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Just sucks that you planned it this year,
and you don't even get to go.

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Well,

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you can just Photoshop me in
with your fancy editing apps.

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- What are you talking about?
- [girl] You know what.

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- I don't.
- The one where you get your pimples

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and your little fake blush.

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- Shut up.
- The lashes.

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- Your lashes aren't that long.
- You guys are annoying.

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[girl] Okay, come on.
Thank you for the burgers.

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Honestly,
you guys are gonna have so much fun.

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- Okay?
- Okay.

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- Bye. I love you.
- [Maya] I love you more.

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- I love you.
- We'll miss you. Bye.

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Mwah. Use protection.

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- Thanks, Mom.
- [laughter]

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[sighs]

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[sighs]

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[muffled PA chatter]

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[sighs deeply]

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- [camcorder beeps]
- [girl] Hello, world!

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So, I am back in the hospital again
for another tune-up.

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I need a few more rounds of antibiotics

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to get over this little sore throat
that I've been...

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Hi, Barb!

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Sore throat?

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Right, with a 102 fever.

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- I've had worse. Say hi!
- Stella, get that thing out of my face.

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- You're looking good!
- I know that.

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Folks, Stella will be right back
after we get her all set up.

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You heard the boss lady.

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[Barb sighs]

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I think this is her best work.

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- [door opens]
- [nurse] Hi, Stella.

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Wow.

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Wow. A lot's changed
in the last six months.

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Yep. He's due in March.

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Bend your arm, please.

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- What room's Poe in?
- [nurse] 310.

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- [typing]
- [sent message tone]

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And open up.

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All right.

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You are all set. I'll see you in a bit.

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Thank you, Julie.

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[clearing throat]

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[Stella] Wow. Are you sure this is okay?

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I will still be monitoring you.
And, yes, it's okay.

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What would I do without you?

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- You'd die.
- [laughs]

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[Barb chuckles]

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- That's true.
- [camcorder beeps]

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So, Barb is letting me keep
my med cart in my room this time.

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And she left me a bunch of pills,
some G-Juice.

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Yum! That's the liquid nutrition

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that goes straight to my stomach
through my G-tube. [chuckles]

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So, to any of you girls out there

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wishing you could eat 5,000 calories a day
and not gain a pound,

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I'll trade you any day.

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Today I'll probably
be reorganizing this thing

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because as many of you know,
I'm slightly anal.

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By slightly anal, I mean clinically OCD.

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So, peace.

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Bye, guys.

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[mellow pop song playing]

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[song continues]

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[coughing]

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- [hissing, inhaling]
- [song ends]

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- [knocking]
- [door opens]

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New baby upstairs.

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Meet me in 15.

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[upbeat song playing]

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- Hi, Cynthia.
- Hi, Stella.

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Hi.

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I've clocked the nurse's schedule. Unless
you put your ass on that call button,

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no one's gonna bother you for an hour.

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Hey. I gotta sleep on that bed, okay?

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Wow. I mean, we're not animals.

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Don't worry.
It's not gonna take that long.

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[boy] Hey!
Whatchu talkin' about, Willis?

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[song continues]

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[elevator bell dings]

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- [door opens]
- [song ends]

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[door closes]

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Saw you moving in your stuff.

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It was, uh...

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There was a lot of it.

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Are you gonna be here for a while?

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Hello?

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Oh. [sighs]

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You're deaf.

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[Stella] Shouldn't you be
procuring your room for your guests?

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You rent by the hour or what?

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So, that was you lurking in the hall.

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Mmm, I don't lurk,
and you followed me here.

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I wanted to introduce myself,

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but that little attitude of yours...

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Let me guess. You're the kind of guy
that ignores the rules

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'cause it makes you feel in control.
Am I right?

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You're not wrong.

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You think that's cute?

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Do you think it's cute?

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Letting your friends borrow your room
for sex is disgusting, so, no.

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You don't like sex?

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No, I like...

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sex. I like sex.

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Sex is fine.

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[scoffs]

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"Fine" isn't a ringing endorsement, but
I'll take some common ground where I can.

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- We have nothing in common.
- Ooh, that's cold.

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[Barb] What... What are you doing up here?

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Six feet at all times.
You both know the rules.

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Will, get back to your room.

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There you go.

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A little name for
your psychological profile.

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I'm Will Newman.

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And you are?

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Deaf.

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[Barb] Stella,
thank you for putting your mask on.

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Stella.

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You need to lighten up.

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It's just life.

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It'll be over before you know it.

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[sighs]

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[door closes]

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[Stella] So, he's a CFer?

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- B. cepacia.
- Mmm.

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Part of a new drug trial for Cevaflomalin.

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You contract that and you can...

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you can kiss the possibility
of new lungs good-bye.

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There's no coming back from that bacteria.

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Stay away.

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[monitors beeping]

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<i>Hello, world!</i>

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[Barb] Okay, AffloVest
for 30 more minutes, then you're all set.

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You need anything else
before I hit the road?

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Chocolate pudding for two?

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Oh, so, what? I'm room service now?

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[chuckles]
Gotta take advantage of the perks.

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[laughs]

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- [coughing]
- [vest vibrating]

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- [coughing]
- [Barb] Good.

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Good girl, good girl.

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All right, good. Right.

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- Right, sweetie.
- [coughing]

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- I'll see you tomorrow.
- Bye, Barb.

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Okay.

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[coughs]

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[Stella on video] <i>Like all kids
with cystic fibrosis, I was born terminal,</i>

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<i>which doesn't necessarily mean
I'm gonna die tomorrow,</i>

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<i>but I could die tomorrow.</i>

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<i>Anyone could die tomorrow.</i>

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<i>I just have a little bit less time
than everyone else.</i>

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<i>My lungs are at about
50% function right now.</i>

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<i>So at this rate,</i>

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<i>Dr. Hamid says that I'll need a transplant
by the time I'm a junior in high school.</i>

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<i>That'll be fun.</i> [chuckles]

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<i>Hi, guys! Shh!</i>

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<i>We're at the NICU</i>

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<i>because I'm obsessed with babies.</i>

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<i>- And Barb...
- Oh, no, no, no.</i>

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<i>The beautiful Barb is giving me permission
to come in here by myself now.</i>

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<i>Cystic fibrosis, as you know,
is a genetic disease</i>

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<i>that basically makes my body
produce a shit ton of mucus.</i>

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<i>Fun fact, I have to be extremely careful
around other people with CF.</i>

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<i>The rule is that we're not supposed
to get within six feet</i>

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<i>because we could end up
catching each other's bacteria.</i>

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<i>A lot of people
don't realize that new lungs</i>

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<i>generally only last about five years,</i>

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<i>which is okay actually because most of us</i>

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<i>are just trying to stay alive long enough
for a new treatment to come out.</i>

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- [vest vibrating]
<i>- Hi, g uys!</i>

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<i>Just chilling here in my new AffloVest,</i>

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<i>which is really cool because now
I don't have to be hooked up to the wall,</i>

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<i>which obviously I'm not because
I'm hanging upside down on my bed.</i>

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[laughing]

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<i>This is actually good
for getting the mucus up and stuff.</i>

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<i>I know. Cute, right?</i>

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[imitates vest vibrating]

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[laughs]

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[cell phone ringing]

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[reggae music plays on cell phone]

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<i>Dang, girl.</i>

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<i>You look worn.</i>

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<i>Who is he?</i>

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<i>Is it anyone I know?</i>

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[chuckles]

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[Stella] <i>What'd you get?</i>

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What? Are those truffles?
How'd you get truffles?

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<i>- Oh, you gotta bring them with, sister.</i>
- Wow.

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[chuckles] Look at how spicy
that food cart is.

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<i>I'm impressed.</i>

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<i>All right, let's talk about me.</i>

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I'm single!

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You broke up with Michael?

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<i>Maybe he broke up with me.</i>

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- Did he?
- It was mutual.

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No, it wasn't.

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<i>Why? You actually really liked him.</i>

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<i>And I thought he was gonna be the one.</i>

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He obviously isn't.

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<i>Screw him anyway, right?</i>

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At least you got to do that.

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[sputters, laughs]

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- Poe? Poe?
- [Poe gasping]

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- [Poe coughs]
- Poe?

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[phone ringing]

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00:15:11,077 --> 00:15:12,284
Poe?

244
00:15:12,787 --> 00:15:13,994
Poe, you okay?

245
00:15:14,080 --> 00:15:15,491
[Poe continues coughing]

246
00:15:15,581 --> 00:15:17,038
Choking, 310.

247
00:15:20,044 --> 00:15:21,751
[sighs] I'm sorry, Julie.

248
00:15:21,838 --> 00:15:23,670
- My leg hit the call button.
- [sighs]

249
00:15:23,965 --> 00:15:25,297
[Julie] You scared us, Poe.

250
00:15:25,883 --> 00:15:28,921
- Yeah, try chewing next time.
- Okay.

251
00:15:29,637 --> 00:15:30,753
Here, Stella.

252
00:15:32,265 --> 00:15:34,473
Enjoy your truffles, asshole.

253
00:15:34,559 --> 00:15:35,800
[Poe coughs]

254
00:15:36,894 --> 00:15:38,681
And please be careful.

255
00:15:39,021 --> 00:15:40,808
I love you, Stella!

256
00:15:40,898 --> 00:15:41,898
[door closes]

257
00:15:42,567 --> 00:15:45,560
[Dr. Hamid] Phase one clinical trials
only started only 18 months ago,

258
00:15:45,653 --> 00:15:46,985
so we need to be patient

259
00:15:47,071 --> 00:15:49,404
and Will needs to help us with that.

260
00:15:49,490 --> 00:15:51,982
The risk of cross infection
will be even higher now, so...

261
00:15:52,076 --> 00:15:54,910
Don't cough on any other CFers.

262
00:15:54,996 --> 00:15:59,832
Well, don't get close enough
to touch them for their safety and yours.

263
00:16:00,209 --> 00:16:02,872
[sighs] Six feet at all times. I got it.

264
00:16:05,214 --> 00:16:11,006
Will, in order for this to work,
you need to keep up with your regimen.

265
00:16:15,516 --> 00:16:17,508
- Okay, I will see you soon.
- All right.

266
00:16:20,646 --> 00:16:21,853
[door closes]

267
00:16:24,901 --> 00:16:26,358
[woman sighs]

268
00:16:46,380 --> 00:16:48,417
- [squeals]
- [Stella] Hi! Oh, my gosh!

269
00:16:48,508 --> 00:16:49,874
You're wearing the bathing suit!

270
00:16:49,967 --> 00:16:51,754
- [Maya shouts indistinctly]
- Hi, Maya!

271
00:16:51,844 --> 00:16:52,925
[girl] <i>Hi!</i>

272
00:16:53,012 --> 00:16:56,176
Oh, I'm officially jealous.
That looks so fun!

273
00:16:56,390 --> 00:16:58,390
- [girl] We miss you!
- [Maya] We miss you so much!

274
00:16:58,476 --> 00:17:01,810
- I miss you, too!
<i>- You have any cute boy visitors?</i>

275
00:17:02,480 --> 00:17:04,346
No. No, he's not cute.

276
00:17:04,732 --> 00:17:06,064
[Maya] <i>What?</i>

277
00:17:06,150 --> 00:17:07,311
<i>Boy?</i>

278
00:17:07,401 --> 00:17:09,267
- What?
- [both scream playfully]

279
00:17:09,487 --> 00:17:10,487
[laughs]

280
00:17:10,571 --> 00:17:12,437
- [Maya] <i>Show us! Show us!</i>
- [girl] <i>Come on!</i>

281
00:17:13,032 --> 00:17:14,273
[clears throat]

282
00:17:19,330 --> 00:17:21,993
[coughing]

283
00:17:32,093 --> 00:17:33,254
[grunts]

284
00:17:34,220 --> 00:17:36,052
[pants]

285
00:17:44,605 --> 00:17:45,766
[groans]

286
00:17:49,402 --> 00:17:50,734
[panting]

287
00:17:57,535 --> 00:18:00,118
What are you doing?
Do you have a death wish or something?

288
00:18:01,038 --> 00:18:02,119
[Will] Hey!

289
00:18:02,415 --> 00:18:03,826
My lungs are toast, okay?

290
00:18:03,916 --> 00:18:08,286
Can you just let me
enjoy this view while I can?

291
00:18:09,755 --> 00:18:11,963
Do you know how lucky you are to be here?

292
00:18:12,341 --> 00:18:14,708
To be a part of this drug trial?

293
00:18:15,970 --> 00:18:17,836
How do you know about my drug trial?

294
00:18:18,973 --> 00:18:20,464
You been asking about me?

295
00:18:20,850 --> 00:18:21,931
[scoffs]

296
00:18:23,185 --> 00:18:24,676
If you don't care,

297
00:18:25,605 --> 00:18:27,062
then leave.

298
00:18:27,732 --> 00:18:31,692
Give your spot to someone else.
Someone that wants it, that wants to live.

299
00:18:36,365 --> 00:18:37,651
Okay.

300
00:18:39,952 --> 00:18:41,409
What are you doing? Will?

301
00:18:41,495 --> 00:18:43,452
- [grunts]
- Will, no! Please get down!

302
00:18:43,539 --> 00:18:45,201
Will, stop, please!

303
00:18:45,291 --> 00:18:47,032
Please get down now!

304
00:18:47,418 --> 00:18:49,501
Will, stop! Oh, my God!

305
00:18:49,587 --> 00:18:50,998
[Will chuckles]

306
00:18:53,758 --> 00:18:54,874
God!

307
00:18:55,593 --> 00:18:56,629
[laughing] Relax!

308
00:19:01,599 --> 00:19:02,760
Fine.

309
00:19:04,268 --> 00:19:05,600
Stay up here then.

310
00:19:06,896 --> 00:19:08,603
Come on. It was a joke.

311
00:19:09,231 --> 00:19:11,018
Hey, it was a joke!

312
00:19:14,570 --> 00:19:15,856
[sighs]

313
00:19:23,162 --> 00:19:25,870
- [door rattling]
- [rock song playing]

314
00:20:02,827 --> 00:20:03,827
Damn it!

315
00:20:20,928 --> 00:20:22,214
[song stops]

316
00:20:26,767 --> 00:20:30,886
Where's your med cart, and your pills,
and why's your AffloVest on the floor?

317
00:20:30,980 --> 00:20:33,188
Can... Can I see your regimen?

318
00:20:34,024 --> 00:20:37,438
Uh... not that it's any of your business.

319
00:20:40,197 --> 00:20:41,404
[sighs]

320
00:20:45,745 --> 00:20:47,611
Is this... What?

321
00:20:49,373 --> 00:20:50,409
Why...

322
00:20:50,499 --> 00:20:52,081
Is this what an aneurysm looks like?

323
00:20:52,168 --> 00:20:54,125
- Why? Ugh!
- Hey!

324
00:20:55,171 --> 00:20:58,255
I get that you have some kind of
save-the-world hero complex going on,

325
00:20:58,340 --> 00:21:00,957
- but can you leave me out of it?
- These meds are not optional.

326
00:21:01,051 --> 00:21:03,543
That's probably why
they keep shoving them down my throat.

327
00:21:03,637 --> 00:21:05,094
You're making me crazy.

328
00:21:05,181 --> 00:21:08,299
[song resumes]

329
00:21:11,479 --> 00:21:13,095
- Hey.
- [elevator bell dings]

330
00:21:14,607 --> 00:21:15,893
Stella, come on!

331
00:21:17,610 --> 00:21:18,610
Six feet!

332
00:21:24,158 --> 00:21:26,070
- [song ends]
- [door opens]

333
00:21:28,412 --> 00:21:29,412
[door closes]

334
00:21:38,714 --> 00:21:43,004
I need you to follow your regimen
strictly and completely, please.

335
00:21:44,094 --> 00:21:45,301
Why don't...

336
00:21:45,387 --> 00:21:47,800
Why don't you tell me what's going on,
actually?

337
00:21:48,349 --> 00:21:51,433
Talk to me.
I'm not gonna make any jokes or laugh.

338
00:21:51,894 --> 00:21:53,010
[chuckles]

339
00:21:53,813 --> 00:21:55,850
I have control issues.

340
00:21:57,149 --> 00:22:00,233
And I need to know
that things are in order,

341
00:22:00,319 --> 00:22:02,185
and I know you're not
doing your treatments

342
00:22:02,279 --> 00:22:04,862
and it's really, really messing me up.

343
00:22:04,949 --> 00:22:07,441
Okay, I wanna help you.

344
00:22:08,035 --> 00:22:09,151
I do.

345
00:22:10,955 --> 00:22:13,242
I don't even know how to do
what you're asking me to.

346
00:22:13,332 --> 00:22:14,573
That's bullshit!

347
00:22:14,667 --> 00:22:18,035
That's bullshit! All CFers know
how to administer their own treatments.

348
00:22:18,128 --> 00:22:19,968
We're practically doctors
by the time we're 12.

349
00:22:20,047 --> 00:22:21,083
Are you serious?

350
00:22:21,173 --> 00:22:23,290
Am I actually messing you up?

351
00:22:23,551 --> 00:22:24,712
Yes.

352
00:22:26,220 --> 00:22:27,427
All right.

353
00:22:28,305 --> 00:22:29,466
I'll help you.

354
00:22:30,099 --> 00:22:31,431
But if I do,

355
00:22:34,311 --> 00:22:35,768
what's in it for me?

356
00:22:37,398 --> 00:22:39,060
No, not like... I...

357
00:22:39,567 --> 00:22:41,308
I wanna draw you.

358
00:22:42,570 --> 00:22:43,570
No.

359
00:22:43,654 --> 00:22:45,361
Why not? I'm serious.

360
00:22:46,282 --> 00:22:47,443
No.

361
00:22:52,037 --> 00:22:53,278
Okay.

362
00:22:54,456 --> 00:22:55,697
Then no deal.

363
00:22:56,166 --> 00:22:59,079
You really can't practice
just a little bit of discipline

364
00:22:59,169 --> 00:23:00,626
even to save your own life?

365
00:23:00,713 --> 00:23:03,376
Stella,
nothing is going to save our lives.

366
00:23:03,465 --> 00:23:05,331
We're breathing borrowed air.

367
00:23:06,719 --> 00:23:07,960
Enjoy it.

368
00:23:10,848 --> 00:23:11,964
[door opens]

369
00:23:13,893 --> 00:23:15,259
[door closes]

370
00:23:18,522 --> 00:23:19,638
[door opens]

371
00:23:22,860 --> 00:23:23,860
Fine.

372
00:23:23,944 --> 00:23:27,813
But I'm not posing for hours on end.
And your regimen, we're doing it my way.

373
00:23:27,907 --> 00:23:31,196
Okay, the first thing you're gonna do
is get a med cart in your room. Deal?

374
00:23:32,661 --> 00:23:34,948
Deal. Shake on it?

375
00:23:39,543 --> 00:23:40,659
Funny.

376
00:23:44,882 --> 00:23:45,882
[chuckles softly]

377
00:23:45,966 --> 00:23:47,298
[dings]

378
00:23:51,305 --> 00:23:53,638
- [crashing]
- [Poe] Ow. [laughing]

379
00:23:54,016 --> 00:23:56,349
[groaning] Shit!

380
00:23:59,355 --> 00:24:01,642
Oh, no, no, no.

381
00:24:03,025 --> 00:24:04,311
Hey.

382
00:24:06,695 --> 00:24:09,563
- You missed the show.
- Yeah. You doing stunts in there?

383
00:24:09,657 --> 00:24:11,523
Well, there's no better place
to break a leg.

384
00:24:12,034 --> 00:24:13,115
That's fair.

385
00:24:13,369 --> 00:24:14,576
I'm Will.

386
00:24:17,873 --> 00:24:18,989
I'm Poe.

387
00:24:20,417 --> 00:24:21,908
B. cepacia.

388
00:24:23,003 --> 00:24:24,369
Damn, that's rough.

389
00:24:25,422 --> 00:24:26,503
Yeah.

390
00:24:27,174 --> 00:24:29,006
So, no lung transplant for me.

391
00:24:29,093 --> 00:24:30,709
When did you contract it?

392
00:24:30,803 --> 00:24:33,136
About eight months ago now.
It colonized so quickly.

393
00:24:33,222 --> 00:24:35,930
I was on the transplant list
one minute and then...

394
00:24:37,977 --> 00:24:39,184
[scoffs]

395
00:24:39,478 --> 00:24:42,141
I'm sure that attitude
is what's giving Stella fits.

396
00:24:42,523 --> 00:24:43,855
Yeah, what's up with that?

397
00:24:43,941 --> 00:24:46,433
She told me that she has
control issues or something.

398
00:24:46,527 --> 00:24:49,941
[Poe] Call it what you want. She's got
her shit together. She keeps me in line.

399
00:24:50,406 --> 00:24:51,692
So, uh,

400
00:24:52,783 --> 00:24:54,194
have you two...

401
00:24:55,661 --> 00:24:57,869
[chuckles] No.

402
00:24:58,372 --> 00:24:59,658
No, no, no.

403
00:24:59,748 --> 00:25:02,365
I've known that girl
since I was, like, seven.

404
00:25:02,751 --> 00:25:04,538
I don't know, man.

405
00:25:04,628 --> 00:25:06,119
Sounds like you love her.

406
00:25:06,213 --> 00:25:07,545
Of course I love her.

407
00:25:07,756 --> 00:25:09,622
So, why haven't you done
anything about it?

408
00:25:10,217 --> 00:25:11,378
Because...

409
00:25:12,136 --> 00:25:13,798
she's not a he.

410
00:25:17,808 --> 00:25:18,969
[sighs]

411
00:25:19,059 --> 00:25:20,971
Don't worry. I don't like white boys.

412
00:25:21,061 --> 00:25:22,427
[Poe chuckles]

413
00:25:30,904 --> 00:25:34,898
Dr. Hamid said that you suddenly
wanna be responsible for your own regimen.

414
00:25:35,701 --> 00:25:37,567
Don't make me regret this.

415
00:25:48,338 --> 00:25:51,797
- Did you wipe everything down?
- Yes. This wasn't my idea, you know?

416
00:25:55,262 --> 00:25:56,719
[Stella] Are we still clear?

417
00:25:56,805 --> 00:25:58,296
Yes. Hurry up.

418
00:25:59,600 --> 00:26:01,136
[Stella] I'm almost done.

419
00:26:30,422 --> 00:26:31,503
[groans]

420
00:26:36,220 --> 00:26:38,553
Okay. Your med cart's all set up.

421
00:26:38,639 --> 00:26:40,471
I built an app for chronic illnesses.

422
00:26:40,557 --> 00:26:42,765
It'll alert you when to do
your treatments and...

423
00:26:42,851 --> 00:26:44,467
Built an app?

424
00:26:44,561 --> 00:26:46,143
Like you built it?

425
00:26:46,772 --> 00:26:47,888
[Stella] Surprise.

426
00:26:48,524 --> 00:26:49,731
It's pretty simple.

427
00:26:49,817 --> 00:26:51,353
You should be able to figure it out.

428
00:27:05,749 --> 00:27:07,331
[breathes heavily]

429
00:27:22,599 --> 00:27:26,218
[Poe] Okay, Stella. Don't tell me that the
one time you're interested in some guy,

430
00:27:26,311 --> 00:27:27,472
he's a CFer.

431
00:27:27,563 --> 00:27:29,930
I just helped him set up his med cart.

432
00:27:30,232 --> 00:27:32,189
That... That's it. That's all.

433
00:27:32,276 --> 00:27:33,767
I know you, Stella.

434
00:27:33,861 --> 00:27:36,069
Organizing a med cart is like foreplay.

435
00:27:37,990 --> 00:27:39,447
[line disconnects]

436
00:27:39,825 --> 00:27:41,566
[shouts] They're called manners!

437
00:27:43,620 --> 00:27:44,861
[laptop chimes]

438
00:27:49,251 --> 00:27:50,492
[cell phone ringing]

439
00:27:54,756 --> 00:27:56,622
<i>Are you doing your AffloVest?</i>

440
00:27:58,093 --> 00:27:59,254
Yeah.

441
00:27:59,678 --> 00:28:00,964
<i>Show me.</i>

442
00:28:01,597 --> 00:28:03,680
I can't. I'm half-naked.

443
00:28:04,057 --> 00:28:06,640
You're supposed to be
doing your AffloVest right now,

444
00:28:06,727 --> 00:28:08,013
and did you take your Creon?

445
00:28:08,645 --> 00:28:11,388
Are those the suppositories?

446
00:28:13,483 --> 00:28:14,483
Okay.

447
00:28:14,568 --> 00:28:18,107
<i>Okay, I can't trust you,
so this is how it's gonna work.</i>

448
00:28:18,197 --> 00:28:19,688
<i>We'll do our treatments together</i>

449
00:28:19,781 --> 00:28:22,569
so that way I know
you're actually doing them. Okay?

450
00:28:22,659 --> 00:28:26,198
<i>Always looking for ways to spend
more time with me, aren't you, Stella?</i>

451
00:28:26,288 --> 00:28:27,288
Bye.

452
00:28:28,332 --> 00:28:30,949
[Stella] I've been doing this
since I was a little kid.

453
00:28:31,043 --> 00:28:33,126
[upbeat indie song playing]

454
00:28:33,212 --> 00:28:36,372
So you just pour them all in the pudding
and stir it around. Are you doing that?

455
00:28:42,846 --> 00:28:45,054
[indistinct conversation]

456
00:28:57,819 --> 00:28:59,856
[imitates vest vibrating]

457
00:28:59,947 --> 00:29:02,064
- [indistinct]
- [song continues]

458
00:29:06,286 --> 00:29:09,324
[Stella imitates vest vibrating]

459
00:29:09,748 --> 00:29:13,708
[indistinct conversation continues]

460
00:29:28,100 --> 00:29:29,100
Good night.

461
00:29:31,061 --> 00:29:32,427
[song ends]

462
00:29:34,231 --> 00:29:36,473
The divorce diet
doesn't look good on you, Mom.

463
00:29:37,025 --> 00:29:38,141
What are you talking about?

464
00:29:38,235 --> 00:29:41,399
You're too thin. Dad needs a bath.
You guys are stealing my look.

465
00:29:42,072 --> 00:29:43,779
I'm stealing your look?

466
00:29:44,241 --> 00:29:46,733
- Mm-hmm.
- Okay, maybe I need this more than you do.

467
00:29:46,827 --> 00:29:48,910
- No!
- [laughing]

468
00:29:48,996 --> 00:29:50,453
- Oh, my God!
- Gross.

469
00:29:51,123 --> 00:29:52,534
How did that happen?

470
00:29:52,624 --> 00:29:54,035
How did it happen?

471
00:29:54,126 --> 00:29:56,584
Oh, man! We need napkins.

472
00:29:57,379 --> 00:29:58,961
Aw, here, honey.

473
00:30:18,317 --> 00:30:19,774
I love you so much.

474
00:30:21,862 --> 00:30:23,945
I know. I love you, too.

475
00:30:25,866 --> 00:30:28,108
I don't know what I'd do without you.

476
00:30:29,119 --> 00:30:30,485
[mom sniffles]

477
00:30:37,252 --> 00:30:38,413
How does it feel?

478
00:30:38,503 --> 00:30:40,665
[Stella] Not great. [chuckles]

479
00:30:41,923 --> 00:30:44,506
Let's try some Bactroban,
see how it looks in a day or two.

480
00:30:44,593 --> 00:30:46,050
Maybe we can clear it up, huh?

481
00:30:46,136 --> 00:30:47,877
[cell phone chimes]

482
00:30:48,722 --> 00:30:50,088
Oh. I'll be at the gym.

483
00:30:51,058 --> 00:30:52,058
Thanks, Doc!

484
00:30:52,059 --> 00:30:54,597
[panting]

485
00:30:54,686 --> 00:30:56,268
[coughs]

486
00:30:57,731 --> 00:31:00,314
- Hey, you know, this sucks.
- Mm-hmm.

487
00:31:00,400 --> 00:31:03,893
When does this deal of ours
become mutually beneficial?

488
00:31:05,155 --> 00:31:08,819
I've done everything you've asked
with no return on my investment.

489
00:31:10,410 --> 00:31:12,447
You really wanna draw me
after we work out?

490
00:31:12,537 --> 00:31:13,618
Yeah.

491
00:31:14,623 --> 00:31:15,659
No.

492
00:31:15,749 --> 00:31:18,708
I'm gross and sweaty and smell.

493
00:31:18,794 --> 00:31:20,751
"My hair is dirty.

494
00:31:20,837 --> 00:31:22,328
I'm too tired.

495
00:31:22,798 --> 00:31:24,755
My med cart is messy."

496
00:31:24,841 --> 00:31:25,957
Fine.

497
00:31:26,676 --> 00:31:28,759
I'll sweat harder then. Just for you.

498
00:31:30,263 --> 00:31:31,925
I'm going to draw that sweat.

499
00:31:33,058 --> 00:31:34,265
[Stella coughing]

500
00:31:42,109 --> 00:31:43,395
What's that?

501
00:31:44,027 --> 00:31:45,768
My to-do list.

502
00:31:45,862 --> 00:31:47,444
To-do list?

503
00:31:47,906 --> 00:31:50,819
That's pretty old-fashioned
for someone that builds apps.

504
00:31:51,410 --> 00:31:54,949
Yeah, well, the app doesn't give me
the satisfaction of doing...

505
00:31:55,872 --> 00:31:57,238
that.

506
00:32:01,294 --> 00:32:03,627
What else is on that to-do list of yours?

507
00:32:04,005 --> 00:32:05,837
My master list or my daily list?

508
00:32:05,924 --> 00:32:07,711
Yeah, of course you have two lists.

509
00:32:08,635 --> 00:32:10,627
The master list.
That's the big stuff, right?

510
00:32:11,930 --> 00:32:12,930
Okay.

511
00:32:13,014 --> 00:32:15,722
"Volunteer in an important
political campaign."

512
00:32:15,809 --> 00:32:16,845
Done.

513
00:32:16,935 --> 00:32:19,598
"Study all the works of
William Shakespeare." Done.

514
00:32:20,021 --> 00:32:22,229
"Share everything I know
about CF with other people."

515
00:32:22,315 --> 00:32:23,556
That's my YouTube page.

516
00:32:23,650 --> 00:32:26,563
So, your plan is to die really smart

517
00:32:27,112 --> 00:32:29,980
so that you can join the debate team
of the dead or something?

518
00:32:30,740 --> 00:32:32,527
What about traveling the world?

519
00:32:38,957 --> 00:32:40,573
"Learn to play piano."

520
00:32:40,959 --> 00:32:42,245
Done.

521
00:32:42,335 --> 00:32:44,201
"Speak fluent French."

522
00:32:44,796 --> 00:32:46,537
[speaking French]

523
00:32:47,424 --> 00:32:49,086
Can you look at me for a sec?

524
00:32:50,343 --> 00:32:51,459
You wanna hear my list?

525
00:32:51,553 --> 00:32:52,669
No.

526
00:32:53,597 --> 00:32:55,680
Painting class with Bob Ross.

527
00:32:57,893 --> 00:33:00,431
He's dead.

528
00:33:00,520 --> 00:33:02,807
Yeah, never mind. Uh...

529
00:33:03,815 --> 00:33:05,306
Sex in the Vatican.

530
00:33:05,817 --> 00:33:08,651
[sighs] I'd rather help you meet Bob Ross.

531
00:33:10,655 --> 00:33:11,862
I don't know.

532
00:33:13,283 --> 00:33:15,149
I'd like to travel the world.

533
00:33:16,036 --> 00:33:17,993
Actually get to see some of it and not...

534
00:33:18,997 --> 00:33:20,989
from the inside of these hospitals.

535
00:33:28,131 --> 00:33:29,338
[Stella] Thank you.

536
00:33:30,759 --> 00:33:31,759
For what?

537
00:33:33,178 --> 00:33:34,794
For saying something real.

538
00:33:39,518 --> 00:33:41,009
Was it the Vatican thing?

539
00:33:42,312 --> 00:33:43,473
Can you hurry up?

540
00:34:02,290 --> 00:34:05,078
<i>Okay. I just thought you might want
to know how this feels. You ready?</i>

541
00:34:05,168 --> 00:34:06,909
<i>And I brought a jumping buddy.</i>

542
00:34:07,462 --> 00:34:09,169
<i>Don't worry. I'll hold him tight.</i>

543
00:34:10,090 --> 00:34:12,127
<i>All right, Abby,
ready to jump out of a plane?</i>

544
00:34:12,217 --> 00:34:15,210
<i>Ready! Happy birthday, Stella.</i>

545
00:34:15,303 --> 00:34:16,794
[Abby screaming]

546
00:34:19,432 --> 00:34:21,515
[Abby continues screaming]

547
00:34:29,651 --> 00:34:31,688
<i>I love you, Stella. I'll see you soon.</i>

548
00:34:32,487 --> 00:34:33,728
[Stella] I love you, too.

549
00:34:36,533 --> 00:34:37,899
[clatters]

550
00:34:45,417 --> 00:34:47,409
I like seeing you like this.

551
00:34:47,502 --> 00:34:48,868
Like what?

552
00:34:48,962 --> 00:34:50,294
Hopeful.

553
00:34:52,591 --> 00:34:53,707
All right.

554
00:34:55,760 --> 00:34:56,921
Hey, Julie.

555
00:35:00,724 --> 00:35:02,260
What if this doesn't work?

556
00:35:03,977 --> 00:35:05,468
What if it does?

557
00:35:15,905 --> 00:35:17,942
[sketching]

558
00:35:32,464 --> 00:35:33,671
[chuckles]

559
00:35:38,762 --> 00:35:40,845
[laughing]

560
00:35:45,560 --> 00:35:47,017
Ha-ha!

561
00:35:47,103 --> 00:35:48,810
[laptop ringing]

562
00:35:53,818 --> 00:35:55,184
<i>Why cartoons?</i>

563
00:35:55,862 --> 00:35:57,353
<i>They're subversive.</i>

564
00:35:58,365 --> 00:36:01,483
<i>They can be light and funny
but pack a powerful punch.</i>

565
00:36:01,576 --> 00:36:05,069
<i>I think a well-drawn cartoon
can say a lot more than words ever could.</i>

566
00:36:05,163 --> 00:36:06,324
Yeah?

567
00:36:06,414 --> 00:36:08,531
<i>What does this say exactly?</i>

568
00:36:09,292 --> 00:36:12,535
A lot more than words ever could.

569
00:36:13,046 --> 00:36:14,878
<i>I think it's actually pretty good.</i>

570
00:36:15,256 --> 00:36:17,293
<i>I think that's really good. Behind you.</i>

571
00:36:17,384 --> 00:36:18,670
<i>What is that?</i>

572
00:36:19,219 --> 00:36:21,211
<i>Oh, those are lungs. That's brilliant.</i>

573
00:36:21,304 --> 00:36:22,465
<i>Did you do that?</i>

574
00:36:22,555 --> 00:36:25,389
Uh, no, my older sister, Abby.

575
00:36:25,475 --> 00:36:26,807
<i>Wow. She's really good.</i>

576
00:36:26,893 --> 00:36:29,306
I'd love to see more of her stuff.
Do you have any?

577
00:36:31,272 --> 00:36:35,016
<i>We don't have to, uh,
share our stories, okay?</i>

578
00:36:35,110 --> 00:36:37,067
<i>We can just do our treatments together.</i>

579
00:36:37,946 --> 00:36:39,482
[beeps]

580
00:36:40,031 --> 00:36:41,317
[scoffs]

581
00:36:44,452 --> 00:36:47,786
[Stella] <i>Hey, guys!
I have to get a nasal poly...</i>

582
00:36:47,872 --> 00:36:49,238
Polypectomy.

583
00:36:49,332 --> 00:36:51,449
We're removing polyps
from your nasal passages.

584
00:36:51,543 --> 00:36:52,909
And Stella's nervous.

585
00:36:53,002 --> 00:36:54,959
But I'm gonna be there
to sing her to sleep.

586
00:36:55,046 --> 00:36:56,662
Just like always. [chuckles]

587
00:36:56,756 --> 00:36:59,339
<i>♪ I love you a bushel and a peck ♪</i>

588
00:36:59,426 --> 00:37:02,169
<i>- ♪ A bushel and a peck ♪</i>
- Don't sing the whole thing yet.

589
00:37:02,262 --> 00:37:04,115
- You're gonna jinx it. Shh!
<i>- ♪ A hug around the neck ♪</i>

590
00:37:04,139 --> 00:37:05,366
<i>- ♪ And a barrel and a heap ♪</i>
- You're gonna jinx it.

591
00:37:05,390 --> 00:37:08,929
<i>♪ And a barrel and a heap
And I'm talkin' in my sleep about you ♪</i>

592
00:37:09,811 --> 00:37:11,097
But seriously.

593
00:37:11,521 --> 00:37:14,935
I'm gonna be there when you go to sleep
and I'll be right here when you wake up.

594
00:37:16,985 --> 00:37:18,192
Okay?

595
00:37:19,237 --> 00:37:20,444
Okay.

596
00:37:21,448 --> 00:37:22,984
I love you.

597
00:37:23,074 --> 00:37:24,315
I love you, too.

598
00:37:24,409 --> 00:37:26,321
<i>My sister, Abby, ladies and gentlemen.</i>

599
00:37:26,411 --> 00:37:28,403
<i>- She's single, by the way.
- Okay, stop it!</i>

600
00:37:28,496 --> 00:37:30,078
<i>- Her digits are...
- Stop it!</i>

601
00:37:30,707 --> 00:37:31,914
That was last year.

602
00:37:32,000 --> 00:37:34,492
Abby's not in any of
the videos after that.

603
00:37:34,586 --> 00:37:37,750
I found Abby's Instagram.
I mean, it's mostly art,

604
00:37:37,839 --> 00:37:39,831
her and Stella, but you're right.

605
00:37:40,550 --> 00:37:42,633
She hasn't posted in, like, a year.

606
00:37:49,434 --> 00:37:50,595
[door opens]

607
00:37:54,856 --> 00:37:57,189
Barb didn't see you come in, did she?

608
00:37:57,275 --> 00:37:58,516
No.

609
00:38:10,622 --> 00:38:12,204
Abby's dead, isn't she?

610
00:38:16,211 --> 00:38:17,873
You're as delicate as a jackhammer.

611
00:38:18,671 --> 00:38:21,630
We don't have time for delicacy, Stella.
We're dying.

612
00:38:22,801 --> 00:38:25,965
Can you stop reminding me that I'm dying?

613
00:38:26,679 --> 00:38:28,921
I get it. I get that.

614
00:38:29,015 --> 00:38:30,426
- Okay? I just can't.
- Okay.

615
00:38:30,517 --> 00:38:32,634
I have been dying my whole life.

616
00:38:32,727 --> 00:38:35,720
Every birthday, we celebrated it
like it was my last one.

617
00:38:35,814 --> 00:38:37,271
- I know. Me, too.
- You don't know.

618
00:38:37,357 --> 00:38:40,270
Because then, yeah,
as you pointed out, Abby died.

619
00:38:42,737 --> 00:38:44,399
And then my parents' marriage died.

620
00:38:44,489 --> 00:38:46,606
And it was supposed to be me.

621
00:38:46,699 --> 00:38:49,942
Everyone was ready for that.
Everyone was prepared for that.

622
00:38:50,036 --> 00:38:51,993
I just... I can't die.

623
00:38:53,957 --> 00:38:56,290
I just... My parents... I can't.

624
00:38:57,293 --> 00:38:59,580
Is this why you're so obsessed
with your regimen?

625
00:39:00,588 --> 00:39:03,422
Y-You're not afraid of dying.
You have survivor's guilt.

626
00:39:03,508 --> 00:39:05,921
- Will?
- You're a sick girl with survivor's guilt.

627
00:39:06,010 --> 00:39:08,218
- This is out of your control.
- Look, look, Will.

628
00:39:08,304 --> 00:39:10,796
I just don't have any other choice, okay?

629
00:39:10,890 --> 00:39:13,450
- That's what I'm trying to tell you...
- I don't! Will, I don't.

630
00:39:15,186 --> 00:39:16,848
Okay, Stella. Hey, I'm sorry.

631
00:39:16,938 --> 00:39:19,271
We're supposed to be medita...
Stella, come on!

632
00:39:21,568 --> 00:39:23,150
[Poe] <i>You knew he had boundary issues.</i>

633
00:39:23,236 --> 00:39:25,979
For what it's worth, I don't
think he meant to hurt you.

634
00:39:26,072 --> 00:39:27,483
Yeah, but it's still annoying.

635
00:39:27,574 --> 00:39:31,238
Like, he said "Abby" and "dead" in
the same sentence like it was no big deal.

636
00:39:34,414 --> 00:39:35,746
[sighs]

637
00:39:37,709 --> 00:39:39,416
I should've been there.

638
00:39:39,502 --> 00:39:42,415
- I should've been there.
- Stop. Stella.

639
00:39:43,840 --> 00:39:45,376
Stella, look at me.

640
00:39:45,884 --> 00:39:47,546
You can't know.

641
00:39:47,635 --> 00:39:49,467
You just can't.

642
00:39:49,554 --> 00:39:51,420
[sighs] Stop torturing yourself.

643
00:39:52,640 --> 00:39:54,677
Oh, this disease is a prison.

644
00:39:55,226 --> 00:39:57,058
I wanna hug you.

645
00:39:58,563 --> 00:40:00,805
Just pretend that I'm doing it right now.

646
00:40:03,526 --> 00:40:04,607
I love you.

647
00:40:06,070 --> 00:40:07,186
I love you, too.

648
00:40:09,782 --> 00:40:11,239
You wanna get ice cream?

649
00:40:11,326 --> 00:40:13,113
- Yes.
- Come on.

650
00:40:14,746 --> 00:40:17,784
[line ringing]

651
00:40:17,874 --> 00:40:19,615
[line beeps]

652
00:40:35,266 --> 00:40:38,100
[Dr. Hamid] If the infection
gets into the bloodstream...

653
00:40:41,356 --> 00:40:42,597
Hey.

654
00:40:44,108 --> 00:40:45,474
It's gonna be okay.

655
00:40:45,568 --> 00:40:46,900
You don't know that.

656
00:40:47,570 --> 00:40:50,313
You're right. I don't. It's risky.

657
00:40:51,032 --> 00:40:53,319
But sepsis is the bigger monster.

658
00:40:55,453 --> 00:40:56,660
Hey.

659
00:40:58,081 --> 00:40:59,743
You're a fighter, Stella Grant.

660
00:40:59,832 --> 00:41:01,573
You always have been.

661
00:41:05,213 --> 00:41:06,329
So...

662
00:41:07,674 --> 00:41:08,835
Yeah?

663
00:41:09,217 --> 00:41:10,298
Yeah.

664
00:41:11,678 --> 00:41:13,044
Tomorrow morning, then.

665
00:41:15,181 --> 00:41:16,717
I'll let your parents know.

666
00:41:17,642 --> 00:41:18,928
[door opens]

667
00:41:20,353 --> 00:41:21,719
[door closes]

668
00:41:27,068 --> 00:41:28,149
[sighs]

669
00:41:57,598 --> 00:42:01,057
[soft indie song playing]

670
00:42:09,777 --> 00:42:10,938
Hey.

671
00:42:12,572 --> 00:42:13,608
You're here.

672
00:42:14,532 --> 00:42:15,568
I'm here.

673
00:42:15,658 --> 00:42:17,991
I got your cartoon.
You're forgiven. Back up.

674
00:42:21,497 --> 00:42:23,177
You missed our treatment. What's going on?

675
00:42:23,249 --> 00:42:25,081
Infected G-tube.

676
00:42:26,002 --> 00:42:29,541
Dr. Hamid's worried about sepsis,
so she's replacing it in the morning.

677
00:42:30,339 --> 00:42:32,626
- I'm going under general.
- Shit.

678
00:42:32,717 --> 00:42:34,458
Are your lungs up for that?

679
00:42:36,179 --> 00:42:39,889
Do your nebulizer at 8:00,
and your AffloVest, okay?

680
00:42:40,516 --> 00:42:41,516
[door closes]

681
00:42:55,406 --> 00:42:57,648
[song continues]

682
00:43:36,531 --> 00:43:37,817
- [song ends]
- [door opens]

683
00:43:46,624 --> 00:43:48,081
What are you doing here?

684
00:43:49,043 --> 00:43:50,705
I thought this was the bathroom.
Honestly.

685
00:43:50,795 --> 00:43:52,206
[laughs]

686
00:43:52,296 --> 00:43:54,253
It's your first surgery without Abby.

687
00:43:55,716 --> 00:43:57,127
How do you know that?

688
00:43:57,218 --> 00:43:58,709
I've seen all your movies.

689
00:44:00,138 --> 00:44:01,504
Some might say

690
00:44:02,181 --> 00:44:03,547
I'm your biggest fan.

691
00:44:03,641 --> 00:44:06,679
So, I really hope
that I don't mess this up.

692
00:44:10,815 --> 00:44:14,058
<i>♪ I love you a bushel and a peck ♪</i>

693
00:44:14,485 --> 00:44:15,896
<i>- ♪ A bushel and a peck ♪</i>
- Go away.

694
00:44:15,987 --> 00:44:18,104
<i>- ♪ And a hug around the neck ♪</i>
- Go away.

695
00:44:18,197 --> 00:44:21,690
<i>♪ A hug around the neck
And a barrel and a heap ♪</i>

696
00:44:21,784 --> 00:44:23,241
<i>♪ A barrel and a heap ♪</i>

697
00:44:23,327 --> 00:44:26,570
<i>♪ And I'm talkin' in my sleep about you ♪</i>

698
00:44:28,583 --> 00:44:30,745
Our grandma used to sing that to us.

699
00:44:30,835 --> 00:44:33,873
I had to Google it. It's really old.

700
00:44:33,963 --> 00:44:34,963
I know.

701
00:44:35,047 --> 00:44:36,163
What the heck's...

702
00:44:36,257 --> 00:44:38,044
- a barrel and a heap?
- Barrel and a heap?

703
00:44:38,134 --> 00:44:39,796
- Yeah.
- [laughs]

704
00:44:47,977 --> 00:44:49,343
You're gonna be okay.

705
00:44:50,104 --> 00:44:51,436
Promise?

706
00:44:56,611 --> 00:44:57,943
- [both kiss]
- [door opens]

707
00:44:58,863 --> 00:45:00,070
Hey.

708
00:45:00,948 --> 00:45:03,235
You ready to get this show on the road?

709
00:45:03,743 --> 00:45:04,824
[mouthing] Yeah.

710
00:45:16,547 --> 00:45:18,413
Oh, hell, no!

711
00:45:18,507 --> 00:45:19,707
- Will!
- [elevator bell dings]

712
00:45:24,096 --> 00:45:25,428
She was scared.

713
00:45:25,973 --> 00:45:27,635
I just wanted to do something nice.

714
00:45:27,725 --> 00:45:29,091
[elevator bell dings]

715
00:45:32,521 --> 00:45:34,012
- Come on!
- [sighs]

716
00:45:34,774 --> 00:45:38,358
She's in more danger under the anesthesia
than she is with me.

717
00:45:42,823 --> 00:45:44,064
Trevor Von.

718
00:45:45,368 --> 00:45:48,156
[chuckles]
That's who you remind me of.

719
00:45:48,246 --> 00:45:50,829
Trevor Von and Amy Presley.

720
00:45:50,915 --> 00:45:52,781
Oh, they were...

721
00:45:52,875 --> 00:45:54,457
They were in love.

722
00:45:55,920 --> 00:45:58,628
And I let them break the rules
so they could be happy.

723
00:45:59,006 --> 00:46:00,463
And let me guess.

724
00:46:01,425 --> 00:46:02,425
They died?

725
00:46:02,510 --> 00:46:04,422
Yes, Will, they did.

726
00:46:06,764 --> 00:46:08,630
On my watch.

727
00:46:11,519 --> 00:46:14,353
And I'll be damned
if I let that happen again.

728
00:46:18,693 --> 00:46:20,605
[door opens, closes]

729
00:46:32,832 --> 00:46:35,119
[monitor beeping]

730
00:46:36,961 --> 00:46:38,702
It's gonna be okay.

731
00:46:57,356 --> 00:46:58,642
You know what to do.

732
00:46:58,733 --> 00:46:59,974
Mm-hmm.

733
00:47:01,944 --> 00:47:04,561
[both] Ten, nine...

734
00:47:05,239 --> 00:47:06,480
[Stella]...eight,

735
00:47:07,283 --> 00:47:08,649
seven...

736
00:47:09,327 --> 00:47:10,327
six...

737
00:47:10,411 --> 00:47:12,073
[anesthesiologist] Shh.

738
00:47:15,249 --> 00:47:19,038
[Abby singing, faint]

739
00:47:46,447 --> 00:47:47,688
Hmm.

740
00:47:58,376 --> 00:47:59,583
[chuckles softly]

741
00:48:03,047 --> 00:48:04,254
[gasps]

742
00:48:05,341 --> 00:48:07,754
Oh... [gasps]

743
00:48:30,658 --> 00:48:34,026
[cell phone vibrating]

744
00:48:41,210 --> 00:48:43,668
[Stella] Hi, it's me.

745
00:48:44,296 --> 00:48:48,540
[groggily] Call me
'cause I miss you, okay?

746
00:48:49,343 --> 00:48:53,132
But don't call me, 'cause I just
got out of surgery and I'm really tired.

747
00:48:53,806 --> 00:48:57,015
But call me though when
you get this because...

748
00:48:58,269 --> 00:48:59,385
you're cute.

749
00:48:59,478 --> 00:49:02,346
<i>And I wanna see you</i>

750
00:49:03,357 --> 00:49:05,815
<i>and your fluffy little hair</i>

751
00:49:06,986 --> 00:49:10,525
and your little skinny legs. [chuckles]

752
00:49:10,614 --> 00:49:11,900
Okay?

753
00:49:12,575 --> 00:49:14,487
<i>Don't call me, though, because...</i>

754
00:49:15,369 --> 00:49:18,953
<i>if I hear your sexy voice,
I won't be able to sleep, so...</i>

755
00:49:20,541 --> 00:49:23,079
<i>Call me when you get this, okay?</i>

756
00:49:24,503 --> 00:49:25,835
<i>Bye.</i>

757
00:49:27,756 --> 00:49:30,169
[pop song playing]

758
00:50:04,710 --> 00:50:06,702
[song continues]

759
00:50:36,075 --> 00:50:37,737
[song ends]

760
00:50:41,539 --> 00:50:43,030
Will's not coming.

761
00:50:45,209 --> 00:50:46,416
Will?

762
00:50:48,003 --> 00:50:50,086
I'm not leaving until you open the door.

763
00:50:54,134 --> 00:50:55,341
[Will] I can't.

764
00:50:58,430 --> 00:51:01,138
Just please open the door
and we can talk about this.

765
00:51:01,225 --> 00:51:03,433
Okay? I don't care what Barb said, just...

766
00:51:03,894 --> 00:51:05,101
open the door.

767
00:51:05,187 --> 00:51:06,849
- [turns door handle]
- Stella...

768
00:51:07,273 --> 00:51:08,389
I can't.

769
00:51:08,482 --> 00:51:09,939
Will, come on.

770
00:51:23,914 --> 00:51:25,371
Go away, Stella.

771
00:51:30,045 --> 00:51:31,661
[Poe] Maybe it's better this way.

772
00:51:31,755 --> 00:51:33,917
[Stella] No, I can figure this out.

773
00:51:34,008 --> 00:51:35,544
I need to figure this out.

774
00:51:35,634 --> 00:51:37,341
We're not normal kids.

775
00:51:38,596 --> 00:51:40,337
We don't get to take chances like this.

776
00:51:40,431 --> 00:51:42,844
Oh, come on. You're not gonna
give me that, too?

777
00:51:42,933 --> 00:51:44,799
Admit what's going on here.

778
00:51:44,893 --> 00:51:46,885
Will's a risk-taker, just like Abby.

779
00:51:48,606 --> 00:51:50,142
What's that supposed to mean?

780
00:51:52,026 --> 00:51:54,860
You think that I'm the one
that's afraid to take risks?

781
00:51:55,529 --> 00:51:58,647
What about you and your life
and your relationships?

782
00:51:58,741 --> 00:52:00,824
You and Tim, you and Rick,
you and Michael.

783
00:52:00,909 --> 00:52:02,775
- Don't go there.
- Oh, I could keep going.

784
00:52:02,870 --> 00:52:05,078
They knew you were sick
and they loved you.

785
00:52:05,164 --> 00:52:08,453
- You were the one who ran.
- You don't know what you're talking about.

786
00:52:08,542 --> 00:52:10,829
You ruined every chance
you've ever had at love,

787
00:52:10,919 --> 00:52:12,706
so just keep your advice to yourself.

788
00:52:19,219 --> 00:52:21,632
[mellow song playing]

789
00:53:07,726 --> 00:53:09,058
[knocking]

790
00:53:34,294 --> 00:53:35,830
- [song ends]
- [laughs]

791
00:53:36,964 --> 00:53:38,125
Bitch.

792
00:53:38,590 --> 00:53:39,831
Asshole.

793
00:53:41,844 --> 00:53:43,460
You know, you're right.

794
00:53:44,388 --> 00:53:45,720
I am afraid.

795
00:53:46,473 --> 00:53:48,465
You know what someone gets for loving me?

796
00:53:49,059 --> 00:53:53,099
They get to pay for all my care,
and then they get to watch me die.

797
00:53:54,773 --> 00:53:58,107
Deductibles, meds,
hospital stays, surgeries.

798
00:53:58,193 --> 00:54:01,152
When I turn 18,
there's no more full coverage.

799
00:54:01,530 --> 00:54:03,066
Who should I put that on?

800
00:54:03,157 --> 00:54:05,069
Michael or my family?

801
00:54:05,993 --> 00:54:07,700
It's my sickness, it's my problem.

802
00:54:10,330 --> 00:54:12,788
Maybe we can get Will to marry you.
He's loaded.

803
00:54:14,460 --> 00:54:16,372
He's not picky. He likes you.

804
00:54:17,838 --> 00:54:19,704
[both chuckle]

805
00:54:21,967 --> 00:54:23,333
I am sorry...

806
00:54:24,762 --> 00:54:26,298
about you and Will.

807
00:54:41,028 --> 00:54:42,644
Stella?

808
00:54:44,531 --> 00:54:45,738
What?

809
00:54:47,993 --> 00:54:49,325
Stella?

810
00:54:51,580 --> 00:54:53,617
[vest vibrating]

811
00:54:57,586 --> 00:54:59,122
[vibrating stops]

812
00:55:11,558 --> 00:55:12,799
[laptop chimes]

813
00:55:20,776 --> 00:55:21,983
<i>Hello.</i>

814
00:55:22,069 --> 00:55:26,313
<i>There is something a little bit different
I want to talk about today.</i>

815
00:55:26,990 --> 00:55:29,073
Burkholderia cepacia.

816
00:55:29,868 --> 00:55:32,326
<i>The risks, the restrictions,</i>

817
00:55:32,412 --> 00:55:34,950
<i>and the rules of engagement.</i>

818
00:55:35,040 --> 00:55:39,626
B. cepacia is a hardy bacteria.

819
00:55:39,711 --> 00:55:45,082
Okay? It is so adaptive
that it literally feeds on penicillin.

820
00:55:45,759 --> 00:55:48,923
So, our first line of defense is...

821
00:55:49,555 --> 00:55:53,469
Cal Stat, a hospital-grade
hand sterilizer.

822
00:55:53,976 --> 00:55:56,969
<i>Apply liberally and often.</i>

823
00:55:57,062 --> 00:56:01,432
Next is good old-fashioned latex!

824
00:56:01,525 --> 00:56:03,983
<i>Tried and true.</i>

825
00:56:04,069 --> 00:56:07,278
<i>Used for protection
in all types of activities.</i>

826
00:56:08,323 --> 00:56:13,318
<i>B. cepacia thrives best
in saliva or phlegm.</i>

827
00:56:13,412 --> 00:56:16,075
<i>Fun fact, a cough can travel six feet,</i>

828
00:56:16,164 --> 00:56:19,202
<i>a sneeze can travel
up to 200 miles per hour.</i>

829
00:56:19,293 --> 00:56:24,664
But the "no saliva" thing
also means no kissing.

830
00:56:25,507 --> 00:56:26,543
Ever.

831
00:56:27,259 --> 00:56:30,002
<i>So, our best defense is distance.</i>

832
00:56:30,596 --> 00:56:33,134
<i>Six feet at all times.</i>

833
00:56:33,932 --> 00:56:35,548
<i>Ta-da!</i>

834
00:56:35,976 --> 00:56:37,262
<i>Here's a pool cue.</i>

835
00:56:37,352 --> 00:56:40,140
<i>It measures approximately five feet.</i>

836
00:56:41,481 --> 00:56:43,347
<i>Five feet.</i>

837
00:56:43,442 --> 00:56:46,276
I've given a lot of thought
to foot number six.

838
00:56:47,321 --> 00:56:49,358
And you know what? It made me mad.

839
00:56:50,490 --> 00:56:54,530
<i>When you have cystic fibrosis,
so much is taken from you.</i>

840
00:56:55,162 --> 00:56:56,869
<i>You live every day of your life</i>

841
00:56:56,955 --> 00:56:59,413
<i>according to treatments,
and pills, and schedules.</i>

842
00:56:59,499 --> 00:57:01,286
<i>Most of us can't have children.</i>

843
00:57:01,710 --> 00:57:04,794
<i>A lot of us don't even live long enough
to try to have children.</i>

844
00:57:04,880 --> 00:57:08,373
<i>Shit, it's complicated to try to explain,</i>

845
00:57:08,467 --> 00:57:12,051
<i>but it's even hard to fall in love.</i>

846
00:57:14,056 --> 00:57:17,220
<i>So, after all that CF has stolen from me,</i>

847
00:57:17,976 --> 00:57:19,183
<i>from us,</i>

848
00:57:19,269 --> 00:57:22,057
<i>I don't mind stealing
a little something back.</i>

849
00:57:23,148 --> 00:57:24,514
One foot.

850
00:57:25,609 --> 00:57:27,316
One fucking foot

851
00:57:27,986 --> 00:57:30,945
of space, of distance,
of length, or whatever you wanna call it.

852
00:57:31,031 --> 00:57:33,318
I don't mind stealing that back.

853
00:57:34,076 --> 00:57:35,658
Because CF...

854
00:57:38,121 --> 00:57:39,908
you're not the thief anymore.

855
00:57:40,582 --> 00:57:41,993
I'm the thief now.

856
00:57:42,084 --> 00:57:43,620
[imitates explosion]

857
00:57:44,169 --> 00:57:45,535
[whoops]

858
00:57:45,629 --> 00:57:47,996
[shouts]

859
00:57:48,090 --> 00:57:49,626
[banging on door]

860
00:57:55,514 --> 00:57:56,880
Five feet apart.

861
00:57:57,432 --> 00:57:58,513
Deal?

862
00:58:01,687 --> 00:58:02,973
Are you in?

863
00:58:14,157 --> 00:58:15,568
I'm so in.

864
00:58:20,872 --> 00:58:23,159
Atrium. 9:00.

865
00:58:30,298 --> 00:58:32,005
[groans]

866
00:58:34,302 --> 00:58:36,043
Why didn't I pack anything nice?

867
00:58:36,138 --> 00:58:39,722
Oh, 'cause you always pack
for a hot hospital romance.

868
00:58:40,517 --> 00:58:41,883
[groans]

869
00:58:50,902 --> 00:58:52,518
[sprays]

870
00:59:08,712 --> 00:59:10,248
Is this see-through?

871
00:59:11,256 --> 00:59:13,043
Don't even think about it, ho.

872
00:59:29,399 --> 00:59:30,890
[elevator bell dings]

873
00:59:45,832 --> 00:59:47,323
Hi.

874
00:59:48,251 --> 00:59:49,367
Hi.

875
01:00:13,068 --> 01:00:15,276
[Will] He cut and ran when I was born.

876
01:00:15,362 --> 01:00:17,854
I guess having a sick kid
wasn't part of his plan.

877
01:00:18,532 --> 01:00:19,943
What about your mom?

878
01:00:20,033 --> 01:00:22,867
She's beautiful and driven and smart.

879
01:00:22,953 --> 01:00:26,788
She's just focused on me and me alone.

880
01:00:28,291 --> 01:00:32,376
So, starting tomorrow, when I'm 18,
I will be making the decisions for myself.

881
01:00:32,754 --> 01:00:34,211
Wait, wait, wait, wait.

882
01:00:34,881 --> 01:00:36,167
Tomorrow's your birthday?

883
01:00:37,843 --> 01:00:41,007
You could have told me that.
I don't have a present for you.

884
01:00:42,764 --> 01:00:45,802
How about you just promise
to stick around for the next one?

885
01:00:49,229 --> 01:00:50,310
- Come on.
- [laughing]

886
01:00:51,815 --> 01:00:53,477
- I'm getting out of here.
- [laughs]

887
01:00:56,361 --> 01:00:58,193
There is this one theory I like

888
01:00:58,697 --> 01:01:01,656
that says, "To understand death,
you have to look at birth."

889
01:01:03,118 --> 01:01:04,734
So, like,

890
01:01:05,120 --> 01:01:09,080
while we're in the womb,
we're living that existence,

891
01:01:09,166 --> 01:01:13,627
not knowing that our next existence
is just an inch away.

892
01:01:14,296 --> 01:01:17,380
So, maybe it's the same with death.

893
01:01:17,465 --> 01:01:22,631
Maybe death is just the next life,
but an inch away.

894
01:01:24,055 --> 01:01:27,799
Or maybe it's just a big sleep, baby.

895
01:01:29,144 --> 01:01:30,385
Lights out.

896
01:01:31,104 --> 01:01:32,265
Done and done.

897
01:01:32,981 --> 01:01:34,142
No.

898
01:01:36,943 --> 01:01:38,525
No, there's no way that...

899
01:01:40,030 --> 01:01:43,364
Abby just blinked out.

900
01:01:43,450 --> 01:01:45,032
I refuse to believe it.

901
01:01:46,828 --> 01:01:49,241
What happened with Abby?

902
01:01:53,835 --> 01:01:56,748
She was cliff diving in California.

903
01:01:57,923 --> 01:02:00,506
She landed wrong,
broke her neck and drowned.

904
01:02:04,471 --> 01:02:06,679
They said she didn't feel any pain, but...

905
01:02:08,391 --> 01:02:10,508
how would they know if she felt pain?

906
01:02:11,853 --> 01:02:15,017
I was supposed to be there
with her, but I got sick.

907
01:02:15,482 --> 01:02:17,269
Like I always do.

908
01:02:19,569 --> 01:02:22,562
I just keep imagining it
over and over again,

909
01:02:23,782 --> 01:02:25,114
what she was feeling.

910
01:02:28,787 --> 01:02:30,153
[sobs]

911
01:02:31,081 --> 01:02:33,619
Without knowing that,
she just never stops dying.

912
01:02:33,708 --> 01:02:35,040
Stella.

913
01:02:35,627 --> 01:02:38,586
Even if you were there,
you still wouldn't know.

914
01:02:38,672 --> 01:02:40,208
But I wasn't there.

915
01:02:43,677 --> 01:02:45,293
She died alone.

916
01:02:48,014 --> 01:02:49,676
Isn't that how we're gonna die?

917
01:02:51,434 --> 01:02:54,142
Drowning, just without the water.

918
01:02:55,063 --> 01:02:57,271
Our own fluids doing the dirty work.

919
01:02:59,442 --> 01:03:00,899
[laughs]

920
01:03:01,611 --> 01:03:03,477
I think about that last breath a lot.

921
01:03:04,864 --> 01:03:06,480
Gasping for air,

922
01:03:07,867 --> 01:03:09,449
not getting any.

923
01:03:11,162 --> 01:03:12,448
No air, just...

924
01:03:14,374 --> 01:03:15,615
black.

925
01:03:17,877 --> 01:03:19,459
But that's only on Mondays.

926
01:03:19,546 --> 01:03:21,208
Otherwise, I don't dwell on it.

927
01:03:25,427 --> 01:03:27,384
There's that smile.

928
01:03:33,518 --> 01:03:34,975
God, you're beautiful.

929
01:03:36,938 --> 01:03:38,349
And brave.

930
01:03:39,065 --> 01:03:41,682
[soft indie song playing]

931
01:03:43,361 --> 01:03:44,977
I wish I could touch you.

932
01:04:33,828 --> 01:04:35,160
I lied...

933
01:04:35,914 --> 01:04:37,371
when we met.

934
01:04:40,418 --> 01:04:41,534
I've never had sex.

935
01:04:41,628 --> 01:04:43,290
[laughs]

936
01:04:46,216 --> 01:04:48,424
I've never wanted anyone to see me.

937
01:04:48,510 --> 01:04:50,001
The scars, the...

938
01:04:53,848 --> 01:04:55,805
the tube, nothing about it's sexy.

939
01:04:57,268 --> 01:04:59,100
Everything about you is sexy.

940
01:05:01,940 --> 01:05:03,397
I think you're perfect.

941
01:05:11,533 --> 01:05:13,365
[song continues]

942
01:06:14,053 --> 01:06:17,467
[song continues]

943
01:06:59,641 --> 01:07:01,382
[yelping]

944
01:07:05,438 --> 01:07:07,350
[song ends]

945
01:07:10,527 --> 01:07:12,393
- Good morning.
- Good morning.

946
01:07:19,160 --> 01:07:20,901
[Stella] See those lights out there?

947
01:07:21,329 --> 01:07:23,491
Abby and I would call them stars

948
01:07:23,581 --> 01:07:25,664
and we would make wishes.

949
01:07:27,835 --> 01:07:29,872
She'd never tell me what
her wish was, but...

950
01:07:32,090 --> 01:07:34,298
I knew she wished for new lungs for me.

951
01:07:35,843 --> 01:07:37,584
I hope she gets her wish.

952
01:07:38,012 --> 01:07:39,969
[chuckles] Yeah, me too.

953
01:07:43,017 --> 01:07:44,974
- Mornin', Barb.
- Good morning, Robert.

954
01:07:59,617 --> 01:08:00,949
[sighs]

955
01:08:01,578 --> 01:08:02,578
[knocking]

956
01:08:11,462 --> 01:08:12,998
Where are they?

957
01:08:14,507 --> 01:08:15,748
Who?

958
01:08:16,551 --> 01:08:18,133
What are you talking about?

959
01:08:27,103 --> 01:08:28,469
[cell phone chimes]

960
01:08:31,190 --> 01:08:34,274
- Oh, shit. Barb knows we're gone.
- Okay.

961
01:08:34,360 --> 01:08:37,398
Uh, she'll look for me first
in the NICU, so...

962
01:08:38,281 --> 01:08:40,238
Bye! Okay.

963
01:08:47,874 --> 01:08:49,331
[coughing]

964
01:08:57,050 --> 01:08:58,632
[panting]

965
01:09:00,178 --> 01:09:01,510
[elevator bell dings]

966
01:09:08,686 --> 01:09:09,847
[sighs]

967
01:09:19,155 --> 01:09:21,613
[coughing]

968
01:09:30,458 --> 01:09:31,744
[exhales]

969
01:09:32,710 --> 01:09:34,372
[laughs]

970
01:09:39,592 --> 01:09:40,878
[cell phone chimes]

971
01:10:06,244 --> 01:10:08,702
[line ringing]

972
01:10:08,788 --> 01:10:10,654
[cell phone ringing]

973
01:10:15,545 --> 01:10:17,377
I'm free!

974
01:10:18,464 --> 01:10:19,625
Oh...

975
01:10:20,049 --> 01:10:21,631
Oh, my gosh!

976
01:10:21,718 --> 01:10:23,050
Happy birthday!

977
01:10:23,136 --> 01:10:24,843
I'm so sorry. I forgot.

978
01:10:24,929 --> 01:10:26,045
No, it's fine.

979
01:10:26,139 --> 01:10:28,158
What are you doing? Are you busy?
Let's take a walk.

980
01:10:28,182 --> 01:10:29,889
<i>I can't right now.</i>

981
01:10:29,976 --> 01:10:31,217
I'm sorry.

982
01:10:31,978 --> 01:10:32,978
Studying.

983
01:10:33,062 --> 01:10:34,519
<i>Maybe later?</i>

984
01:10:35,022 --> 01:10:36,763
My friends are actually coming later.

985
01:10:36,858 --> 01:10:38,099
That's all right.

986
01:10:38,192 --> 01:10:39,649
We'll figure something out.

987
01:10:40,862 --> 01:10:42,444
I was just, uh,

988
01:10:43,239 --> 01:10:44,605
missing you.

989
01:10:47,702 --> 01:10:49,318
Talk to you later.

990
01:10:49,412 --> 01:10:51,244
<i>All right. Bye.</i>

991
01:10:51,330 --> 01:10:52,696
[line beeps]

992
01:10:57,336 --> 01:10:58,452
Jason.

993
01:11:00,173 --> 01:11:01,209
Yeah, no. Don't...

994
01:11:01,299 --> 01:11:03,040
No. Don't worry about it. It's fine.

995
01:11:03,760 --> 01:11:05,717
<i>No, seriously, I'm not mad.</i>

996
01:11:07,180 --> 01:11:09,137
It's fine. Just do your thing.

997
01:11:10,391 --> 01:11:11,848
<i>I'll talk to you tomorrow.</i>

998
01:11:39,212 --> 01:11:40,419
[laptop chimes]

999
01:11:45,468 --> 01:11:46,629
[knocking]

1000
01:13:25,735 --> 01:13:26,896
[cell phone chimes]

1001
01:13:50,635 --> 01:13:52,297
Thought you'd never find me.

1002
01:13:55,097 --> 01:13:56,713
I know it's late,

1003
01:13:56,807 --> 01:13:59,299
but we had to wait
till the cafeteria closed.

1004
01:13:59,936 --> 01:14:00,936
"We"?

1005
01:14:00,937 --> 01:14:02,428
Mm-hmm.

1006
01:14:06,943 --> 01:14:08,855
[all] Surprise!

1007
01:14:08,945 --> 01:14:11,562
- [laughing, whooping]
- Happy birthday, Will!

1008
01:14:12,281 --> 01:14:14,398
We felt so bad for ditching you, dude.

1009
01:14:14,492 --> 01:14:17,735
But your girlfriend DM'd us
and convinced us to surprise you, man.

1010
01:14:17,828 --> 01:14:19,535
- "Girlfriend"?
- Happy birthday.

1011
01:14:19,622 --> 01:14:20,703
You're so good.

1012
01:14:20,790 --> 01:14:22,497
[Jason] Yeah, I'm good.

1013
01:14:22,583 --> 01:14:25,041
- [girl] I can't believe he's real.
- I know!

1014
01:14:25,127 --> 01:14:28,211
- [Maya] And he's even hotter in person.
- [girl] Seriously.

1015
01:14:28,297 --> 01:14:30,380
[Poe] Hey, the food's almost ready!

1016
01:14:31,008 --> 01:14:33,716
- And happy birthday!
- [laughter]

1017
01:14:40,226 --> 01:14:42,969
Just wanted to observe the master at work.

1018
01:14:43,437 --> 01:14:45,804
- Are those roses?
- [Poe] Mm-hmm.

1019
01:14:47,566 --> 01:14:50,183
They're so beautiful. How do you do that?

1020
01:14:50,528 --> 01:14:51,860
[Poe] I've been practicing.

1021
01:14:55,866 --> 01:14:58,483
'Cause next month, Michael
and I are gonna go see my mom.

1022
01:14:59,495 --> 01:15:00,702
Really?

1023
01:15:00,997 --> 01:15:02,078
[squeals]

1024
01:15:02,164 --> 01:15:04,406
He's coming to lunch tomorrow
and I'm gonna go for it.

1025
01:15:04,500 --> 01:15:06,958
- [chuckles]
- [Stella] Oh, my God!

1026
01:15:09,296 --> 01:15:10,332
He loves me.

1027
01:15:11,465 --> 01:15:12,626
And I love him, too.

1028
01:15:13,843 --> 01:15:17,177
- Aw, Poe, I'm... I'm so happy!
- No.

1029
01:15:17,263 --> 01:15:20,176
Don't go all soppy on me.
You know I can't let a girl cry alone.

1030
01:15:20,266 --> 01:15:21,427
[laughs]

1031
01:15:22,393 --> 01:15:24,134
They're hap... They're happy tears.

1032
01:15:25,062 --> 01:15:26,678
I'm happy for you, Poe.

1033
01:15:27,982 --> 01:15:29,644
[both laugh]

1034
01:15:32,069 --> 01:15:33,185
Let's eat!

1035
01:15:33,612 --> 01:15:34,648
[squeals]

1036
01:15:35,156 --> 01:15:37,318
[funk music playing]

1037
01:15:48,794 --> 01:15:50,911
Poe, where did you get all of this?

1038
01:15:51,005 --> 01:15:54,089
Hospitals have VIP kitchens
where they keep all the good stuff.

1039
01:15:54,300 --> 01:15:56,542
You know, for celebrities, politicians.

1040
01:15:57,136 --> 01:15:59,423
But tonight, Birthday Boy, it's for you.

1041
01:16:01,390 --> 01:16:02,506
<i>Salud!</i>

1042
01:16:02,933 --> 01:16:04,390
[all] <i>Salud!</i>

1043
01:16:08,147 --> 01:16:09,604
[all laughing]

1044
01:16:13,319 --> 01:16:16,528
[coughing]

1045
01:16:18,032 --> 01:16:19,489
We were, like, ten!

1046
01:16:19,784 --> 01:16:22,572
Yes. And we literally
put sheets over our head

1047
01:16:22,661 --> 01:16:24,243
and ran into the dementia ward!

1048
01:16:24,330 --> 01:16:26,743
- [thumps table]
- [all laughing]

1049
01:16:28,292 --> 01:16:29,828
It was just like that!

1050
01:16:30,086 --> 01:16:32,166
- [Poe, spookily] Woo!
- [Stella] It was pandemonium.

1051
01:16:32,338 --> 01:16:35,422
- It was crazy.
- It was the best Halloween ever!

1052
01:16:36,550 --> 01:16:38,041
We got in so much trouble.

1053
01:16:38,135 --> 01:16:41,754
And it wasn't even our idea. Remember?
Abby... Abby came up with that.

1054
01:16:42,264 --> 01:16:43,721
[laughter stops]

1055
01:16:51,941 --> 01:16:53,477
Abby was wild.

1056
01:16:54,318 --> 01:16:56,480
- She was free.
- [Stella] Hmm.

1057
01:16:56,570 --> 01:16:59,654
[Poe] She always said she was gonna
live big because Stella couldn't.

1058
01:17:01,075 --> 01:17:02,075
She did.

1059
01:17:02,159 --> 01:17:03,616
[Poe] She lived big.

1060
01:17:03,702 --> 01:17:05,489
Bigger than any of us.

1061
01:17:06,622 --> 01:17:08,955
She would've loved
a clandestine party like this one!

1062
01:17:09,208 --> 01:17:10,289
She would've.

1063
01:17:13,045 --> 01:17:14,911
- To Abby.
- [Maya] To Abby.

1064
01:17:16,298 --> 01:17:17,334
[girl] To Abby.

1065
01:17:22,304 --> 01:17:27,015
[all] <i>♪ Happy Birthday to you ♪</i>

1066
01:17:27,101 --> 01:17:28,433
Whoo!

1067
01:17:30,146 --> 01:17:31,353
Make a wish!

1068
01:17:36,652 --> 01:17:39,360
I can't blow the candles out
or else you guys can't eat it.

1069
01:17:42,449 --> 01:17:44,441
- [blows]
- [all laugh]

1070
01:17:45,327 --> 01:17:46,659
[Hope] I made a wish for you.

1071
01:17:46,745 --> 01:17:48,031
Thank you.

1072
01:17:48,122 --> 01:17:49,954
One. Two.

1073
01:17:50,040 --> 01:17:51,184
- [Maya] All right.
- [Poe] Three.

1074
01:17:51,208 --> 01:17:52,540
[shutter clicks]

1075
01:17:52,626 --> 01:17:53,992
[all] Yay!

1076
01:17:54,086 --> 01:17:56,419
- [girl] Happy Birthday, Will!
- [Maya] Yes!

1077
01:17:58,507 --> 01:17:59,507
[Poe] Barb?

1078
01:17:59,800 --> 01:18:00,836
Hey!

1079
01:18:00,926 --> 01:18:01,926
[Barb clears throat]

1080
01:18:02,386 --> 01:18:04,218
[Poe] We thought you were off tonight.

1081
01:18:04,305 --> 01:18:05,921
You want us to fix you a plate?

1082
01:18:07,349 --> 01:18:08,760
That's it. That's it.

1083
01:18:08,851 --> 01:18:11,594
You're all confined to your rooms
while we get respiratory cultures.

1084
01:18:11,687 --> 01:18:12,768
And you.

1085
01:18:13,147 --> 01:18:14,729
You'll be transferred in the morning.

1086
01:18:14,815 --> 01:18:16,727
[Stella] Barb! Barb, it wasn't his fault.

1087
01:18:16,817 --> 01:18:19,685
Well, you might be willing to gamble
with your lives, but I'm not!

1088
01:18:19,778 --> 01:18:21,314
Just like when we were kids.

1089
01:18:21,405 --> 01:18:23,397
But you're not kids anymore, Poe.

1090
01:18:23,490 --> 01:18:25,231
But we were safe like you taught us to be.

1091
01:18:25,326 --> 01:18:26,487
Oh... [sighs]

1092
01:18:26,869 --> 01:18:28,952
I'm sorry, but it was fun!

1093
01:18:37,796 --> 01:18:38,957
[laughing]

1094
01:18:44,595 --> 01:18:46,632
[Will] <i>All right,
I'll let you sleep, okay?</i>

1095
01:18:46,722 --> 01:18:47,883
[Stella] Good night.

1096
01:18:48,474 --> 01:18:49,635
<i>Good night.</i>

1097
01:18:50,559 --> 01:18:51,845
[lines beeps]

1098
01:18:59,735 --> 01:19:01,146
A little pick-me-up?

1099
01:19:01,237 --> 01:19:02,444
Thank you.

1100
01:19:03,197 --> 01:19:05,189
It's just safer if he goes.

1101
01:19:06,283 --> 01:19:07,569
You're probably right.

1102
01:19:07,660 --> 01:19:09,322
She's gonna hate me.

1103
01:19:09,578 --> 01:19:11,490
- [Julie] Mm-hmm.
- [phone ringing]

1104
01:19:13,832 --> 01:19:15,073
What's up, Poe?

1105
01:19:16,835 --> 01:19:20,249
[sighs] He probably sat on
the call button again. I got it.

1106
01:19:23,968 --> 01:19:26,005
Knock, knock. Poe?

1107
01:19:30,849 --> 01:19:32,511
[gasps] Code Blue!

1108
01:19:35,187 --> 01:19:37,144
[man on PA] <i>Attention,
all medical personnel.</i>

1109
01:19:37,231 --> 01:19:38,688
- Poe! Poe!
<i>- Code Blue. Room 310.</i>

1110
01:19:38,774 --> 01:19:40,231
- [Barb] Poe!
- Stay with me.

1111
01:19:40,317 --> 01:19:41,524
No pulse.

1112
01:19:41,610 --> 01:19:42,851
Oh, God! Okay.

1113
01:19:42,945 --> 01:19:45,358
- [Julie] Stay with me, baby.
- He's not breathing.

1114
01:19:45,739 --> 01:19:48,823
- Come on, you can do it. Come on.
- Bag him. Start chest compressions!

1115
01:19:49,952 --> 01:19:51,513
- [Julie] Come on!
- [Barb] Come on, Poe.

1116
01:19:51,537 --> 01:19:53,870
- Come on, baby! Come on, baby.
- [doctor] Give him an Epi!

1117
01:19:53,956 --> 01:19:56,573
It's a massive tension pneumothorax.
His lung's collapsing.

1118
01:19:59,503 --> 01:20:01,620
- [doctor] Put the pads on him!
- Come on, buddy.

1119
01:20:01,714 --> 01:20:04,172
- [Stella] What's happening?
- [Barb] Come on, sweetie!

1120
01:20:04,258 --> 01:20:06,258
- [Julie] Come on, buddy!
- Barb, what's happening?

1121
01:20:06,552 --> 01:20:08,714
Somebody get her out of here!
Close that door!

1122
01:20:08,804 --> 01:20:11,171
- Barb, what's happening?
- [Barb] Goddamn it! Breathe!

1123
01:20:18,063 --> 01:20:19,349
[Stella] Dr. Hamid?

1124
01:20:19,440 --> 01:20:20,601
Not now, Stella.

1125
01:20:20,691 --> 01:20:22,523
- Dr. Hamid?
- [panting]

1126
01:20:25,821 --> 01:20:27,062
I'm sorry.

1127
01:20:28,657 --> 01:20:29,943
I'm so sorry.

1128
01:20:30,034 --> 01:20:31,195
[sobbing] No!

1129
01:20:33,120 --> 01:20:34,361
No!

1130
01:20:35,122 --> 01:20:37,114
- [sobbing]
- I'm so sorry.

1131
01:20:50,012 --> 01:20:51,012
No!

1132
01:20:51,096 --> 01:20:52,883
[continues sobbing]

1133
01:20:56,518 --> 01:20:57,759
Oh, my God.

1134
01:21:00,189 --> 01:21:02,272
Oh, my God. He's gone.

1135
01:21:03,650 --> 01:21:07,314
Michael's never gonna see him again.
His parents are never gonna see him again.

1136
01:21:09,406 --> 01:21:11,773
I'm never gonna see him again.

1137
01:21:16,872 --> 01:21:18,488
I never hugged him.

1138
01:21:20,042 --> 01:21:21,283
I never hugged him.

1139
01:21:21,377 --> 01:21:24,620
He's my best friend
and I never fucking hugged him.

1140
01:21:27,341 --> 01:21:28,798
Oh, God!

1141
01:21:32,346 --> 01:21:33,837
I'm losing everyone.

1142
01:21:34,348 --> 01:21:36,010
Hey, you're not losing me.

1143
01:21:37,226 --> 01:21:38,342
What are you doing?

1144
01:21:39,978 --> 01:21:42,186
- Get out! Get out!
- I'm sorry.

1145
01:21:42,940 --> 01:21:44,306
Just get out!

1146
01:22:01,959 --> 01:22:03,245
[jar shatters]

1147
01:22:36,743 --> 01:22:38,200
[continues sobbing]

1148
01:24:00,911 --> 01:24:01,992
[no audible dialogue]

1149
01:24:16,385 --> 01:24:17,921
[no audible dialogue]

1150
01:24:38,198 --> 01:24:39,359
[exhales sharply]

1151
01:24:47,541 --> 01:24:48,952
I wanna go see the lights.

1152
01:24:49,960 --> 01:24:52,122
It's gotta be, like, two miles away.

1153
01:24:54,047 --> 01:24:56,084
- Hey, come on, let's go inside.
- I'm going.

1154
01:24:57,301 --> 01:24:58,587
Come with me.

1155
01:24:59,428 --> 01:25:01,636
Stella, now's not the time
to be rebellious.

1156
01:25:01,722 --> 01:25:03,008
Is this about Poe?

1157
01:25:03,098 --> 01:25:04,134
It is about Poe.

1158
01:25:04,600 --> 01:25:06,683
It's about Abby, it's about you and me

1159
01:25:06,768 --> 01:25:09,181
and all the things
that we'll never get to do together.

1160
01:25:09,896 --> 01:25:13,105
This whole time, I've been
living for my treatments

1161
01:25:13,191 --> 01:25:15,649
instead of doing my treatments
so that I can live.

1162
01:25:17,988 --> 01:25:19,229
I wanna live.

1163
01:25:23,493 --> 01:25:25,155
It's just life, Will.

1164
01:25:25,245 --> 01:25:26,861
It'll be over before we know it.

1165
01:25:30,125 --> 01:25:31,125
[sighs]

1166
01:25:32,794 --> 01:25:33,875
All right.

1167
01:25:36,131 --> 01:25:37,793
Can we catch a cab at least?

1168
01:25:39,635 --> 01:25:41,467
I wanna walk and enjoy the night.

1169
01:25:45,474 --> 01:25:47,010
Glove. We're good.

1170
01:25:54,650 --> 01:25:56,357
[chattering]

1171
01:25:59,112 --> 01:26:00,853
[Will panting]

1172
01:26:03,408 --> 01:26:05,445
[Will] How are you always
getting me to exercise?

1173
01:26:05,535 --> 01:26:07,026
[Stella chuckles]

1174
01:26:08,038 --> 01:26:09,745
[both panting]

1175
01:26:21,968 --> 01:26:23,925
It sure looks better from up here.

1176
01:26:35,107 --> 01:26:36,223
[Will grunts]

1177
01:26:36,733 --> 01:26:38,099
[Stella chuckles]

1178
01:26:51,957 --> 01:26:52,957
What's that?

1179
01:26:57,129 --> 01:26:58,995
Yeah, you're gonna
have to explain that one.

1180
01:27:02,634 --> 01:27:05,468
Abby got it for me
the first time I came to the hospital.

1181
01:27:05,846 --> 01:27:07,758
I've had it with me every time since.

1182
01:27:10,434 --> 01:27:11,550
That's a relief, honestly,

1183
01:27:11,643 --> 01:27:15,057
'cause I didn't have the heart to tell you
that a third boob might be a deal breaker.

1184
01:27:15,814 --> 01:27:17,271
[Stella chuckles]

1185
01:27:27,492 --> 01:27:29,108
[Will exhales]

1186
01:27:46,762 --> 01:27:48,048
Hey, Stella.

1187
01:27:49,347 --> 01:27:50,347
Hmm?

1188
01:27:50,974 --> 01:27:52,761
- It's cold.
- [chuckles]

1189
01:27:54,102 --> 01:27:55,218
[grunts]

1190
01:28:02,694 --> 01:28:03,730
Come on.

1191
01:28:04,279 --> 01:28:05,565
Let's go see your lights.

1192
01:28:15,582 --> 01:28:17,118
[both panting]

1193
01:28:18,126 --> 01:28:19,458
Let's take a breather.

1194
01:28:30,472 --> 01:28:32,259
- Stella? Hey, don't do that.
- Ooh!

1195
01:28:32,724 --> 01:28:33,840
Stella...

1196
01:28:33,934 --> 01:28:35,300
[stomps] It's frozen solid.

1197
01:28:41,983 --> 01:28:44,600
[sniffles, sighs heavily]

1198
01:28:46,404 --> 01:28:47,404
[Dr. Hamid] Hey, ladies.

1199
01:28:47,489 --> 01:28:49,697
I just got a call from St. Luke's
in Kansas City.

1200
01:28:49,783 --> 01:28:51,024
Car accident with fatalities.

1201
01:28:51,117 --> 01:28:54,326
One female, AB neg, 5'2",
thoracic cage size...

1202
01:28:54,412 --> 01:28:57,450
- Stella's getting lungs.
- ETA three hours. Get her prepped.

1203
01:28:59,292 --> 01:29:00,954
[Barb gasping]

1204
01:29:02,379 --> 01:29:03,540
Oh, my God.

1205
01:29:08,176 --> 01:29:10,133
No, no, no, no, no.

1206
01:29:10,220 --> 01:29:12,462
No, no, no, no, no. No!

1207
01:29:12,556 --> 01:29:15,390
[Stella laughing, squealing]

1208
01:29:23,441 --> 01:29:24,441
Whew!

1209
01:29:25,569 --> 01:29:26,685
[grunts]

1210
01:29:31,658 --> 01:29:34,071
[cell phone vibrating]

1211
01:29:48,717 --> 01:29:49,798
Hey.

1212
01:29:52,053 --> 01:29:53,260
Everything all right?

1213
01:30:04,232 --> 01:30:05,232
Yeah.

1214
01:30:09,404 --> 01:30:10,861
Yeah, I'm good.

1215
01:30:14,534 --> 01:30:16,196
Oh! [laughing]

1216
01:30:22,792 --> 01:30:23,999
I love you, Stella.

1217
01:30:25,128 --> 01:30:26,460
[panting]

1218
01:30:33,345 --> 01:30:34,631
[giggles]

1219
01:30:35,180 --> 01:30:37,217
[Stella yelps, laughs]

1220
01:30:39,935 --> 01:30:41,597
[Stella coughs]

1221
01:30:46,691 --> 01:30:47,772
I love you, too.

1222
01:31:23,561 --> 01:31:24,802
We can't.

1223
01:31:30,276 --> 01:31:31,392
I know.

1224
01:31:33,321 --> 01:31:34,357
Stella.

1225
01:31:49,421 --> 01:31:50,878
[ice cracking]

1226
01:31:51,214 --> 01:31:52,214
Oh...

1227
01:31:52,465 --> 01:31:56,084
- [Stella] Shit!
- [Will] Come on, come on. Come on.

1228
01:31:56,177 --> 01:31:57,384
- [loud crack]
- Oh my gosh!

1229
01:31:57,470 --> 01:31:59,336
- [Will] Come on.
- [both laugh]

1230
01:31:59,848 --> 01:32:02,181
Barb. Barb? Barb.

1231
01:32:02,267 --> 01:32:04,680
She's not answering
and now it's going straight to voicemail.

1232
01:32:04,769 --> 01:32:06,689
Stella would never run off.
She wouldn't do that.

1233
01:32:06,730 --> 01:32:08,596
- Have you been able to reach him?
- No.

1234
01:32:08,690 --> 01:32:09,690
This is Will's mother.

1235
01:32:09,774 --> 01:32:11,752
- How long have they been gone?
- At least an hour.

1236
01:32:11,776 --> 01:32:13,656
If your son causes Stella
to lose these lungs...

1237
01:32:13,737 --> 01:32:17,401
- My son is just as sick as your daughter.
- Stella would never do anything like this.

1238
01:32:17,490 --> 01:32:19,527
Stella did this, Erin. Not Will.

1239
01:32:19,617 --> 01:32:21,324
He doesn't know anything about the lungs.

1240
01:32:21,995 --> 01:32:23,236
Lungs?

1241
01:32:23,329 --> 01:32:24,740
- Is there a transplant?
- Yes.

1242
01:32:24,831 --> 01:32:26,447
Yeah, for Stella. They're on the way.

1243
01:32:27,125 --> 01:32:30,118
[Stella] Well, tell me at least
you're a cat person. Do you like cats?

1244
01:32:30,211 --> 01:32:31,543
[Will] I owned a ferret.

1245
01:32:31,629 --> 01:32:33,416
I was a ferret kid. [chuckles]

1246
01:32:33,506 --> 01:32:35,293
Oh, no. You would be a ferret kid.

1247
01:32:35,550 --> 01:32:37,382
- [cell phone vibrating]
- Hold on.

1248
01:32:37,469 --> 01:32:39,051
- Don't answer it.
- Come on.

1249
01:32:39,137 --> 01:32:41,073
- Really, what do they need right now?
- It's my mom.

1250
01:32:41,097 --> 01:32:43,589
- Yeah, but...
- Let me just tell her that I'm okay.

1251
01:32:48,605 --> 01:32:50,141
Stella, they have new lungs for you.

1252
01:32:52,233 --> 01:32:55,101
Hey, they have new lungs for you.
Let's go to the hospital. Come on!

1253
01:32:55,195 --> 01:32:56,686
I haven't seen the lights yet.

1254
01:32:57,864 --> 01:32:58,945
The lights?

1255
01:32:59,574 --> 01:33:01,907
Do you know about this?
What are we doing out here?

1256
01:33:01,993 --> 01:33:04,055
- Let's go to the hospital. Come on.
- Five years, Will.

1257
01:33:04,079 --> 01:33:05,347
- Five years?
- That's the shelf life.

1258
01:33:05,371 --> 01:33:06,766
Five years is a lifetime
for people like us.

1259
01:33:06,790 --> 01:33:10,158
- It's not! What happens when they fail...
- Can we go the hospital, please?

1260
01:33:10,251 --> 01:33:11,854
- Come on, let's go.
- Will? Will? [yelps]

1261
01:33:11,878 --> 01:33:13,039
- [thud]
- Stella!

1262
01:33:13,254 --> 01:33:14,415
Stella!

1263
01:33:19,219 --> 01:33:21,176
[coughing]

1264
01:33:21,262 --> 01:33:22,423
[laughing]

1265
01:33:25,975 --> 01:33:27,216
Stella.

1266
01:33:27,310 --> 01:33:28,426
Come on.

1267
01:33:28,728 --> 01:33:30,640
Please? It's cold.

1268
01:33:34,734 --> 01:33:35,815
Stella!

1269
01:33:43,368 --> 01:33:44,575
[muffled] Stella!

1270
01:33:57,465 --> 01:33:59,127
[panting rapidly]

1271
01:34:01,010 --> 01:34:02,010
Stella.

1272
01:34:38,047 --> 01:34:39,538
[Will gasping]

1273
01:34:40,466 --> 01:34:41,466
Help!

1274
01:34:49,184 --> 01:34:50,220
[sent message tone]

1275
01:34:54,022 --> 01:34:55,103
Come on, Stella.

1276
01:34:55,773 --> 01:34:57,480
[panting]

1277
01:35:09,287 --> 01:35:10,823
[coughing]

1278
01:35:14,500 --> 01:35:15,741
Come on!

1279
01:35:16,169 --> 01:35:17,376
Come on!

1280
01:35:17,462 --> 01:35:18,623
[grunts]

1281
01:35:22,133 --> 01:35:23,133
Come on, Stella.

1282
01:35:23,218 --> 01:35:24,299
[inhales]

1283
01:35:32,393 --> 01:35:34,100
[Will gasping]

1284
01:36:19,941 --> 01:36:21,477
[wheezing]

1285
01:36:28,241 --> 01:36:29,948
[gurgles]

1286
01:36:31,160 --> 01:36:32,822
[coughing]

1287
01:36:50,263 --> 01:36:52,676
[siren wailing in distance]

1288
01:36:54,392 --> 01:36:55,599
[coughing]

1289
01:36:56,936 --> 01:36:57,976
[doctor] What have we got?

1290
01:36:58,062 --> 01:37:00,224
[paramedic] A 17-year-old
female with cystic fibrosis.

1291
01:37:00,315 --> 01:37:02,056
We already have lungs for her.

1292
01:37:02,150 --> 01:37:04,642
- Can someone get the other mask on?
- Oh, my God. Honey.

1293
01:37:04,736 --> 01:37:07,194
- [coughing]
- It's okay.

1294
01:37:07,280 --> 01:37:09,442
My son. My son was out there, too.

1295
01:37:09,532 --> 01:37:11,023
I'm sorry. Step back, please.

1296
01:37:11,117 --> 01:37:12,233
[Erin] You're okay.

1297
01:37:12,327 --> 01:37:13,967
- Where's Will?
- [Erin] It's okay, honey.

1298
01:37:14,037 --> 01:37:15,118
Where's Will?

1299
01:37:15,204 --> 01:37:16,204
- [Erin] Honey.
- [gasps]

1300
01:37:16,289 --> 01:37:17,746
- [Julie] Coming through!
- Will!

1301
01:37:18,750 --> 01:37:20,332
- Is he okay?
- He's okay.

1302
01:37:20,418 --> 01:37:21,704
- [coughing]
- Will, I'm here.

1303
01:37:21,794 --> 01:37:24,457
[Dr. Hamid] Get the other mask on her
as soon as possible, please.

1304
01:37:24,547 --> 01:37:26,459
[Julie] O2 is at 45. Possible hypothermia.

1305
01:37:26,591 --> 01:37:29,611
- We're gonna need more blankets over here.
- [Erin] It's okay. Just breathe.

1306
01:37:29,635 --> 01:37:32,298
- [Dr. Hamid] Stella?
- [Erin] It's okay, I've got you, honey.

1307
01:37:32,388 --> 01:37:34,268
- [Dr. Hamid] Stella?
- It's okay, just breathe.

1308
01:37:34,349 --> 01:37:36,261
You need to calm down.
We have your new lungs...

1309
01:37:36,351 --> 01:37:38,231
- [Stella] No! I don't want them.
- Yes, Stella.

1310
01:37:38,311 --> 01:37:39,847
I don't... I don't want them.

1311
01:37:39,937 --> 01:37:43,137
Stella, we've been waiting for these lungs
for years. What are you talking about?

1312
01:37:43,191 --> 01:37:45,274
If you don't use the lungs,
they're wasted, sweetie.

1313
01:37:45,360 --> 01:37:47,773
I love him. The new lungs
won't mean anything without him.

1314
01:37:47,862 --> 01:37:50,195
- Get that mask back on him.
- Keep that on, Will.

1315
01:37:50,281 --> 01:37:51,592
- [Will] Stop! Stop!
- [Erin] Hold still.

1316
01:37:51,616 --> 01:37:53,357
Please! Stop.

1317
01:37:53,993 --> 01:37:55,905
[Stella] Will! [coughs]

1318
01:37:56,204 --> 01:37:57,445
Please.

1319
01:37:59,540 --> 01:38:00,747
Take the lungs.

1320
01:38:02,418 --> 01:38:03,579
For me.

1321
01:38:05,755 --> 01:38:06,755
[Will coughs]

1322
01:38:06,839 --> 01:38:08,525
- Okay.
- [paramedic] Come on, put the mask on.

1323
01:38:08,549 --> 01:38:11,132
- I'm ready. Okay.
- [Dr. Hamid] Okay. All right, let's go.

1324
01:38:11,219 --> 01:38:14,132
Okay, okay. I'll be right here, honey.

1325
01:38:14,222 --> 01:38:15,383
[paramedic] Let's go.

1326
01:38:16,140 --> 01:38:18,348
- Okay, I love you so much.
- [Stella] Okay.

1327
01:38:19,185 --> 01:38:20,266
I love you, Dad.

1328
01:38:20,353 --> 01:38:21,639
[coughing]

1329
01:38:21,729 --> 01:38:23,641
- [paramedic] Okay, here we go.
- I love you.

1330
01:38:23,731 --> 01:38:25,017
[Will] Dr. Hamid.

1331
01:38:25,608 --> 01:38:27,190
I gave her mouth-to-mouth.

1332
01:38:29,070 --> 01:38:30,936
I'm sorry. I didn't have any other choice.

1333
01:38:31,030 --> 01:38:32,146
You saved her life, Will.

1334
01:38:32,240 --> 01:38:34,402
If she has B. cepacia,
we'll deal with it, okay?

1335
01:38:38,871 --> 01:38:40,863
[mellow indie song playing]

1336
01:39:37,513 --> 01:39:39,675
[song continues]

1337
01:40:08,002 --> 01:40:10,540
[no audible dialogue]

1338
01:40:25,603 --> 01:40:27,185
[song ends]

1339
01:40:28,022 --> 01:40:29,308
[door opens]

1340
01:40:30,733 --> 01:40:32,520
Bacterial cultures came back.

1341
01:40:33,945 --> 01:40:36,733
I don't know how, but she's clean.

1342
01:40:37,532 --> 01:40:38,818
She didn't get it.

1343
01:40:42,537 --> 01:40:44,199
But that doesn't mean she won't.

1344
01:40:48,751 --> 01:40:49,992
What about Will?

1345
01:40:51,671 --> 01:40:53,128
Is the treatment working?

1346
01:40:58,135 --> 01:40:59,296
No.

1347
01:41:01,681 --> 01:41:03,092
No, it's not.

1348
01:41:04,892 --> 01:41:06,099
[Barb sighs]

1349
01:41:11,649 --> 01:41:12,765
I'm sorry.

1350
01:41:15,111 --> 01:41:16,397
- For all of this.
- [Barb] No.

1351
01:41:16,487 --> 01:41:18,524
No, no, no, no, sweetie.

1352
01:41:20,241 --> 01:41:21,698
It's not your fault.

1353
01:41:31,877 --> 01:41:32,958
[sighs]

1354
01:41:37,967 --> 01:41:40,459
- [EKG beeping]
- [ventilator pumping]

1355
01:42:09,123 --> 01:42:10,580
[sighs]

1356
01:42:25,348 --> 01:42:26,964
[Will, whispering] Mom. Hey.

1357
01:42:27,683 --> 01:42:28,799
Hey.

1358
01:42:28,893 --> 01:42:30,759
What? What is it? What is it, honey?

1359
01:42:31,937 --> 01:42:33,644
Could you help me with something?

1360
01:42:38,194 --> 01:42:39,480
Are you guys in?

1361
01:42:39,570 --> 01:42:41,152
- Absolutely.
- [Hope] Mm-hmm.

1362
01:42:42,114 --> 01:42:43,275
Barb?

1363
01:42:45,159 --> 01:42:46,650
Hell, yeah, I'm in.

1364
01:42:46,744 --> 01:42:47,825
[Erin chuckles]

1365
01:42:47,912 --> 01:42:49,995
She's sedated. We have a few more hours.

1366
01:42:50,623 --> 01:42:51,909
We have time.

1367
01:42:52,249 --> 01:42:54,286
It's done. They said yes.

1368
01:42:56,212 --> 01:42:57,328
Okay.

1369
01:42:57,755 --> 01:42:59,337
- Let's do this.
- [Jason] Let's do it.

1370
01:43:01,425 --> 01:43:03,508
[no audible dialogue]

1371
01:43:10,643 --> 01:43:14,353
I've done all I'm doing
with this, Will. I'm done.

1372
01:43:17,692 --> 01:43:19,274
- [Erin] Thank you.
- [knocking]

1373
01:43:20,486 --> 01:43:21,897
She's waking up.

1374
01:43:26,575 --> 01:43:27,986
[Erin, softly] Hey, honey.

1375
01:43:33,082 --> 01:43:35,540
- Hey, sweetie, you did great!
- Hi! You really did.

1376
01:43:35,626 --> 01:43:36,912
- You did great.
- You did!

1377
01:43:40,923 --> 01:43:43,381
- [Barb] You did wonderful, baby.
- [Erin] Yeah.

1378
01:43:43,467 --> 01:43:44,674
You did good.

1379
01:43:45,886 --> 01:43:47,127
[Erin] It's okay.

1380
01:43:54,395 --> 01:43:56,307
[whispering] We have something for you.

1381
01:44:01,902 --> 01:44:04,144
[Will] <i>My beautiful, bossy Stella.</i>

1382
01:44:05,197 --> 01:44:07,689
<i>I guess it's true,
what that book of yours says.</i>

1383
01:44:08,659 --> 01:44:10,651
<i>That the soul knows no time.</i>

1384
01:44:12,621 --> 01:44:14,578
<i>My drug trial's not working.</i>

1385
01:44:16,083 --> 01:44:18,826
<i>I want you to know that this past month</i>

1386
01:44:18,919 --> 01:44:20,535
<i>will last forever for me.</i>

1387
01:44:21,547 --> 01:44:24,335
<i>My only regret
is that you didn't get to see your lights.</i>

1388
01:45:04,340 --> 01:45:05,876
[cell phone vibrating]

1389
01:45:19,647 --> 01:45:21,388
I finally got you speechless.

1390
01:45:26,195 --> 01:45:27,464
You know, people are always saying

1391
01:45:27,488 --> 01:45:29,946
if you love something,
you have to learn to let it go.

1392
01:45:31,617 --> 01:45:33,358
I thought that was such bullshit.

1393
01:45:35,788 --> 01:45:37,825
Till I watched you almost die.

1394
01:45:38,874 --> 01:45:40,706
In that moment, Stella,

1395
01:45:43,546 --> 01:45:45,128
nothing mattered to me.

1396
01:45:46,924 --> 01:45:48,256
Except you.

1397
01:45:52,888 --> 01:45:54,254
I'm sorry.

1398
01:45:58,477 --> 01:45:59,809
I don't wanna go.

1399
01:46:02,898 --> 01:46:04,890
All I want is to be with you.

1400
01:46:09,071 --> 01:46:10,312
I can't.

1401
01:46:12,616 --> 01:46:14,152
I need you to be safe...

1402
01:46:15,536 --> 01:46:16,868
from me.

1403
01:46:20,249 --> 01:46:21,865
I don't know what comes next,

1404
01:46:22,877 --> 01:46:25,620
but I don't regret any of this.

1405
01:46:30,593 --> 01:46:32,129
Could you close your eyes?

1406
01:46:33,512 --> 01:46:36,676
I just don't know if I can walk away
if you're still looking at me.

1407
01:46:44,523 --> 01:46:45,684
Please.

1408
01:47:03,083 --> 01:47:04,449
I love you...

1409
01:47:05,502 --> 01:47:06,868
so much.

1410
01:47:20,643 --> 01:47:22,976
[mellow song playing]

1411
01:47:35,950 --> 01:47:37,691
[sniffles] He left this for you.

1412
01:48:09,400 --> 01:48:10,936
[sobbing]

1413
01:48:23,080 --> 01:48:24,161
[both chuckle]

1414
01:48:26,291 --> 01:48:27,452
[gasps]

1415
01:48:34,591 --> 01:48:36,127
[sobs]

1416
01:49:09,209 --> 01:49:10,689
- [song fades]
- [Stella] <i>Human touch.</i>

1417
01:49:11,962 --> 01:49:13,999
Our first form of communication.

1418
01:49:14,089 --> 01:49:17,708
<i>- Say, "Hi, Auntie Stella."</i> [chuckles]
- [Stella] <i>Safety, security, comfort,</i>

1419
01:49:18,510 --> 01:49:21,173
<i>all in the gentle caress of a finger.</i>

1420
01:49:22,306 --> 01:49:24,889
<i>Or at the brush of lips on a soft cheek.</i>

1421
01:49:24,975 --> 01:49:26,932
<i>Hey, Stella. You can't record that. No.</i>

1422
01:49:27,352 --> 01:49:29,184
It connects us when we're happy...

1423
01:49:29,271 --> 01:49:30,853
[giggling]

1424
01:49:31,231 --> 01:49:32,938
[gasps] <i>Abby, no.</i>

1425
01:49:33,025 --> 01:49:34,665
[Stella]<i>...bolsters us
in times of fear...</i>

1426
01:49:34,735 --> 01:49:35,896
- [shouts]
- [screams]

1427
01:49:35,986 --> 01:49:37,727
<i>- Can you turn that off?</i>
- [Maya] <i>Stella!</i>

1428
01:49:38,447 --> 01:49:40,564
...excites us in times of passion...

1429
01:49:41,408 --> 01:49:44,321
<i>Ah. No. Stella, no. Stop!</i>

1430
01:49:45,079 --> 01:49:46,320
...and love.

1431
01:49:49,666 --> 01:49:53,376
We need that touch from the one we love
almost as much as we need air to breathe.

1432
01:49:55,714 --> 01:49:58,422
<i>But I never understood
the importance of touch,</i>

1433
01:50:00,052 --> 01:50:01,384
<i>his touch...</i>

1434
01:50:03,764 --> 01:50:05,130
<i>until I couldn't have it.</i>

1435
01:50:09,770 --> 01:50:11,807
So, if you're watching this,

1436
01:50:13,023 --> 01:50:14,514
and you're able,

1437
01:50:17,569 --> 01:50:18,901
<i>touch him.</i>

1438
01:50:19,780 --> 01:50:20,941
<i>Touch her.</i>

1439
01:50:23,450 --> 01:50:25,487
<i>Life's too short to waste a second.</i>

1440
01:50:33,418 --> 01:50:36,252
[upbeat indie song playing]

1441
01:51:59,087 --> 01:52:01,795
[song continues]

1442
01:53:43,775 --> 01:53:46,142
[song ends]

1443
01:53:47,305 --> 01:54:47,589
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